Traces of Love Joke

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Kinara

My days in Singapore have been boring. Usually I if to this country I spend by shopping around the store, going in and out while carrying a paper bag with a satisfied smile.

But now?

Just a white room with a view of the man I love working on the couch. Busy with his world while occasionally checking my condition. 11 more months I was here. The doctor said my condition was not improving and it was getting worse.

Don't ask me how I look right now. The face of a deathly pale undead. Hair loss, even now I've spent it all. Yes, I've lost my hair.

My skin only covers my thin body. It's only natural that I'm getting unattractive in Mandala's eyes.

I stared at the sunlight coming from my window. So bright it feels. Warm, running my skin bathed in the sun. I accidentally didn't close the window curtain. Just wanted to see the sunlight that I didn't know until when I could see it.

My mind floated. I remembered my love story with Mandala. We met at High School. At that time, Mandala only considered me as a friend even though we were often said to be a matching couple.

I was always next to Mandala. Wish Mandala would see me and start loving me. Mandala said, He will try to love me if he no longer finds the girl with the most beautiful dimples in his opinion.

I feel myself being subordinated to him. I'm not discouraged. I'm beautiful, that's my advantage.

I started looking for talent as a model. Starting from zero is not easy. Those from the family who were looking at me with one eye.

I used to skip school just to audition for auditions. At that time, Om Ben was still very rich. Mama is still alive with a lot of treasure. But I don't want to depend on Om Ben forever.

Being a model is just my side job. I stay focused on school. Fun to enjoy youth, especially Mandala gave up on finding the girl of her dreams that she never met again.

We also decided to date. I love Mandala very much. He was a man who loved me sincerely, even to the point of leaving the house because his parents did not approve of him dating me.

I finally decided to rent a room. There the mandala lived alone. Sometimes I go there after work.

Over time my money started to run out. Ben is starting to go bankrupt. I also have to pay for the Mandala.

I finally accepted the offer of a film director who would give me a job as an adult magazine model from where I would sleep with him. I didn't want to, but the demands of life came back against me.

Mama died when Om Ben was declared bankrupt. No one, only Mandala is the only one I have. Mandala was in shock because her friend had an accident and needed money.

I decided to change my virginity, to help Mandala and for my future career. Unfortunately, Mandala decided to go back to her Papi's house.

I've been overwhelmed by the decisions I've made, and I've continued. Virginity in this day and age is no longer valuable, I think.

My career is growing faster. I have my own house and car. I'm independent. Mandala also accepted my shortcomings as a woman who no longer crowned. He loves me so much.

Unfortunately, not with Mandala's parents. My image as a former adult magazine model is not considered a good woman. I was hit at that moment. The mandala never left me. He even married me in series.

Mandala went home to her parents. I stay in my house. Mandala was eventually given the trust of running her Papi company. He even bought his own house from the money he worked for.

Feeling like a dutiful child, Mandala reapplied for our marriage to be blessed. Papi Prabu is willing to grant his request as long as Mandala wants to marry Jenaka.

This is where everything started. Mandala and Joke Marriage is known to Om Ben. He also knew about me marrying Siri. Ben started threatening me.

From this marriage I lost my Mandalaku. The man who is now focusing on his laptop is no longer looking at me lovingly. Not because I'm ugly now, but after he found out that the veiled girl with the prettiest dimple he was looking for was a joke.

Yeah, I was really mean to ask Jenaka to leave Mandala. Being around a man I love but his heart belongs to another woman is painful. Much more painful than withstanding my stage 4 cancer pain.

Mandala is a concern. Caring for me lovingly. Read me the holy verses of the Quran. Covering me and gently bribing me. But I realized I was no longer in his heart.

Tests...

Back tears can't I hold.

"You why Nara? Is anyone sick?" look how attentive Mandala is to me. My heart just hurts more and more to see it. Mandala put down her laptop and walked over to me.

I shook my head. "I'm fine." I took out an envelope and gave it to Mandala.

"Please give me this letter if you meet with a joke."

Mandala hesitates to accept it. "How will I meet? Am I here with you?"

"You'll see him again when I'm gone." Tears fell back on my eyes.

I forced Mandala to accept my letter with my weak energy. "Please apologize for her."

"Narr... Don't be discouraged. You must be healed!" mandala's eyes began to glaze over.

"I'm sorry for my selfishness. I just want the rest of my life to be spent with you." I said with sadness.

🎶T'lah I tried t'rus survive

About the love I think

I love, you don't love

I can't keep holding on

Realize I have no right to keep forcing you

Forcing you to love me wholeheartedly

I'm trying to forget you

But accept my last request🎶

"Narr...."

🎶Hand my hand, baby

Close to me, hug me

Stand straight in front of me

Kiss my forehead for the last one

I'll disappear away from you

Not even a single hair was visible

But where will you get hurt

Find me, I'm there for you🎶

I feel my chest getting tighter. I heard the voice of Mandala shouting my name. Before everything turns into eternal concentration...

"NOOOOOOOO!!!!"

🎶I don't hate you

I wish you were too

Don't want you to be far away

But destiny wants us 'to part🎶

(Last message, Lyodra Ginting)

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Mandala hugged Kinara's body tightly. She hopes what the doctors say is not true.

"NOOOOOO!!!!" her tears filled the hospital room.

Mandala kissed the forehead of the woman who loved her so much. The woman died with a smile on her face.

Kinara's last wish had been granted. He just wants to be with Mandala at the end of his life. Being in Mandala's arms makes her happy.

Mandala continued to cry over Kinara's departure. Kinara's handwritten letter to Jenaka held her tightly. I don't know when he'll give the owner this letter. Later, if fate brings them back together...