TWILIGHT IN THE PINE FOREST

UNDECIDED

I was on the bed. I feel so sorry I woke up.

Cold air pierced the bone. The sound of the wind being hurt stings in the recesses of my heart.

My heart wanders somewhere.

Change the faces of the people I love present in my eyes.

Yes. the face of my mother who was willing to sacrifice for me. It feels sad to leave her and I even play to find peace of myself to the Bulik house. Guilt attacks my heart.

Yeah, I'm going home.

Tomorrow.

The face of Didik appears. I want to brush her off. Could I still meet him again?

Either I feel empty.

The difference between us is very different.

Yep... His parents are retired police officers. Pretty respected in the village.

Imagining being able to be with him alone made me float in the air.

Who am I.. Only a poor girl who happens to be able to fill her days.

I know that Didik loves me very much. He was very brave, regardless of my social status.

But what power.I have to be self-conscious.

This week I don't know how he's doing.

Maybe he went to college.. And it has to be!

The sound of more and more roosters remembered me that it was time to go out of the room.

I fix the jacket that warms my body.

Immediately I went to the kitchen. Bulik is still in the well of his voice.

I'll light the furnace immediately.

Mas Ari's voice sounded softly talking with Bulik.

"Yes.. later I want to harvest cloves to help Yudi.

Not like my heart is cold... Maybe because the weather is still as cold as ice. hhhmm.

Bulik then told me to make coffee. And gave me vegetables to cook.

His attitude changed a little. Yeah, I understand maybe because I stayed too long.

In my heart I decided. besuk I have to go home to my own village.

I want to stay here longer... But it's not good for long.

Like the days of yesterday... I guard the house while drying cloves.

I faithfully waited so that no chickens would tear apart..

"Dik Yun. "the subtle voice called out to me.

Apparently Mas Ari has finished looking for grass for his goats.

"Yes.. Oh, my. It's so fast.. ".. I pretended to be astonished even though in my heart I was pleased with his presence..

" Yes on Friday.want Friday.want Friday later." he said while chewing atomic nuts.

He sits across from me.

We don't talk much... Because I was a little bit attached to him myself.

I have great respect for him.

His polite attitude was heart-shaking. But at first I heard he already had one.

Not too disappointing my heart.

Because I myself also still do not understand how my story continues with Didik. After a long time we did not meet.

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Its distinctive fragrant aroma..Lux's fragrant bath soap blows finely on my nose...

Wearing white sarongs and cocoa.. Ahhayyy...

He went to the mosque. Friday prayers.

I sometimes wonder at his attitude...

Why is she so sweet. but I'm afraid to be disappointed.

I consider it just the wind.

This afternoon feels sad for me. either because I want to go home or it is cloudy that seems to complement the feeling of my heart that is depressed.

Mas Ari does not look at the trunk of his nose. I don't think I knew he was off to play the Voly yet.

I waited for his little running footsteps while chewing his favorite candy.

Duuh... I want to look at you longer today...

Because tomorrow I won't see your face again...