The Torrent of Longing

Mama

>>News from Rusda<<'s view

I continued with Dawn until nightfall. But, I did not see the whereabouts of mama at all from this afternoon. Mama is usually there beside the bed of dawn.

Suddenly Ika entered the room.

"Son Rusda, your mama's sick, son.. Aunty came home for a while and it turned out that your mother was home. Looks like he has a fever. You just go home, son, accompany your mama"

"Mama bi fever? So did aunt stay that way?"

"Whoa son, that's aunt sepet nyiapin eat same compress your mama before here"

"So now you're home alone?"

"Yes son. That's why now you're taking home, let auntie take care of Dawn"

"Yes is bi. Rusda said goodbye first" I said as I ran out

Arriving outside the hospital, I was confused about what to go home. Last afternoon I left by bi Ika using the car grab. Do I have to order ojol? Nope, no.. It would be too long to wait like that.

I crossed the street and wished there was a base motorcycle still hanging out on the side of the road.

And I found someone sitting on the side of the road sitting on a motorcycle.

"Mas.. Mas.. Sorry, mas a motorcycle taxi?"

"Yes, ngojek de?"

"Yes. The Perum Pelangi Jaya yaa mas"

When I got home, my mom was daydreaming on the porch. My mom looks tired and has no energy.

"Maa.. Mama why is she outside? Cold loh mah" I said while holding the hand of my mother who felt very warm

"Mama anget's hands. In yu ma's room" just me while slightly pulling his hand

Mom just kept quiet with empty eyes. He kept looking ahead without eye contact with me.

Mom finally went inside a little.

Arriving in the room, I immediately told my mother***rest****. My mom lay in her bed without saying anything.

I feel like there's something weird about Mom. Why didn't he respond to my words from earlier? Is your mom having a toothache? Or thrush?

That night I slept with my mom. I am worried about my mother's current situation.

In the middle of the night, I woke up to go to the toilet. I saw my mom not next to me. I immediately looked for my mother and forgot my original intention to go to the toilet.

I saw the balcony door open. And when I looked, my mom was there. And again my mother was daydreaming.

I guess today I'm gonna have to stay up, afraid that mama's gonna do something unexpected.

I just watched my mom from the inside. Maybe my mom wants to be alone.

I heard a very slow mama's chattering.

"Paa.. Later in the morning we accompany Dawn to go to school, yes.."

When I heard my mother's words just now, I felt very sorry for my mother. Maybe my mother could not accept the fact that had happened.

But strangely enough, when mama turned around and walked to get inside. I didn't see any tears on my face. And my mom just passed me by, and I was in front of her.

She went back to her bed and closed her eyes.

I can't sleep tonight. I kept thinking about my mom. I also called a psychiatrist. I thought that what my mother experienced was not a natural thing.

It just so happened that my brother was a psychiatrist. I also tried to reach him by phone. And appointed.

"Hallos. With who? Can I help you?" I heard a grown man picking up my phone

"Hallo doc.. I'm Rusda Dika's friend. I want to consult my mother's condition doc."

"Eum.. Gini doc.. From this afternoon my mother looked like a person who had a lot of thoughts, no spirit anyway. When I just came home, my mom was dreaming in front of the house. Before I came home, I got a report from my aunt that she had a fever. When I talked to him he did not respond at all, his eyes were also empty. At night, I was with my mom and I slept. I woke up in the middle of the night and my mom was not there beside me. It turned out that my mother was on the balcony, and again was daydreaming. I keep ngedenger if mama says gini "Pa.. Later in the morning we accompany Dawn to go to school yes". Those words astonished me doc. Papa is dead and now the child named Fajar is hospitalized. This is actually what happened to my mom doc?"

"Human... Your mom is probably mentally disturbed"

"But it can be cured, right doc?"

"could. But you have to go through a long process. Tomorrow you come here with your mother. Let me see your mother's situation firsthand"

"Good doc. Thanks for the time.."

"Together"

The phone was disconnected..

That night I decided not to sleep. I continued some of my duties as a comic, because at that time all my comics were abandoned.

Morning has arrived. I suddenly woke up in front of a computer desk. Turns out I overslept. And I saw the clock on the wall already showing 07:02 AM.

The first thing I was looking for was my mom. I came down the stairs in a hurry. And when I wanted to step foot on the last step, I heard my mother say

"Be careful, baby, it's falling"

"Mama? Is your mom awake?"

"Yes. Breakfast was yu.."

"Well, are you healthy?"

"When did you get sick?"

"Cong with ma... Don't think about it"

When I went to the dining room, I saw four clean dishes placed upside down on the dining table.

"Cock the plate a lot ma?"

Mama turned all the dishes on the table.

"It's for you, it's for Mama.. It's buaaat...."

Mom thought for a moment and hung up her words. Then suddenly he went back to silence and looked at me blankly. Then, he just sat down. He did not scoop up the food on the table.

Seeing mama like that, I could only endure the crying. I couldn't stand to see my mom like that.

When my tears broke, my mother said nothing. I feel very, very, very sick seeing everything that's going on in this family. I wish this was all just a long nightmare. When I woke up I saw that they were all in good shape.

While continuing to shed tears, I spooned food for my mother and gave it to her. My mother accepted and ate it.

"Yes.."

With my voice still shaking, I tried to communicate with my mother.

My mother just looked me in the eye without responding to my words.

"Later Rusda wants to go somewhere to mama.."

Mom looked out the window. And then looking into the kitchen, exactly mama looked at the knife located on the cutting board.

At that time I immediately thought that my mother would do things that would hurt herself. And it turned out to be true. Without warning, my mother ran straight to the kitchen. Quickly, I held back my mother's body while hugging her.

"Ma.. What's your mom doing??"

"Don't ma.. Don'tdon't.. Don't.."

I continued to hold my mother's body while shedding tears that were hardening for a long time.

My mother continued to rebel, crying..

To be continued...