This is Love Not Suffering

Mother's Beloved

The Inara POV

I woke up from Fainting. Sashaku. How is he. Ahh they're all still here means the doctor's still fighting to save him in there. I see my Beloved Son still crying incessantly. His eyes are swollen. Papa is too. Hiding grief is not his specialty. I see that sometimes he wipes away his tears. Ah yes Mr. RT, he is very kind. Sasha often tells Mr. RT this housing complex. His name is Pak Dadang. He has been the chairman of RT for 2 years. Even local residents often want to crown him as the Chairman of RT for life. Yes Sasha often discuss Mr. RT on the sidelines of our conversation Via Telephone. I really miss my son-in-law's joy. O Allah.. What is the fate of Sasha. May You still allow yourself to live with us.

I don't know the exact cause of the accident. What I heard from Mr. RT Sasha was hit by a Junk Truck run. What he's doing so it could be like this. Based on what went wrong with my son, Davin. I'd love to scold him like he used to when he was still so evil. But the tears that kept flowing in my eyes made me unable to. I'm reluctant to speak, all I want is for the Doctor to come out with happy news. After half an hour of waiting. I became very worried. To calm down it is better to peek from the cracks of glass windows or doors.

"Mam, where are you going?." Ask Davin.

"It's none of your business!". I answered tightly while looking at Papa's face that looks resigned. Then I saw the face of Mr. RT, he just submissive smile flat as if to say do not be too rude to his own child let alone being hit by a disaster.

"Prophe Dav". Said Papa calmly.

I don't mind them. I walked towards the door of the ER room while looking for a gap to look inside. But all I found was a gap that showed the green cloths covering the Doctor's room operating. My heart is getting worse. My legs can no longer work together to support my body. I'm drooping on the floor. Resigned helplessly. I am nostalgic for the memories of 25 years. If I die, what responsibility will I explain to Sasha's parents. They were both my best friends who had left Sasha alone. The accident that hit them was terrible. Everything that happened was not far from my fault for influencing Alena to marry Bram. Alena was pregnant with Sasha for 9 months. The baby was born in the middle of a car that was on fire. Luckily the people under the bridge still had time to take the baby away. When I came the car exploded. I was so devastated to see the flames devouring their charred bodies. Sayup-sayup in the middle of the commotion I heard the sound of the Baby. I saw in the lap of a red baby boy covered in blood. I was suspicious of the baby and sure enough he was the son of Alena. My crying is getting worse. I must be ready to take responsibility for their little daughter's life.

All the things I've been covering up are meetings with my husband and Sasha's extended family. I immediately brought the baby home to be cleaned and wrapped in a warm blanket. Lucky my husband's out of town. And the little Baby Davin was being carried by his Opanya at the Syailendra Grand Family Mansion. At that time I was so helpless. Papa Davin would be so mad at me if I brought him home. Moreover, this is the baby of someone whom he has always considered an enemy, because the father of this baby is none other than my ex-boyfriend. Yes, Bram and I had a relationship before my family finally chose to marry me to Mas Indra because the company shares are almost over the edge. I didn't know that it turned out that Bram had been in a relationship with my best friend Alena, 5 months before I cut off our relationship. I was surprised to know, of course, very disappointed and finally accelerated my match with Mas Indra. Apparently behind it all there is a bitter story that Alena told 3 months ago. She was raped by Bram while drunk because my extended family was busy threatening her to get away from my life. That's because Bram comes from a poor family. Bram was only lucky because of his achievements he was able to study at Our Campus. After the bitter incident, Alena held him accountable for his actions. Bram did not dare to avoid his actions. But he was rejected outright by Alena's family. Understandably the Alena family is the ranks of Coal Mine entrepreneurs scattered throughout the country. Bram's class was certainly not their dream level. Until finally they have a relationship behind the scenes. Love grows with time together between them. For 1 month I gave birth to Davin. I found out that she was pregnant. I agreed to meet him again after establishing myself to forgive Bram. The series of plagues he told. I'm really shocked. I misunderstood him. Finally until one day I advised them to elope because Alena was forced to kill the baby when it was born so as not to inflict disgrace on the family's good name. Yes this is what's happening now. I'm trying to be big-spirited for this little baby.

"Have you been my foster parents all this time?". He said smiling pretty. I can only be fascinated as well as Mas Indra.

"Why just came?, almost I was frustrated because all my achievements are meaningless for who is suguhhkan.

After that we talked a lot. But the secret of Sasha's past lives is as close as possible. Until 2 years ago He knew it all and remained our son. But life is not always flat. Sasha after 2nd grade High School has problems with her life, because her beauty makes many men from High School Men's Dormitory do various indecent things in their dorm room. The most fatal are some teenagers who often masturbate by printing photos of Sasha taken secretly. Luckily the school knew about it. So to save Sasha the hostel calls to talk about this. Of course I chose to take Sasha home. I don't know what Angels influenced Mas Indra at that time. He was so eager to agree with my wishes. Although in Sasha himself felt heavy because of the Kindergarten, he was already living there. Yes, those are the memories that are still clearly engraved in my memory.

I stood up again to look into the ER room again. I put my hand on the glass door while praying. My daughter Sasha. You're a strong boy, honey. You are very kind. Just like your parents, son. Mommy will be very sad if you have to lose Sasha now realize son. Mommy will always be a much better parent for you, son. Let's get up, honey. O God, give your miracle to my family once again.

My tears continue to produce a circle of clear water like a pearl. I have no power to hold him.

The Inara POV End

Hi READERS. May you always be healthy. Sasha is the Child Outside of Marriage. Wadidaw kasian yes. Make Readers not to be. Be smart to keep yourself even from the closest people. I luv yu😘 See yu next Chapter.