Trapped in Love with the Idol

103. Sorry

Balqis tries to release her body from Eti and Po who try to herd her into the house.

But where Eti and Po are willing to give up, they survive to the point of the final blood.

When she reached the door, she removed her hand from Balqis' mouth.

"What the hell is Et?"

Balqis looked at Eti annoyed.

But Eti just grinned the horse without sin, he instead pushed Balqis through the door to Dinda who was waiting there, as well as Po.

"There's someone waiting for Qis."

Dinda said subtly as she grabbed Balqis arm.

Balqis looked at Dinda for a moment, then turned to look towards the living room where Dinda's eyes were pointing there while her lips were smiling.

And...

(Why othor wrote this suddenly shadow song The Man, ost Secret Garden?)

Balqis instantly brushed his eyes, when he saw someone standing there.

A person who was now looking at him so deeply with eyes that were also glazed over.

Balqis staggered slightly, making Dinda immediately embrace her.

"Speak to Albar, Qis. It's time for you to solve each other's adult problems."

Lirih Dinda on Balqis.

Flo was also seen standing there and then patting Albar on the shoulder as if trying to strengthen his cousin.

Albar lowered his head for a moment as his tears trickled down, he could not help but feel all the raging feeling in his chest right now.

Dinda brought Balqis into the living room where Albar was seen sculpting because his legs seemed unusually limp.

Really, for so long, where every second that passes feels so tormenting. Longing and fear of past mistakes, feeling the cause of the misfortune of a loved one, feeling afraid that later will be the cause of his unhappiness again.

Yet...

Balqis, who is now walking with the same limp feet, was also seen crying, I don't know what he now feels when he sees Albar.

Hate and anger that sometimes still come to infiltrate his heart, now somehow lost to where.

Seeing the skinny Albar with a face not as happy as they first met makes Balqis chest feel so sick and tight.

Is that as much as he?

Is she not happy?

Wh why?

Balqis covered her face as soon as she got close to Albar, Balqis cries unstoppably, breaking as if she could no longer bear all her feelings this time.

Albar moved his legs closer to Balqis, unable to bear her grabbing Balqis into his arms.

"Sorry, sorry, I'm sorry."

Albar said with a stifled voice.

Balqis who was crying on Albar's chest was only able to gently hit Albar's chest as if to vent all his regret.

Flo is seen walking towards Dinda to invite Dinda who is crying to leave Albar and Balqis for a while.

Eti and Po at the door also joined in tears, they were very moved finally after a year more Balqis and Albar could meet again.

"What's wrong? Lho Alb's..."

Suddenly a voice is heard behind Po and Eti, which automatically makes Po and Eti look towards the origin of the sound.

Bang Beni was standing there staring at the nanar Albar and Balqis in the living room of his house.

"But Bang."

Po suddenly pushes Bang Beni out.

"Taa... But it's Alb..."

"Yes that's Albar, Balqis' guy."

Said Po.

For the sake of hearing it Bang Beni looked at Po.

"What's? Balqis Guys? The albar? Meaning them?"

Po nodded.

"They should be married, so shut up."

Po said, forgetting that he is now hitching a ride at Beni's house.

"Haiiish, Albar Harrys?"

Bang Beni patted his eel.

It was clear he would not be able to fight if his rival was Albar.

Yeah, of course you are...

Albar with a row of luck in his life, not many people can get the fate as good as him.

Bang Beni has not been anything downcast suffocated.

Po said that the wise men grow.

Bang Beni sighed, before then nodding.

"Yes, okay."

Bang Beni said finally, he decided to step on his bike again, then leave his house for a while to find a cafe or other place to ngadem.

The albar? Why should Albar? Inner Bang Beni.

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Balqis and Albar sat in the living room in one long chair. They sit close together but there is still distance.

Balqis looked down, her crying had subsided a little, though her tears were still running.

Albar looked at his girl with a gaze so deep and soft, as if he did not want to blink for a second until he missed a moment of his friendship with Balqis.

Frightened that he would not be able to stare at Balqis slowly anymore.

"Bale."

Call Albar after about ten more minutes passed without a word between the two. Breaking the silence, melting the ice.

"I'm really sorry for everything I've done, I'm too afraid to explain, I'm afraid you hate me so much that I'm going to hate myself even more."

Lirih Albar's.

Balqis looked back as he pleased, his hands holding onto Tissu looked trembling.

"For a year I kept thinking about you, eager to go back to Aki's house to see how you were doing, making sure you weren't late for a meal, you were healthy, you were fine at school, you weren't crying."

Balqis this time looked at Albar with both of her eyes filled with tears.

"Why did you leave Aqis all of a sudden? Wrong Aqis what?"

Balqis asked in a voice so soft and pressure-filled.

Looking at the tears that soaked Balqis cheeks, it felt like Albar had stretched out his hand to wipe her.

"I'm afraid of Bal."

Albar.

"I'm scared because of our parents' past, I'm scared because of me..."

Albar felt unable to say it, too painful, too heavy, he was increasingly afraid of losing Balqis again.

"Because of Albar's parents who caused the death of Aqis' parents?"

Tanya Balqis.

Albar nodded slowly.

"I just found out that day when I went to your parents' tomb Qis, I really don't know what to do but run."

Albar.

Balqis looked at Albar who was also looking at her gently.

Yes, Balqis can feel it, feel if Albar speaks as he is, feel the wounds in Albar's heart as well as himself.

When Balqis hated Albar, Albar hated himself.

And what hurts more in this world than being hated by those we love and hate ourselves?

"You're gonna forgive me Bal?"

Ask Albar at last.

He was afraid to actually ask that, afraid if Balqis later gave an answer that turned out not as he imagined.

Balqis looked at Albar deeply, in fact love is sometimes strange it feels, when there is no one, hate it seems so entrenched, but now...

Balqis was sad to see Albar so thin, his face was so thin.

"If you can't forgive me, it's okay Bal, I'll try to understand, I know if my mistake is too big, it's okay Bal."

Lirih Albar's.

Balqis wiped her tears, but still new tears dripped again.

"Albar has eaten?"

Balqis asked Albar.

"Hmmm..."

Albar became confused why Balqis even asked if he had eaten.

"You want Aqis to cook something?"

Balqis asked again with teary eyes.

"Aqis will cook good so that Albar eats ravenously again, let's not be thin."

Balqis said while crying.

Albar couldn't hold his harp, he grabbed Balqis' hand and kissed her.

"I'm sorry... Excuse me... "

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