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13 CONFESSIONS OF A WOMAN

“Look how God has provided everything, we just need to lower our prestige”.

The night came very quickly. Not a single drop of rain fell on Bandung that night.

The wind was so soft that it blew softly. Adhan isya’ just stopped, in the room, a woman is preparing to perform prayers. He named the prayer mat that smelled of fragrance, his body was wrapped in white face that was no less fragrant.

“Mas Alan is familiar, Mira?” Alin.

“But.” Answer Alan.

Suddenly clear water pooled in the corner of his eyes, so it did not feel dripping without his consent, falling soaked the white face.

Since her meeting with Alan this afternoon, Mira kept remembering what Alan said in the office. He didn't understand what he meant by his words. Mira rubbed her tears slowly.

“Why am I crying,”. While continuing to wipe her tears. But the clear water did not seem to want to stop coming out of his eyes.

Along with that, the words of Alan who claimed not to know him continued to run in the memory of Mira.

Mira raised both her hands. Seriously to the Creator.

“Yes my God, give me the best partner from your side, the couple who also became my best friend in the affairs of Religion, World affairs, and the Hereafter.”

Suddenly Alan's face flashed through his mind, with his jutek face, his cuteness, and sometimes fierce.

Mira recalls everything that happened in the hospital, since the first time she met Alan. Suddenly Mira's face smiled very small, lifting both cheeks until it looked sweet.

“Till you, Lord?” in the end, in the heart.

Tok, Tok, Tok …

Sound of knocking on the room door. Mira cleared her face and went to the door to open it.

“Sister Nadia.” Mira said knowing her sister was already at the door of her room.

“What do you need, sis?” mira saw her brother standing still. Nadia kept her head down.

“Sister may enter,” replied Nadia while raising her head. His eyes were like he had been crying for a long time.

“Bby, sis. Please login.” Mira knows very well, her brother is in a bad state lately.

Then Nadia went into her sister's room. Rarely did Nadia want to go into Mira's room. Likewise with Mira, she was not even allowed to enter her brother's room.

Ever since she lived with her sister and grandmother, Mira has hardly been in her sister's room.

“Kak why?” tanya Mira started the conversation. Nadia was sitting next to Mira's bed. While Mira sat on the study chair that was beside her.

Nadia was silent. He seemed to ignore Mira's question. Suddenly Nadia approached and hugged Mira so tightly. Real tight.

Mira was surprised by what her brother did. Nadia continued to hug Mira while crying stifled. Let go of the sadness that he has been so long.

“Kak. What's Nadia's sister? The same story Mira,” said Mira with a sense of caring.

He seemed unable to see his brother's condition. Mira rubbed Nadia's shoulders and hair that was still in her arms.

“Kakak calm down first. Same story as Mira. I'll help brother as much as I can.” Mira tried to calm her brother.

Nadia tried to stop her crying. He rose from Mira's embrace, wiping away her tears. Mira gave some tissue sheets that she always prepared at the study table to Nadia.

“Alan was yesterday afternoon at home.” Nadia. Mira was silent for a moment.

“There needs to what Mas Alan to home, Kak?” ask Mira.

“Kak. Nadia has me. Brother Nadia can tell the same story Mira.” Mira.

“What really happened to Brother Nadia and Mas Alan,” Added Mira trying to calm her brother.

“Same brother Alan actually dated.” Mira was silent to hide her surprise after hearing Nadia's confession.

I don't know why he felt something in his heart. But she tried to keep listening to her brother's story.

"What does brother mean?" ask Mira.

“Alan is sister's first love. He is a strong man, and he cares about his family. Ever since I first saw her, I've loved her. Alan is like the sun that always illuminates the earth, the moon that adorns the night. Brother dear Alan, dek.” Obviously Nadia, then she let go of her crying again.

Nadia covered half of her face with both hands. Mira stroked her brother's shoulder while wiping the tears in her eyes that did not feel like they had been standing still for a long time.

“Then, what happened to Brother and Mas Alan?” Mira said, curious.

“What is true that Mas Alan said while at the Hospital?” Added Mira.

“Ngak, deck. Brother never cheated.” Strictly Nadia while raising her head.

“Then why, sis?” Said Mira.

“Kakak can't tell.” Answer Nadia.

“Even to your own sister,” Tukas Mira.

“How can Mira help brother if brother Nadia is not the real story. Sister has buried everything herself,” added Mira. Nadia was silent as if she was thinking of something.

“You and Grandma will be in danger if big brother story.” Nadia.

“Me and Grandma? Mean sister?” Mira was getting curious.

Nadia was doubtful. He looks confused. Mira continues to persuade him to tell her what really happened. Nadia remained silent, she seemed to be thinking about something. From his face, he seemed to be hiding a lot of something big.

Drrrt .. Drrrt .. Drrrt …

Dito is Calling …

Suddenly a call from Dito cuts off the talk of Nadia and Mira. Nadia rushed out of Mira's room and raised the call.

Mira stayed in her room alone.

Trying to digest every word her brother said. She was no less curious, what really happened to her brother; why did Nadia say she and Sharifah would be in danger?

“Where are you going these nights?” mira asked, seeing her brother was tidy. Nadia came out of her room in a hurry.

“No need, you stay at home with Grandma.” That was all Nadia said, then left Mira.

“But, brother Nadia.” call Mira, but Nadia does not pay attention to the call Mira.

Mira is curious as to what is really going on with her brother; why does she look rushed after receiving a call from her friend; what is going on with Alan. Mira kept thinking about many things.

The night is getting late. The clock on the wall of Mira's house shows midnight. The atmosphere outside the house looks quiet no activity, only the sound of the night beast is getting louder.

Mira opens her grandmother's room, where it appears an old woman has fallen asleep. Mira exited the room, closing the door quietly.

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