Trapped in Love with the Idol
86. Failing to Understand
Albar came out of the bathroom looking fresher. Busy drying his hair with a towel, Albar walked to the closet to choose a change of clothes, when he accidentally saw his old guitar in Perth.
Albar momentarily stared at the guitar in the corner of the room near his closet, suddenly he remembered his guitar also in Jakarta.
Albar sighed, he looked back at some neatly arranged t'shirts on the shelves of his wardrobe.
Albar chose his favorite white color, according to his skin which is also white.
Albar put on his t'shirt, and then somehow suddenly wanted to make a song sing.
Well...
Albar knew if his decision to finally get out of the entertainment world would disappoint many parties, he also realized that the burden Flo now had to bear was heavy enough to manage all the cancellations of Albar's employment contract.
Fortunately indeed since the issue with the model who claimed to be impregnated it was only a few work projects that came in, though, so Albar arguably not too need to lose a lot of money to pay a fine for the termination of the contract unilaterally.
And Balqis...
Ah Albar sighed, then he walked to the corner of the room to pick up his old guitar.
Guitar that he had long left and did not wear but still maintained of course because a lot of servants who work at his home in Perth.
Albar picked up the guitar, then he took the camera from the bag he was carrying from Jakarta.
The camera, guitar, laptop, and then Albar asked the waiter to make orange juice and meat pie through a communication tool that connects several rooms in the house to the kitchen and the room of the house servants when they need something.
After that Albar looked towards the sofa set in his room, he sat there facing the camera he turned on.
Albar will record a song for later he uploaded on his social media.
Yeah, well, just one song, at least it's gonna make him less of a loser idol who just disappears.
Ah loser, Albar remembered that when he was about to get on the plane, he tried to contact Balqis, he wanted to apologize and asked for a moment to calm down, asking him to wait until Albar was ready to explain everything.
Albar also wanted to give Balqis the news that he was going to Perth and change his number temporarily so that no one would interfere, he would tell Balqis his new number only and also only Flo.
But Balqis didn't pick up her phone, where did she go? Or maybe he actually knew Albar called but was reluctant to pick up Albar's phone because he had already seen the news about him.
Ah don't know...
In fact, all night Albar could not sleep because he thought of Balqis.
Flo's words to her if she felt guilty should make up for it by making Balqis happy were so distracting to Albar's thoughts the night before he returned to Perth.
The more Albar remembered Flo's sentence the more he realized that if he left completely he might end up feeling even more guilty to Balqis.
Albar continued to think about it, until finally he was about to board the plane then he decided to contact Balqis, but unfortunately Balqis did not pick up the phone.
Albar sighed, he then grabbed his guitar, for a moment tried to tune his guitar keys, only then after making sure the suit was as he wanted, Albar turned on his camera.
Albar chose an old song that he suddenly wanted to sing for later he uploaded it on his social media.
A show for his fans, and also hope Balqis will see it.
...🎶Often ask...
...When happy is present ...
...There will be an end...
...Will it be forever...
...Frequently asked...
...Is this life fair...
...Sad Times hit...
...Tear down in the soul...
...It's not easy to be at heart...
...When to say...
...GOODBYE...
...Everything about love...
...Make the heart fall...
...Bringing peace...
...Cooled world...
...Everything about regret ...
...Disappointed heart...
...Bringing tears...
...Tear down in the soul...
...It's not easy to be at heart...
...When to say...
...GOODBYE...
...Sometimes Want to Run Away.....
...When you meet REALITY...🎶...
And somehow while singing every song lyrics owned by Bang Indra Lesmana and Gilang Ramadhan that Albar's chest felt so tight.
Her eyes were glazed as if looking at Balqis face on her eye patch.
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Balqis returned home picked up by Teh Inggit, arriving at Balqis' house told Teh Inggit to immediately rest while waiting for Teh Nurul came to bring porridge.
Earlier when going to pick up Balqis, Teh Inggit message on Teh Nurul his friend to buy porridge to be taken to Balqis house.
Balqis who felt that Teh Inggit was like her own brother now of course immediately obeyed her, Balqis entered the room, changed her uniform with a house shirt, and then fell on the bed.
Balqis felt his body was so tired, but he did not do anything.
Maybe all because his soul is tired, so fatigue also affects his physical as well.
Balqis just put her cellphone on the pillow next to the pillow she uses, when one message comes in from a new number in her chat application.
Balqis frowned, she opened the incoming message and saw a video.
Balqis clicked on the video, and saw a video of Albar singing goodbye songs.
Balqis her eyes bristled again, her hands trembling with mixed feelings now.
That deep-rooted hate felt so hurtful to him this time.
Albar, why would he send a video like this after leaving without words?
He seemed to really feel entitled to play with the feelings of others.
He did not seem to understand Balqis situation and condition well.
After deciding to go as well as himself, instead of trying to give an explanation instead planned to disappear, then now in a matter of hours he changed again.
He really can't understand Balqis.
What kind of love and affection if he did not care at all about the heart of Balqis that he repeatedly destroyed.
Does he not know if all the reality that happened hurt Balqis so much?
Does he not understand? Or does it not care? Or what exactly?
Balqis wiped her tears.
He really hated having to cry again for Albar.
Balqis blocked the new number, switched off her phone and put it on the table.
Ah the laptop and the phone was bought by Albar, Balqis would not wear it again.
Balqis with a chest that was so tight and hot.
He hated his relationship and Albar became like this.
They shouldn't have to meet, it's too painful for Balqis.
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"Thank you for your support all this time, a lot of love for all of you Albar Harrys fans, keep your spirits up. I'm sorry if I can't be an idol to be proud of. It's a tough decision for me, but maybe for now it's the only thing I feel is best to do."
"Thank you again, thank you, thank you."
Albar closed his Video post on his personal social media, hoping his fans could understand what had been his decision.
Well...
Albar felt unworthy to be an idol with his past which turned out to be the cause of leaving both Balqis parents.
And for Balqis...
Albar stared at his phone, he saw suddenly Balqis photo in his chat app disappeared.
Did Balqis block it? Inner Albar.
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