This is Love Not Suffering

If Only

If only I hadn't met him at the time.

Maybe it's not all like this...

Yeah, that lyric re-enactment was very influential to me. But not me now, because everything I have lived with Steady and sincere. Everything that happens in life is nothing more than a joke. The world is just a play. God rules everything on this earth. The Point is Just to Think Good of God. That's what I believe after returning from a routine study for Akhwat Manahul Housing Complex. I don't know why since 2 Years ago. After Mas Davin dropped Talak on me, my world was devastated. I eat rice like Stone, even Water I drink like Thorn. That was the picture of my life at the time. A very special incident makes me very grateful. Be grateful? yes grateful, because if you look at the darkness of my world 3 years before I would never have thought it could reach the stage of Hijrah like today. It's true what people out there say. You will not be right to return to God if the misfortune has not befallen you. Sadistic but true.

Now my life has improved after I have truly surrendered myself to the Divine. For He is the only place to hope. Even Mas Davin whose life is super dark is also now following a special routine study of Akhi in Complex Studies here, the difference is we Akhwat in the afternoon of Saturday while the special Akhi on Sunday Morning. Which of your Gods do you lie about, right? When asked like this I would say There is No God. Yes indeed all the Delights even the Enlightenment has made me aware of the meaning of life many times. This long daydream is scattered with my Ringtone Handphone which reads indicating there is an incoming message. I read a message from my beloved husband. My dear Davin.

Jauzyku😘

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~My darling, Mas is on his way home. Hope you have finished your research. Anyway, upon arrival at home we go directly to a place that will make you happy. Get ready, baby. I luv yu😚

My smile also expands like a flower in a garden that is blooming. This morning's rain made them produce good photosynthesizers this afternoon. The fragrance made me fall asleep plus the incoming message from my husband who made himself happy not to be upset. Understandably, I really hope that moments like this are present in my life. Now it all feels like a dream. I pinched my cheek and then had to take responsibility for my own pain because obviously this was not a dream but still I did not believe it. It's funny, just a short message from my husband made me this happy. I thought hard about what surprise Mas Davin would show me. If only Mas Davin would give me a surprise that I was waiting for like in my dream last night. Yes last night I had a dream Mas Davin took me to HoneyMoon around Indonesia. Hihi I feel amused at imagining all my prejudices. I also realized from the drift of the endless delusion and immediately spurred my footsteps to get home. Yes, the distance from the mosque to my house takes 10 minutes. Every step I take does not forget I say a prayer to always be protected by God.

On arrival near the courtyard of the house I saw Mas Davin's motorcycle parked in the yard. I was shocked not once, because I felt guilty for too much daydreaming so long on the road. Davin had to wait for me. I also ran a little to cross. When going to cross suddenly there was a Garbage Truck that drove very fast as if their Gas was sticky. I who at that time ran small less careful.

Brugh!!

I felt my body float in the air and then crash violently. I heard screams from everyone, especially Mas Davin. But the pain that was so terrible to know how quickly it has paralyzed this body. All I remember at that time was "Is this the reply of people who like to wish God?" Oh if so. Please forgive me" As soon as it's all dark.

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