Too late Darling

95 Percent Mandule

"How do I feel now, mom. That's the fact I'm barren, mom! I'm an imperfect man."

Rama's mother heard the fact as if she had been struck by lightning.

"Tell me, mother! What should I do! My feelings are broken now. I'm sorry I ruined your dreams. Do not blame Syakira if she has not been pregnant until now. I am the barren one, mother! Me!"

"Stop, Ram! Stop blaming yourself!" Rama's mother hugged her son. "That's probably the doctor's misdiagnosed. It was a diagnosis last year so it's impossible."

"Every month I check on my health, mom. Still the same result. How you think this is wrong. I don't play drama with you. I'm serious, mom!"

Rama's mother could only cry to see her son sitting drooping. He could not imagine how painful and insecure Rama was as a husband.

"My 95 percent infertile deed makes me now hate myself for being an imperfect man!" the weak word Rama.

"What are you saying, Rama. You barren?" Grandma suddenly came to hear the painful news.

"Mother?" Mother Ratna turned around to see Grandma who was increasingly unable to lift her legs to walk. "What did my grandson say was true, Ratna?"

"Mom I can explain. Grandma don't panic. We'll figure out a solution."

"Why are you hiding this from us, Rama? Why, cu...why do you bear this burden yourself, cu? Wh why? all these years you feel alone and you pretend to smile in front of us in front of your wife, it turns out that behind that smile there is a torturous story. Grandma doesn't think your way of thinking is cu."

Rama hugged the old grandmother's body. This was the first time Grandma had seen her granddaughter fall completely into a slump that she could no longer describe.

"Grandma's okay, cu. Don't blame yourself. Gusti God holds every secret. We can trust the analysis of the doctor, but do not forget that everything happens with the permission of God. In the world there are many ways it can be done as the grandmother said believe in the Gusti of God."

Behind the firmness of the grandmother stored an indescribable taste. Grandma went into her room. Rama who saw it was sure if the grandmother entered his room spilling his sadness.

"Tell this to your wife, Rama. Don't bear it yourself. Don't pretend to be happy. Husband and wife would be nice to open with each other," said his mother Rama saw the departure of the grandmother.

"I am not able, mother," refused Rama.

Ratna's mother frowned. "You can't afford it, then when? Don't let this thing they know of others."

"Nobody knows this but mom, and grandma." Rama rebutted with a slightly high voice He forgot, if Zakir also knew.

"Don't argue with mom, Rama! Do you want to regret your whole life losing your wife if Syakira gets to know from others and feels not considered. Do you know, Rama? The woman wears feelings in responding to something. She's your wife. I'm sure Syakira can accept your flaws."

"I know mom, but I can't." Rama pulled back his hair and rubbed his face violently.

"Think well, Rama. Just remind me.

"Will I think. I'm gonna go get Syakira. Assalamu'alaikum." Rama passed with a shabby face.

Arrive at the campus. Rama did not find Syakira. It was already too late. Rama eventually decides to return to his house and sees Leon's car parked there as his wife gets off Leon's car.

Syakira did not alone get a ride with Leon, but it was a very taboo thing for Rama. Jealousy and emotion prevail over it. As long as he knew himself to have a shortcoming Rama quickly emotionally.

Syakira sees her husband and Leon feels there is a blind jealous wind looking at Rama's face.

"Exit you. Out!" snapped Rama.

"Sir, it's not good to see the neighbors" whispered Syakira as she looked at Leon and Ana in the car.

Ana, who understands Syakira's code, immediately asks Leon to leave. Leon wanted to go down to serve Rama, but was prevented by Ana.

"Why? scared?" challenge Rama.

"sister, it's enough. It's not like in your mind," whispered Syakira and left the place.

Rama puts his car in and Leon goes there with great care at the thought of Syakira.

"I often remind you, stay away from Leon!" rama's Banging on Syakira.

Syakira just kept quiet and kept releasing her khimar. It was his first during his two years of marriage to hear a clash of Rama.

"I don't like you being close to him. What do you think of me, Syakira Al-ikhsan!"

"You're my husband, brother." I'm sure you made a sound.

"Then, why don't you hear me, huh?"

Syakira remained silent and chose to clean her face and Rama continued to be angry.

"Why, Syakira. Is it because you're tired of your husband?"

Syakira. He does not like to hear the words of Rama. "enough, brother! What does brother mean? Did you know it hurt. I hitchhiked with Leon that too because I was with Ana. I was there waiting for hours, but there was no sign of my brother coming. And my phone lobet. brother can see now it's almost magrib," Syakira explained patiently.

He was angry and left Rama in the bathroom while Rama, filled with regret.

***

In other places Maura looks happy because her best friend Zakir will meet her. There are many stories and disappointments that he will share.

"Zakir!" maura's cry immediately scattered her body to hug the man whom she always considered a friend. But Zakir, actually has more feelings for Maura. He left his hometown to wander abroad because of disappointment Maura will be in a match with the man he loves. He returned after knowing Maura was void in the match.

"How are you?" zakir asked to see Maura getting more beautiful according to him. With white skin and long hair seems attractive to men. "Is there no better shirt than the one you wear?"

"What the hell.kok discuss my appearance again." said Maura did not like. Zakir has always rebuked the way he dresses when it is a form of caring for Zakir to him.

"I care about you Maura, your husband will enjoy the beauty of your body."

"Did Zakir not like to close your eyes."

"How do I close it you are inviting. I just want you to look like you used to. Like we first met. You must not close your whole body, if you can't yet, but you should be able to and try because it's an obligation for Muslim women to close the aura."

Maura was not angry and instead chuckled at the lecture of Zakir, his best friend.

"Why chuckle? I am a joke again. No Maura."

"Yes stop. I get it," Maura said. "can I confide?"

"Curhat what? Curious about the man you love and no taste for you? why still hope with a married person and clearly in front of your eyes faithfully waiting for you," Zakir said.

Maura hit Zakir's arm. He thought Zakir was joking. He thought Zakir's love for him was extinguished.

"Yes. What else.that's just my story hurts." said Maura.

"There's no need to talk about me understanding how you feel. Instead you discussed the man reminding me of someone who was frustrated at being sentenced by a barren male doctor. I can't imagine how ruined his life was. Surely his wife also felt the sadness of her husband," said Zakir remembering the face of Rama two years ago.

"Nonsense? What's-her-name? Maura asked looking at zakir seriously.

"What's wrong with you? Why do you look so serious?" zakir's laughter at Maura.

Maura hit zakir's arm. "I'm serious, zakir.

"The name is Rama." Zakir was puzzled to see Maura looked very surprised.