Turns out I Love You

TAM Season 2 (Over-existing taste)

Nando has arrived at Bella's house. There were no topics they talked about on the trip. Bella refused to talk and Nando was embarrassed to say. Inexplicably seeing Bella who now makes her die of fleas and embarrassed just to say hello.

"Thank you for taking me home. Sorry to bother you." Bella releases her seat belt while holding the car door handle ready to open it.

"Together, and apologize to your husband for bringing you home." Nando looked at the woman beside him.

Bella turned her head, her chest was tight, her eyes were teary yet to believe her husband was gone three months ago. He opened his eyes to hold back the crying. He tried to smile in the midst of his grief. "Let me tell you."

Bella was out of the car but Nando could not let go of his gaze to not look at the adult woman who increasingly looks beautiful at her age and more elegant appearance.

"Assalamualaikum." said Bella, while Nando frowned.

"Wa-walaikumsalam." Nando replied.

Bella enters the house while Nando returns home.

"Your mom's home? me and Devano are worried. Mama's phone is off, we decided to find Mama and thank God that Mama's okay." Hasna breathed a sigh of relief after seeing her Mama had gone home.

The teenage girl hugged Bella in fear of something happening to the woman who had conceived her.

"Yes, Mah. It's a good thing we didn't report it to the police for Mama's disappearance" said worried Devan, who hugged Bella.

Bella smiles and is given three angels she gave birth to from her womb. He rubbed his children's heads and kissed them.

"I'm sorry Mama worried you. Mama's car broke down halfway and luckily Nando helped Mama."

Hasna and Devano let go of her embrace, both of them lyrically. "Have you met Dad?" ask both at the same time. Bella frowning.

"You know that too?"

"He became a BK teacher as well as a sports teacher at our school" said Devan.

"Dad also drove me home" Hasna said. Bella is just a ria.

"Eh, where's Ferdi?" ask Bella looking for the whereabouts of her youngest child who just entered Kindergarten school.

"Ferdi is already sleeping with Grandma" Hasna replied and Bella nodded.

"Mama go in, baby, you guys don't sleep at night. Remember, school tomorrow!"

"Ready, Mah."

Bella smiled and then kissed the eyebrows of her two children who had become routine at night before they went to bed. She turned to her youngest son's room.

"Mah." Mah." Bella wakes Elsa up.

"Hmmmm uh, you're home? Mama fell asleep here. Mama went to the room first yeah, still sleepy." Elsa got off the bed and then stepped into her room.

Bella sat on the edge of the bed rubbing her youngest son's head fondly, peeling his forehead while closing his eyes. He shed tears powerless to see this little boy had already lost his Papa figure.

"Mama's praying that Mama can get through it all, baby." Inner Bella distanced her body and then lie down next to Ferdiansyah Ramadanu then hugged the tiny body hoping that tomorrow she returned cheerful before losing her husband.

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Nando supinely stared at the ceiling, he could not forget the shadow of Bella's face in his mind.

"So, what's wrong if I still love Bella? I love you too but my feelings for Bella are still there and I can't get rid of those feelings."

Nando closed his eyes using his hands hoping that Bella's shadow would disappear from his eyes. However, he could not eliminate it that there was he was getting restless erratically rolling over there bolsters here hoping to sleep.

Nando worshiped, praying for a third of the night asking the owner of the heart and the universe to throw away his love. The grown man raised his hand in solemn prayer.

"O Allah, my Lord, to you the servant complains, only to you the servant asks. Why do you give love in times of inopportune circumstances? I only ask that you remove this feeling for him. Please grant the servant's request if this is wrong."

Nando rubbed his hands against his face, his lips spoke the words of God's asthma that made him feel calmer.

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Bella's Residence.

"Ferdi, you're with Mama at school. All going to the dress shop." Bella tidied her youngest son's hair.

"Yes, Mah." Ferdi is more irritable to talk and not easy to get along with. He also sometimes judges people he does not know.

"Smart kid." Bella leads Ferdi down and joins the others.

Bella breathed her out violently. Every meal, she always remembered her husband who always welcomed her full of smiles. Now everything was different, his life was empty.

Hasna nudges Devan to give her a code to see Bella. Both of them are sad and they know that their mother is sad.

"Good morning, beautiful Mama Bella." Devan stood up to Bella and took her to her seat.

"By the morning too, dear."

"What would you like to eat? Devan get it, okay?" Devan had already poured food onto Bella's plate and Bella just smiled looking at him.

"Van, you want dong too!" pinta Hasna thrust out her plate.

"I want to dong too, brother." timpal Ferdi followed with the plate.

"Why do you ask to be served? just take it yourself!" devan sat back down.

"Ishhh, we also want to be served by you, right, Dek?" hasna said to Ferdi and Ferdi nodded.

"Already, already, let Grandma pour for you." Elsa mediates them. She also knows that her grandchildren are diverting Bella's grief.

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Nando's Residence.

As usual, Nando prepared everything himself. He again prepared to go to school to start teaching 5th grade Elementary students.

Last night, he went home to his own house. The house is the result of his hard work during his time as an oil palm plantation owner.

On the way, Nando thought of his dream. The dream in which he saw a hijab-wearing woman sobbing at a funeral. However, he could not see whose name was in front of the woman. As she greeted him, the woman turned her head and was surprised to find out that she was Bella.

"What do I mean by my dream? why is Bella crying at a funeral? and who died?"

"Why was Alex in my dream to make me happy with Bella? mean what?" Nando was made to wonder with his dream.

"I still love her but it's impossible for me to make Bella happy if Alex is still her husband. This feeling is also why is it still there? it's hard to get rid of it."

Nando finds it hard to shake off the stored flavor for Bella. That woman is very difficult to remove from the deepest recesses of her heart. There may be many events from the past that make it difficult to forget those memories.

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