Trust & Love

Trust & Love (016)

After struggling with his feelings, Zulfikar finally emboldened himself to meet the girl.

Zulfikar felt guilty, because it seemed like the thing that made the girl cry was the result of his little argument with his brother. And Zulfikar felt bad for Aisyah's arrival that afternoon at her request, even though the main purpose was to talk about nurses for Lukman.

With all his courage Zulfikar tried to knock on naysila's door.

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"Can I come in?" zulfikar said slowly.

A woman from inside, tried to wipe away her tears. He didn't want Zulfikar to know that he was crying, too much prestige for him.

"yes, come in!" answer Naysila quietly.

Zulfikar finally entered and he deliberately did not close the door, fearing that Naysila would be uncomfortable in a closed room with him.

"The door is closed!" pinta Naysila, "tomorrow if you want to come in, just go in! 'don't ask for permission." Naysila changed her sitting position, now she is sitting in the makeup mirror while combing her hair.

Why is he talking like that?

What happened to the girl in front of him?

But at the moment Zulfikar did not want to make a fuss about it, he just wanted to apologize for the incident earlier this afternoon.Zulfikar immediately closed the door as Naysila requested, he said,

"I'm sorry before, I didn't mean to .... "

"I get. You don't have to apologize, I was wrong. I'm the one who should be apologizing." Naysila was still combing her hair without looking at the man standing behind her, "but next time if there's any problem you should say to me first, don't go straight to Aisyah's sister," naysila.

Zulfikar just lowered his head while sighing. How could Zukfikar contact Naysila, if he didn't have his phone number.

"Yes, I'm sorry for that" explained Zulfikar, "initially I wanted to call you, but I didn't have your phone number."

Jeez, Naysila remembered that the two of them had never exchanged phone numbers before.

"Judah I will love you" said Naysila.

Zulfikar just nodded.

After finishing combing her hair, Naysila returned to the bed to sleep. He pulled his blanket up to the neck, Zulfikar who saw Naysila had closed his eyes finally chose to come out of the room before Naysila's soft voice stopped Zulfikar's steps.

"Where are you going?"

Zulfikar's steps came to a halt and looked at the girl behind him, "i want to rest."

"Just sleep here!" naysila, who spoke without opening her eyes.

"You mean?" ask Zulfikar wonder.

Naysila woke up from her sleep and took a deep breath, "starting tonight you can sleep in my room."

Zulfikar's brows were clinging to each other, his eyes were squinted and his brain was working harder to better digest clearly what Naysila had just said.

"Don't look at me like that! I don't like it" said Naysila, who was feeling uneasy as Zulfikar looked at her with a stern look.

Understanding the woman's intentions, Zulfikar was seen giving a meaningful smile, "if you do this because of Brother Aisyah's request, it's better not to. I can sleep in the next room, the room is quite comfortable."

Zulfiqar was right, Naysila was forced to do this all because of the words of Sister Aisha.

"It's good if you already know that .. but in spite of all that, I'm just trying to carry out my mandate as well as my obligations as a wife."

The line of smiles on Zulfikar's lips again, finally his wife realized his mistake all along, but Zulfikar's smile did not last long when Naysila again continued his words.

"But I have a condition."

"Condition?" Zulfikar was surprised, why should there be a requirement? and what requirements does his wife ask for?

"What conditions?" ask Zulfikar.

The atmosphere was silent, until finally Naysila's tiny lips began to spit out words.

"You also know that our marriage is not based on love" Naysila looked deeply at Zulfikar. He then opened his blanket.

"You don't love me, do you?" naysila paused as if asking Zulfikar to agree to her question just now, "and neither do I, nor do I love you .. in the least," Naysila was right, there was no love in their hearts to live together like this. All happened because of a coincidence that both felt wronged.

Naysila moved from her bed to the window that was closed, "I hope our marriage is only limited to aborting the obligation" explained Naysila.

Zulfikar's eyes were perfectly rounded, what Naysila had just said.

Only to abandon the obligation

Is she playing with her holy sister a marriage bond?

Zulfikar had already sacrificed his heart and feelings for Nurul just to marry her, but was this the payoff?

"I disagree," Zulfikar argued emphatically, "although our marriage is not based on love, we have no right to mess with the sacred promise we have made" he continued.

"Why not?" naysila said again, "i don't love you and you don't love me, we're just victims here, Zul ... And I hope that no one is harmed here."

A loss?

What loss does that mean?

"You mean?" Ask Zukfikar in wonder.

Naysila took a deep breath. Trying to explain in detail so that the man understands.

"Yes ... for example, I hope you don't think about doing the things that husbands and wives do in general, because it would hurt me as a woman". Naysila.

Zulfikar was completely out of his senses to think, what Naysila had just said was completely out of his reasoning. Deep in Zulfikar's heart he did not love Naysila at all and was not interested in the girl, because his heart and feelings were only for Nurul, especially Naysila was not his type of woman. It is beautiful, but the character is far from good. He did not cover his aura properly and dressed at will without relying on his religious teachings, very far when compared with Nurul.

But Zulfikar is not the type of loser who simply neglects his obligations and responsibilities. He understood the true teachings of his religion, how he would ignore the trust he took for granted.

"No ... I disagree," argued Zukfikar.

"Why?" Naysila fused her eyebrows together, "do you think we're going to do it?" Naysila crossed her hands in front of her chest.

Zulfikar was silent, he could not answer naysila's question.

"Jawab Zul!"

"Sure," answered Zulfikar briefly, who was not sure of it himself.

"Don't fuck around Zul! I don't want to be touched by a man I don't love?" Naysila's gaze turned frantic.

Zulfikar tried to hold back his anger, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath without even opening his mouth.

"Zul, remember! our marriage is only because of trust, not because of love. Never expect more!" naysila said, "you must have a woman you admire, right. Should we fight for our love? If we both have it we just end this marriage, simple right?" Naysila returned to provide a solution that Zukfikar found unreasonable.

What solution does that mean?

Obviously this is not a solution.

Zulfikar smiled grimly at Naysila's increasingly incipient chatter. Although Zulfikar was initially consumed by Naysila's words to fight for his love for Nurul, but Zulfikar's heart and faith remained firm in his service, "I still disagree."

Naysila was upset, "if you stick to your stand, then I will also stick to my stand, we will get a divorce if one of us has found our true love!"

"Whatdidyou say? So you think our marriage is only for intermediaries?" Zulfikar did not believe it.

Naysila nodded with confidence,

while Zulfikar did not believe, how could the sacred bond of marriage be for mere toys.

Zulfikar took a deep breath, it seemed like there would be no end to talking to the stubborn woman before him. Moreover, after the incident seemed like Naysila's brain had completely shifted from its location, Zulfikar had to budge for a while.

"I will continue to carry out my responsibilities as a husband. Whatever you want to be, please! the most important thing for me is that God is not angry with me. If you don't want to serve me as a husband also no problem, I can still take care of my own life, but I only ask for one_"

"What?"

"I appreciate being here as your husband."

Not a difficult request like that. Naysila just needed to appreciate it, she did not have to laboriously carry out her duties as a wife. That way Naysila is free to do her wish out there,

"To the fix deal, take care of all your own needs and don't expect me to take care of you" Naysila said.

Zulfikar nodded in agreement.

"Oh yeah, the problem we sleep in one room seems like we don't need to do it every day. We'll do it if Ayesha comes here" said Zulfikar.

Naysila's heart cheered happily how, perhaps the man before her was extremely intelligent.

"Wow, a very brilliant idea .. It turns out that besides being handsome, you are also very smart, okay I agree."

"All right then I'll go back to the room." Without prolonging the conversation, Zulfikar chose his leave and left Naysila in a very chaotic feeling. He was completely at a loss as to what he should do to deal with a stubborn woman like Naysila.

"God open the door of his heart and give me patience to face all this, amiin"

The content of Zulfikar do'a in his tahajud