This Life This Life

Chapter XllX

He went to call, speak for a long time, his English was very low, Kam Kam Kam could not hear what he was saying, after about 10 he hung up the phone, then asked Ka Kam: "Is it okay for tonight? She has classes in the afternoon."

Except for the adults in the family, it was the first time Thu Thu had given time to others. It was even more difficult to imagine that Ky Nam Phuong had also agreed to do the same thing, before, only the woman was waiting for him, but today he felt it was a completely normal thing, she said, this kind of thing, obviously not, just once.

Thu Thu had started to doubt, he thought, what kind of woman could make Ky Nam Phuong become as abnormal as he is today.

They arranged to meet at a coffee shop, Ky Nam Phuong seemed more impatient than he was. As soon as he sat down, he glanced at his watch twice, Thu Thu said: "Or ask the driver to pick him up."

"No need, he's on the train." He said, "What should I use first?"

He just shook his head.

She said the waiter helped her order a piece of cheesecake, she used to love candy, but when she came here, she had no interest in eating anything, so she reluctantly ate a piece, so she reluctantly ate a piece, waiting a little longer, someone also appeared, immediately pushing the plate to the side, carefully observing.

Ky Nam Phuong just introduced: "Truong Tuyet Thuan."

Her name was delicate like a human, since the last Kam Thu could not see her face clearly, this time it was carefully assessed, her face was beautiful, but a little gentle and meek. Sitting seriously but a little nervous, hands still clutching the backpack strap. His long, thick eyelashes trembled with anxiety, sometimes he looked up and quickly blinked his clear eyes like a little deer, shy but pure, completely different from his imagination.

Shou Shou asked, "Miss Zhang is still in school, isn't she?"

"I'm a freshman at University P." Truong Tuyet Thuan's voice was also timid, his cheeks blushing red, looking unconfident.

“P University is very good, the campus is also very beautiful.” Thu Thu said, then told Ky Nam Phuong: "Come out and smoke, I want to talk to Miss Truong for a while.

Ky Nam Phuong hesitated for a few seconds, glancing at Truong Tuyet Thuan again, he also looked somewhat confused, looking at her, he smiled as if comforting Truong Tuyet Thuan: "OK, I'm outside. . ”

The tables and chairs in the outer courtyard were exquisite, on the table were crystal candles, candlelight fluttering in the gentle spring breeze. Ji Nam Phuong sat down, the waiter immediately came and politely asked: "Master Ji, what do you want?"

"Cold water."

A cup of cold water was quickly lifted, Ky Nam Phuong sat still, the glass cup was filled with water droplets, and slowly rolled up the edge of the cup.

His water sank in a pale ceramic plate, under the candlelight emitting a hazy look, he felt this situation was very familiar, it seemed like he had met somewhere before, finally remember, he said, ever since the last time he met Kam Kam in this place, when he had just entered, it was also when he waved the petals with his hands, the petals raised his snow-white hands, as if they were melting, as if they were melting, there are a few inches abroad untouched. And the candlelight only shone in his eyes, a small flame flickering, like a weak and glowing jewel. Then his pupils rapidly dimmed, seemingly buried in gray ash, glittering like bright pearls of several generations.

That day, she had originally expressed her displeasure on behalf of others, but what was the name of the girl, she had completely forgotten, just remembering that she was still a little innocent like a child, angry and annoyed, just remembering that she was still a little innocent like a child, coffee in your clothes.

The clothes were then washed and returned, but she did not wear them again.

The night wind was rather cold, basically no guests were sitting in the courtyard, only he was sitting there alone, waiting for a cup of cold water to melt, completely melted, completely melted, the layer of cup was wet by the water droplets, row after row spread down., the palm that held the cup seemed to have a layer of sweat, he did not drink even a mouthful, putting down the cup.

Far away there was a light, peaceful orange-yellow color, it vaguely seemed to have a door, but there was nothing behind that door, he sat there for a long time, he said, seeing Truong Tuyet Thuan running towards him, actually that day.he also had a bit of makeup, even replacing new shoes, his path was small and pebbled, the flamboyant Truong Tuyet Thuan, was, also because he was not used to wearing high heels, it seemed to be crooked, the small steps were getting worse. Closer to him, his face grew even more confused: "Sister Ky ..."

"What's wrong?"

"You just went to the toilet, I waited a long time and still couldn't find him, I think he's gone, but ..."

It took him a few seconds to understand who he was saying "sister" here, and once he understood, he immediately got up and ran inside.

The toilet entrance passed the cafe and turned left, he rushed over, almost hit someone, he apologized to the woman, his face was very impatient: "Sorry, can you help me in? Look inside, my wife hasn't been out since she was there, she's not well.”.

In general, seeing that he looked rushed, the woman also agreed, just as Truong Tuyet Thuan was chasing after him, seeing him standing outside the door, surprised that another woman had just entered and shouted: "Oh my God, somebody help!"

Before Truong Tuyet Thuan could react, Ky Nam Phuong pushed the door "bang" and dived inside, only to see Thu Thu fall to the floor in front of the sink.

The person who had seemed to want to help Thu Thu wake up, but Thu Thu did not feel it at all, his head twisted in his lap, Ky Nam Phuong only felt that blood was flowing into his head, Ky Nam Phuong just felt that blood was flowing into his head, not having time to think about it anymore, he leaned over to bring Thu Thu and rushed out.

Car parked under the parking lot, on the highway outside the cafe, for the first time in his life, he felt today would be endless, running and running, it felt so far away. the finish line, I could only hear my heavy breathing. His body was also not heavy, like a child obediently closing his eyes, leaning against his chest. She had never been this close to him before, but at that unconscious moment, she only felt fear, as if she was not holding it, but holding a handful of sand, she said, something kept sneaking through his fingers. If you fall little by little, let go and just disappear. He was so scared, Truong Tuyet Thuan chased after him, seemingly saying something but he could no longer listen, just frantically looking for the car, the car was gray and silver in color, the car was, it should be easy to find under street lights.Yes, but why can't I find this?

The remote control was in his pocket, but he had no hands to find it, he passed through many cars parked in the parking lot, finally Truong Tuyet Thuan caught up, he shouted at him: "Lock!"

Truong Tuyet Thuan was confused and confused, seemingly a bit faint, but he supported Thu Thu with one hand, he rushed to help her sponsor him. He finally felt the key, the car "beep" once, listened to the sound, he turned to find his car, sirens roared, lights inside the car flashing wildly.

She carried him, his guts burned like fire, ran towards his car, Truong Tuyet Thuan hurriedly chased after him, helped him open the door, he put Thu Thu in the back seat, his face under the pale car lights, he was in the back seat, kuyu, even half of the pink color is gone.

He impatiently turned the car around, made a phone call while on the road, called Doctor Chuong, his phone was busy, when he called his own doctor, no one picked up the phone….

He threw the phone to the side, suddenly hit the steering wheel and turned his head, Truong Tuyet Thuan just sat down and closed the car door, almost thrown out, fortunately he grabbed the handle. Ky Nam Phuong just released the gas and went straight to the hospital.

He only drove for ten minutes to reach the hospital, got off the bus carrying Kam and rushed to the emergency room, doctors and nurses in the emergency room with three legs and four legs supported Kam with a stroller into the room, he was outside the classroom. The whole world seemed calm at that moment, so silent that I could hear my heart pounding, thumping fast, jumping in a frenzy, he raised his hand, on the palm of the table, a hand covered in blood. It's Kam's blood, it's mine.

He finally understood what was leaking from between his fingers, what else, his blood, his blood and his son. He stared blankly at the fresh blood on his fingers, although he said such harsh words, even though he made him angry, but knowing this child was his, otherwise he would not be angry, he would have been angry, angry, he was angry, just because he didn't want this child, so he uttered harsh words.

When he was about to give up the child, he really thought he could, so much to hate him that he had to decide, hope and long for so long, including a dark and late future, he said, everything is wasted. Just because he didn't need it, he thought he could stop, he could do it. But at this moment when I understood, I was in so much pain that I could not help it, I had no way to forgive this loss, compared to removing the intestines, which was much more painful, he said, is cutting the intestines. The only future, is pain to the bone marrow, is pain that seeps into the blood vessels, it seems that the whole body and heart have been cut into pieces, and, he can't do it. Looking at him blankly, it seemed to drive people crazy, he really could not do it.

There was a doctor rushing past him, running to the actual operating room, then there was a nurse rushing out, taking medication, taking a blood transfusion bag, the emergency doctor said to him: "The patient is currently losing blood, surgery is urgent, the baby cannot be saved. Are you the owner of the house? Go to the other side."

The nurse already held the notice of the upcoming surgery, Ky Nam Phuong panicked and concluded the notice, looking at the point in horror: Things get out of control during anesthesia….

He could only ask the doctor: "Is his life in danger?"

"It remains to be seen how the operation goes." The doctor put on a mask, let out a buzzing sound, as if he was in a very remote place: "Detecting bleeding should be taken to the hospital immediately, why wait until now?"

He didn't know, he didn't know anything, he didn't say anything to her, even if it was uncomfortable, he never complained even an hour in front of her, let alone he wouldn't. this baby, she rejected him, so he rejected everything about her, he didn't know anything, he would rather pass out in the toilet than tell her that he wasn't feeling well.

The doctor said he went to pay the hospital bills, but could not swipe his credit card, he immediately called his private secretary, his voice still very clear: "You brought me 20,000 cash, immediately." Then give him the hospital address.

The secretary was completely absent-minded, but did not ask any more questions, half an hour later, she pulled out the cash and brought it to him, a large bag of cowhide parchment, and then, half an hour later, he never felt that 20,000 yuan was so heavy, When the secretary went to pay the deposit, Truong Tuyet Thuan was still sitting quietly next to him, only this time timidly called out: "Brother ..."

His eyes were red, as if drunk, his mind panicked, only feeling everything was spinning, but the person in front of him was still faintly, his throat choked, his voice coming out. "What did you finally tell him?"

He did this crazy thing, this crazy act, just because he thought he wouldn't notice it, he clenched his fists, the tip of his fingernails piercing his flesh. The blood vessels were also boiling, it seemed like the blood in the body was boiling, he did this stupid thing, no one was that stupid, even if he did not realize it, he should not provoke him, he should not provoke him, she had originally been desperate for a wedding, she had gone to make it awkward like that.

Shou Shou was in pain to the point of sweating, only feeling pain, having never felt such pain before, as if something in his body was being pulled and torn apart. But even though he was very anxious to struggle, wanting to cry, but his whole body was moved, completely helpless, he thought, this must be a dream, just a nightmare, waking up would be When he wakes up, he will have a dream, it would pass, so until late at night he woke up, the pain made him let out a faint and indistinct voice, next to someone saying: "I'm here."

The light in the hospital room flickered, his consciousness was no longer clear, that person seemed to be Ky Nam Phuong, he slowly felt safe again. He said: "The anesthetic is gone, the doctor said it will hurt a little ..." His hand was in his lower abdomen, but suddenly knowing what had happened, knowing what had been lost, his heart was filled with terrible frustration, he wanted to move, he grabbed his hand, he was, he told her things were not clear: "Don't tell my mother ..."

"I understand."

Something hot and smelly fell on the back of his hand, he was very uncomfortable, but could not cry, somewhere in his body seemed to be hollow, making his heart even more twisted, still sick, he was still in pain, even the internal organs are damaged. She buried her face in the pillow, only then did no one see her cry, long after the wedding, she locked herself in her room and cried in silence, crying to the point of despair, with no one knowing. There was a hand outstretched, wiping away the tears on his face, the hand was warm, like his father's, but knowing that his father would never love him as when he was a child again, the so-called happiness, was a kind of love, he lost it for a long time. The hand wiped his tears, but a drop of water fell on his face, in his heart he thought, who is this, who is this. The warmth made people faint, who was it?

She stays in the hospital to observe 48 hours, Ky Nam Phuong is always by her side, then she firmly wants to leave the hospital, the doctor suggests to stay in the hospital for another week, so she will be able to stay in the hospital for another week, but she keeps crying, Ky Nam Phuong also doesn't Otherwise, it's already dark when she gets out of the hospital, Ky Nam Phuong picks her up in the car, the driver is sitting in front, he said, he carried her in the back seat, in those 48 hours he gave her a lot of medicine, so numb, sleepy but still said: "Don't go home."

"I understand," he said.

They went back to the apartment complex, he still hugged her, he brought his own coat, when he got down from the car, he wrapped it, from the car to the elevator, from the elevator to the house, from the bottom to the room .sleeps. When she gently placed it on the bed, her face touched the cold pillow, tears again. I didn't understand why, or maybe I was afraid of pain, I was cold, my whole body kept shaking, he pulled a blanket for her, he choked and said: "Don't go, I'm so scared ."

She immediately sat down, she was like a newborn crying nonstop, crying all the time, she tried to hug him tightly, she did not even thrash, she said, so she was half lying half-leaning on the bed, she was slim inside. Her heart, that position was also uncomfortable, she had never leaned on her like that before, but she felt comfortable, she was not comfortable, couldn't help it, tears kept flowing, wetting his sweater. He turned his face away and said: "Don't cry, the elders say it's not good to cry now, it'll make you sick later."

Her tears became more and more, how could she not hold back, originally hating this baby, hating him, but losing that seed of life, she felt pain again, pain like being stabbed. It was as if the most important thing had been lost, but she also knew that even if she wanted to find it, she would not be able to find it anymore, she grabbed her clothes, crying and crying nonstop, she said, crying until she falls asleep.

When he woke up in the room there was no one, the whole big empty room was alone, he was so scared, he struggled to get up, the pain was still there, he was holding on to the wall, he was so scared, tottering. Outside deserted, inside the house it seemed like it was just him and no one else, he still left her in the end, not caring for her anymore.

He was scared as well as panicked, clutching the handle of the stairs, just wanting to cry out loudly, slowly crawling down, searching every room….

He pushed open the doors one room after another, no one, the more he felt his heart pounding, leaning against the wall, panting, and gasping, he heard voices at the end of the corridor. The place he had never entered, not knowing where the room was, he was struggling along the wall, the door was slightly open, in panic and chaos, he slowly pushed the door wide open.

It turned out that the kitchen, in the layout was very simple, but there was nothing, only a messy spice rack, a messy cutting board and knife, and a basket of washed vegetables next to it. Water dripped every hour, Ky Nam Phuong's hands rolled up high, and he lowered his head near the sink or something. The ground electric pot lit up, the heat rose, he picked up what was being washed in the sink, Kam Thu realized that he was washing green onions, but he clumsily, took the stalks one by one, Kam Thu realized that he was washing the green onions, then take it .Just put it in the basket to drain.

Thu Thu only felt his throat stagnate, rooted there, leaning completely against the door, he focused on the clay pot, seemed to be thinking of something, but did not seem to think at all, the clay pot was deflated.Rising up, the space between the two of them, even the shadow of his brother's back, he could only faintly see, after a long time he heard his voice: "Slow the fire after 30 minutes, cut the onion ..." It turned out that he was reading a cookbook, not knowing where to copy it from, he lowered his head to read it carefully, every word whispered aloud.

Thu Thu only felt his cheeks tickle, raised his hands to rub it to know that it was tears, Ky Nam Phuong was still studying books, completely ignoring his surroundings, and still had a lot of interest, lean against the wall and return to his room.

It took a long time for him to climb up, the pain made his body wet with sweat, he crawled into the bedroom to lie down again, his whole body ached, tears fell down nonstop, and he was not, he did not know., or out of cold, then fell asleep…

After that, Ky Nam Phuong called out to him, told him to drink soup, it was chicken soup, the top layer of his oil was removed, and also cooled to make it easier to drink, he saw the bowl filled with soup and was dumbfounded, he said, he looked unnatural: "How does it feel?"

He asked, "Where is this soup?"

He said like a machine: "Call down and take it." Then asked again: "Or do you want to eat porridge, I'll call them to bring it."

He took a sip, actually put too much cordyceps into the soup, it tasted a bit bitter, he still drank it to the end: "Is there any more?"

"Also, let me take it."

He picked up another bowl of soup, the soup was hot and smelly, so he just stood there and blew it gently to cold, he saw his appearance back then, how awkward, how awkward, just make people spasm in their hearts, every once in a while and then there's a throbbing pain. He blew the soup to a cold, then gave it to her, but she did not accept it: "Let's get divorced."

He did not raise his head or look at her, he repeated: "Ji Nam Phuong, let's get divorced."

Finally, he said, "You drink the soup first, we'll talk about it later."

She cried again, initially just choking, then gradually crying without a sound, she still stood still, just staring at him, her face wet with tears, she said: "I have never hated you before. So, what do you think is the point of doing these things? I don't love you, it means I can't love you, I hate you, guess me from the beginning, wait until I see you become a joke, you know everything, you still count with me, you know everything, I'd like to end my kiss and agree to get married, whether you wait for today, you know it's all about waiting for the day when you make fun of me, you obviously don't want this baby, you obviously don't want this baby, why do you have to look like that? In your heart, you just hope so, are you happy already, are you satisfied?" He broke it all down: "Kien Nam Phuong, why do you have to be so cruel, I have become this mess, you still haven't let me go, what do you want again, what do you want in the end? ”

He didn't say anything, put a bowl of soup on the table, just said: "You should have some soup and rest."

He turned around and walked out, he picked up the soup bowl and threw it at him, but the hand had no strength, could not hit it, the bowl was crackling on the floor, the soup splashed, he froze, he froze, nor did it spin around, then it quickly disappeared

Kam Thu buried his face in the blanket and cried sobbing, he himself did not know anymore what he was crying, only crying until his throat was burning, crying until his whole body was twitching, crying until his voice was hoarse, his entire cavity .his eyes were swollen, he himself knew that it was the end, what was lost could not be found anymore, now he could only exhaust his strength, crying until it seemed to dry up, he still did not return.

He did not return until the next morning, his whole face was crying until it was swollen, his eyes were also swollen, knowing that he was like a madman at the moment, so he locked the door. He stood outside knocking on the door, he refused to open it, but he did not have much patience, after a while he left. Or maybe he was no longer patient enough with her, a moment later Doctor Chuong brought in a nurse, he said,

The nurse stayed to take care of her, since then, Ky Nam Phuong also disappeared, but the needle inside the bag for a long time also came out, her mother knew about it, even her mother knew, she said, the two immediately rushed to visit her.So as soon as Thinh Khai saw her, he cried: "What are you two doing? Are you still hiding from me? What crime did you two create?” His mother asks the nurse, only to find out that Ky Nam Phuong did not return for 10 days, becoming increasingly angry: "The boy left, his wife lay in bed, where did he run?"

He called from all sides to find Ky Nam Phuong back, when he came back, he scolded him for a while, Ky Nam Phuong just lowered his head, finally in front of his mother and Thinh Khai, he said: "Mom, it's me, I have a mistake with the Prime Minister. But I want a divorce, I hope you agree to us, even if you disagree, we still have to get a divorce."

His mother was already heartbroken because of Thu Thu's story, now adding that he denied it like a nail, so angry that he almost fainted, this matter could not be hidden from his father anymore, but Ky Nam Phuong beat her.for divorce, Thinh Khai was always wise, went to visit places, only knew the beginning of the end of the industry that happened that day, saw Kam Thu all thin and thin, all thin, all the, skinny and skinny.he couldn't help but complain: "Dumb daughter, because a girl you have made yourself a mess, you can't handle it, you still have a mother, you still have a mother, let it. If you don't accept it. , then you just need to pay attention, your mother-in-law will naturally solve it, Ky Nam Phuong is obviously the ghost that caused her to die before she goes to work. You're worse than him, why go to him? The doctor told me that I had signs of premature birth, told me to stay in bed and rest, why are you still running to see him?"

Thu Thu just lowered his head and did not say anything, Thinh Khai sighed: "This is all because of my mother, I was too spoiled in the afternoon. In fact, things like this do not need to be disclosed, men are like that, randomly sometimes will be confused, do stupid things. In fact, with Nam Phuong's condition, many women would actively hold on to him, despite not having such a mindset, it wouldn't stop someone from playing this and that, as long as it did not exceed the limit, eyes were closed and eyes were open, the boy did not dare to do anything, whether he really should stay away from each other, or not, go and marry that girl surnamed Truong? Relying on the girl for the rest of her life, not even trying to enter the door of the Ji family, let alone other things, this was obviously a ridiculous story, could the Ji family accept such a person? You see your father, why, the woman surnamed Tang and her daughter will never be able to look up, they have to take a detour, my father still feels indebted to you, sorry mother, sorry, always follow me everywhere, You are really excited, when you are just getting married, I feel that you can take care of Nam Phuong, do everything in moderation, so I'm very sure, I'm sure, Why am I getting left behind now? Can you honestly tell me, in the end, do you want a divorce, or does Nam Phuong want a divorce? Truong Tuyet Thuan is one thing, Dich Truong Ninh is another story, do you propose to divorce Nam Phuong first?"

Kam Thu only felt thunder and lightning, blunt as heaven looked at his mother, only half the time he managed to utter the sentence: "Mother, do you know everything?"

Thinh Khai clapped his hands: "You are my daughter, do you have anything your mother does not know?"

"But ..." Thu Thu said with great difficulty, "Dad like that to mom, don't you care?"

"It's all over." Thinh Khai smiled: "Your father didn't mean to tell me about it, which also meant that he still respected me, I didn't want to investigate everything, half of my life just went through it, he said, could it? Are you determined not to live with your Dad in the next half of your life? Speaking of the woman with Tang's last name, there was no way to break her parents' marriage, too much, if you consider the opponent not high enough, then you will look down on yourself, You will look down on yourself, Kam Kam. , how many years have you taught me that, could it be that I don't understand even this little thing?"

"Mother..." Kam Kam was helpless, unable to express it with words, only choking: "Mother to father, to love..."

“Love versus being loved is so much harder, loving someone not only has to pay for everything, even sacrifice myself, when I was young, I was just as stupid as you, but my grandmother taught me one thing, she said, when you love someone more than that person loves you, that's when you should consider letting go, and when someone loves you more than you love him, that's when you can reap happiness."

"Why do you say that, if love is so taken into account, it can't be called love anymore?" He suddenly said: "Mom, I always thought you were different from everyone else, so you know everything, you still let me marry Ky Nam Phuong ..."

"Initially, I wanted to marry Nam Phuong myself, my mother advised, but I insisted on being stubborn." Thinh Khai also seemed to feel that he was too strong, so he said softly, "Actually Nam Phuong is very good to you, you understand in your heart, right?"

“It is not good to say that my mother considered the benefits of marriage, not the same as saying that she felt that I married Ky Nam Phuong with the Diep family, but saying there is an absolute benefit, there is an absolute benefit, it's better than saying that he prayed. That year, it's not allowed."

"Know" Thinh Khai was angry, "Are you that kind of person? Do I need to change my happiness for the rest of my life? I just want you to have a good life. Actually, Nam Phuong loves you so much, I know, he loves you, he has the ability to make you happy, that's why I agreed to marry him."