The Torrent of Longing

Mysterious Man

>>News from Rusda<<'s view

Finally, I was able to hold my mother. Mama sat down on the floor and kept crying. I could only continue to hug her to give her strength.

Until the phone rang from my phone on the table, I moved and picked it up. While looking at my mom.

"Hello bi. Why?"

I picked up the phone with a voice that sounded like it was crying out

"Loh, why are you, son? How crying?"

"Gapapa bi's.. Aunt why call?"

"Fajar is conscious. He's got you"

"Oh.. Ba-baik.. I'm there"

"Ma.. Fajr already inget Rusda ma.." I said as I approached my mother

"He's your girlfriend, right? Not my mom"

"But, you should meet him too"

Mama just shut up and stood up to pick up the phone.

"Come"

I smiled as I walked with my mom

Upon arriving at the hospital, my mother and I entered the room where Dawn was being treated. We saw Fajar sitting on a hospital bed with a leaning position. He was eating fed bi Ika.

"Fajaaar" said Mama while running and immediately hugged Fajar

"Mama misses you dear" said mama again while kissing the forehead and cheeks of the only biological child

"Mamaa.. Dawn also misses mama." said Fajar while shedding his tears

"Fajar is afraid.. Fear dawn.. Dawn does not want to be alone.. Dawn is afraid of the dark" said Fajar while continuing to hold your hand without letting go

"Prophey, baby.. Mama here, mama will keep you.. Don't be afraid of it.."

"Pa-papa where is ma? How come papa ga dateng?" ask Fajar

Mom saw me, I was confused how to say it.

("Perhaps for now, Dawn don't know just yet. He just remembered everything. She's afraid she's in shock" I whispered into my mother's ear)

"Your father is abroad, son. I-he had a sudden job and couldn't get permission or be pushed back"

"Hm.. Always was.. It must be just because the work of Dawn is always defeated"

"Eh, you've been dancing on Rusda, right? Rusda was here"

I went straight to Dawn and held her hand.

"Rushdaa.. You're doing all right? No one got hurt, right? I'm sorry, yeah.."

"Yes, I'm fine and no one gets hurt. But, you don't apologize.. I should be the one apologizing. Because of me you're getting rich. Just try that time we are diem-diem at home, certainly will not be rich gini"

"There's nothing wrong, son. It's all fate"

"Yes really said mama da" Dawn confirmed the words of mama

I could only remain silent, as guilt continued to envelop me.

"Oh yeah, what's your comic? Still going, right?" ask Fajar

"In the wake of that accident, I didn't go again.. It goes on, but sometimes"

"Why?"

"That's nothing"

"Someone's cool with Fajar bi? Who is this from?" I asked while pointing at a parcel containing fruits

"Yes, yesterday someone visited Dawn"

"Who's bi?" my words go together with Dawn

"Loh, you don't know jar?" ask me confused

"Who is bi?" ask Fajar

"Ndot know. But he said that he was a representative of his classmates to Dawn" explained bi Ika

"Temen-temen?" fajar lirih

"Ohalone bi?" much

"Yes, he's his own son"

"Women or men bi" asked mama

"Women" replied bi Ika

"Since when did you get along with the Dawn women?" ask mama

"Fajar never familiar with women ma.. The only woman who is familiar with Dawn is just Dusk"

Everyone seems to be thinking about finding the answer.

"Auntie like a stranger is the same face. But who is it?" bi Ika spoke softly

When the mood was silent suddenly...

The sound of my phone ringing was very loud, breaking the atmosphere. And everyone looked at me right away except for Dawn, he looked only at the source of the voice.

"Sorry" I said as I scratched my non-itchy nape

I saw it from Om Nawi, the psychiatrist I called last night. I also got permission to pick up the phone.

"Ma.. Jar.. Bi.. Pamit ahead for a moment yes, want to pick up the phone" I said

Everyone in the room just nodded and went back to their own thoughts.

"Hello doc"

"Yes hello. When are you gonna bring your mama here?"

"Let's do doc.. The new dawn is conscious. And mama kaya did not want to be separated with Dawn.. Mama also did not do why-why doc.. It's normal again" I said innocently

"Yes, if there's anything just call me yes"

"Yes doc, ready"

"good. Thanks"

Tut's.. Tut's.. Tut's..

The phone was turned off by Nawi.

I went back into the room. And the atmosphere was still the same as when I left this room, silent.

"Ehm.." I cleared my throat to make the people in this room aware of my presence again

They all stay quiet. But, his eyes looked at me. I just scratched my neck and walked towards the side of the bed of Dawn. I approached the parcel that was somehow given by whom. Because I kept being watched by mama and bi Ika, I became salting (wrong behavior). My hands could not stand still and I finally opened the parcel.

I took out all the fruits and found a piece of paper that contained the words "Keep Strong, litle MR". I immediately showed it to mama and bi Ika. They immediately showed a more confused expression than before.

"Fajars.. Dalem parsel has a letter. It's 'Keep strong, litle MR'"

"Huh, seriously da?"

"Yes. Why the hell am I lying"

Everyone thought again and the mood went back to silence.

In my mind I crossed the name of Dusk. But that's all impossible, right? Dusk was long gone, there was no way he could know the state of Dawn now. I thought that person was a fan of Dawn. He was secretly touching the Dawn. Maybe right?

I don't know.. It seems like today everyone is just busy thinking about it. Until I can't remember the time. They all have no jobs or what?

I don't want to say anything anymore. Later if they look at me again, I become salting again. And if I salting later can-can all the goods that are here I peretelin.

To be continued......

...ΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩ...

"Everything that has happened is indeed fate or almighty will. But that doesn't mean we're just waiting for His destiny. We also need action to get it. Maybe, if the disaster does not take any effort to get it. But, for a salvation of self, the coming of sustenance and anything else that can benefit us, it all needs what is called "Usaha". It is not just waiting for God's destiny. "God's destiny is never wrong. If we are not destined to get the disease, we will not get it" maybe the words of an arrogant person, a person who does not want to try for his own safety, he said, the one who just wants to accept everything without any effort. The point is 'Stay trying your best for yourself, because destiny comes hand in hand with effort'"

~Fajar Ulil Abshor