The Shackles of the Past
Selena and Josh: The beginning of the problem (3) End
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Josh with an anxious and angry face continued to bang on the bathroom door, despite having received an answer from the wife but did not make his anxious feelings immediately calm. Without much thought, Josh took a few steps back and ran with his right arm crashing towards the door.
Brak!
One break instantly made the bathroom door open forcefully, with hunting breath. Josh looked at the woman crouching with something in both hands. She took a cold and angry look, made the woman stand up and hide something behind her back.
"Make it." Pinta Josh on a low note.
Selena shook her head quickly with her two teary eyes, she was extremely scared at this moment. What if her husband was angry or just caught her.
Roughly Josh reached for Selena's right arm and turned half the body of the woman in front of him, taking something in both hands of Selena by force. Open and read what is written inside the wrap.
His eyes widened, looking for a moment at the frightened woman in front of him, then opened his left hand which held a small and long tool. His forehead wrinkled because there were two red lines there, making Josh re-read the writing on the wrap.
"Beb, I'm pregnant." Selena said with a happy face, her smile adorning her beautiful face.
Selena stepped towards Josh wanting to hug the man, but she was stunned in his place. Josh walked backwards with a difficult look.
"Why beb?" Selena asked stammeredly at Josh's rejection.
"Who told you to get pregnant." Josh asked the question in a cold, low tone.
Hearing Josh's words made Selena's heart ache, she gripped her pajamas firmly. Both of his eyes were already foggy from being sad to get rejection from Josh.
"Didn't we do it almost every day, of course the consequences are that I'm going to get pregnant. Are you unhappy having a child with me?" Selena asked with a trembling voice holding back her cries.
"Didn't you take the vitamins I gave you." Josh said in the same voice.
Selena shook her head slowly, looking at Selena's response to Josh's black ride. The man violently throws the testpek and packs it towards Selena.
"Evocate." Josh's orders are firm.
Selena's two perfectly rounded eyes overshadowed Josh's words, quickly raising her face and staring woundfully at her husband.
"Josh, this is our son. Our flesh's blood." Said Selena with a slight high tone.
Tears that had been held by Selena, escaped just by slashing her cheeks. Josh stared at the nyalang waita in front of him with the rough hand clutching Selena's jaw until the woman grimaced in pain.
"Do you dispute me, throw it away or I will eliminate it." Josh threatened by saying face down in front of Selena's face that still continues to cry.
Selena was unable to move her head or lips to move Josh, her two slender hands clutching Josh's wrists as she felt her jaw really hurt. Josh violently pushed Selena until her back hit the bathroom wall.
"If you haven't thrown this day away, don't get me wrong I'll do more." Josh said as he passed from the bathroom.
Selena shed her tears, her body slumped to the floor. The cry that lurched became swift, the cry broke just like that with the arms that closed both of her eyes but could still see her rushing tears drenching her beautiful face.
She was crying all by herself in the bathroom, her heart was so sick and claustrophobic at the moment. Even the air in the room seemed to suffocate her, Selena never thought that Josh would so desperately take away a life that was not bedosa.
Not without reason if Selena is suddenly afraid of Josh, because the festis that Josh has contributed to Selena's fear. Not infrequently, Josh lightly hands him. Making Selena suddenly afraid if she saw the mimic of her husband's face changed.
Hearing the broken item that was so hard that Selena covered both her ears, her body trembled even more in fear. Is not in marriage having children something commonplace, sometimes because a child can cause household rifts other than the economy. Why is her husband so angry and reluctant to have children. Is there something wrong with her or their marriage?
A million questions wandered in Selena's mind, her heart raging wanting to know the real Josh. He was silent just because he was lazy to look for a commotion, after all, he also had no family. If he goes from Josh's side who will live him? She is not an independent and resilient woman with all circumstances, it is terbesit Selena wants to contact her ex-lover but she undone. Whether Kenan would help him, let alone remember Grandpa Wijaya's hatred for him.
Josh, who came out of the bathroom, walked quickly into the living room. He scooped his face violently, clearly drawn on his face the anger that was ready to explode. The two neutrals scanned the room, looking at the vase in several corners of the room, with wide steps, and without thinking long. Josh pretended all the vases with emotion on the floor until all the pieces scattered over a long distance.
"Let's!" yell Josh by pulling the tablecloth to drop whatever is on the dining table.
Josh's chest rose and fell rapidly, signaling how emotional he was at the moment. Josh paced back and forth in the living room with his back hair. His two eyes had already heated up, feelings of fear, pain, and anger became one.
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The snow every hour fell more and more until the night before, covering the streets, and various objects that were outside the room. Bringing the cold more piercing, making the nose and cheeks flushed signifies how cold tonight is.
Silence was split with the sound of footsteps clad in leather shoes that were walking through the thick snow on the streets, seen two people were doing a transaction in a quiet and seedy alley. Ensure the original item and immediately give up a sum of money that is somehow in number.
"Thank you!" Prattling
"It's nice to do business with you" he replied by putting money in a thick coat.
In a dark, damp, stuffy room. A woman was curled up on the sidelines of a shelf filled with unused items. Dressed in warm clothes, Selena hid from her husband.
The clock has shown that it's time for Josh to get home from work, which means that he will question whether Selena has had an abortion. Just thinking about it has made him dizzy especially if you really have to lose his baby.
*abortions were legalized in the United States through a legal ruling in 1973, often referred to as the Roe vs. Wade case. On Friday (24/6) local time, decided to cancel the right to abortion, *there is no longer a right of the federal government to legalize abortion. Abortion rights will be determined by each state unless Congress takes a stand.
About 57% of reported abortions in 2019 were performed on women between the ages of 20 and 29.
The majority of states report abortion data to the U. S. Centers for Disease Prevention and Control (CDC), but some do not.
Rachel Jones, a senior researcher at the Guttmacher Institute, a pro-abortion research group, told the BBC: "Abortion patients are generally in their 20s, don't have a lot of money and have one or more kids."
The agency's research shows that 75% of women in the U. S. who have abortions are classified as low-income or poor (based on the official U. S. definition of poverty).
Selena has been looking for information related to abortion in her husband's home country, especially in the city they live in, luckily not all parts of the United States legalized abortion as the conservative Midwestern states became the first U. S. states to ban abortion.
Josh who did not find the wife continued to call out Selena's name by opening all the rooms in her apartment. Until, leaving one room that is very rarely he visited. Slowly Josh approached the room and opened it violently.
Apparently, Selena was surprised to find Josh who had opened the door of the warehouse as wide as possible. Josh's forehead shriveled because he saw his wife who was looking for something.
"What are you doing, baby?" Ask Josh gently.
"You've come home baby, I'm just looking for a vase that maybe we still have some in the shed. I'm sorry I didn't hear you when you got home." Selena is lying.
What actually happened, Selena immediately pretended to look for something when the sound of Josh's footsteps approached the warehouse. Selena should run away or hide somewhere else.
Breath sounds harsh, "I'm sorry I broke a flower vase at home, let's buy it at the store." Bring Josh gently.
Selena swallowed her hard saliva, has Josh forgotten the baby's problems in the womb or what? Selena's head pulsated thinking about it.
"Baby, come!" Shouted Josh who was already away from the warehouse.
Selena then got up and patted her coat several times so that the dust does not stick, Josh walked closer with a knit hat and tote bag owned by her.
"You need to stay warm, I bought vitamins for you, baby." Josh said by walking towards the kitchen after putting on a gray knit hat.
Selena's eyes blinked quickly, "vi-vitami? what vitamins is Josh?" Selena asked in surprise and suspicion.
"So I went to the pharmacy near the apartment to buy dizzy medicine and I remember you definitely need vitamins too." Josh answered by looking at Selena.
Selena followed Josh's line of sight, the view towards his belly. A glimmer of light seemed to shine through Selena's heart. Maybe Josh was just shocked and carried away by emotions this morning.
"Thank you." Say Selena by receiving two tablets of the drug and a glass of water.
Now that the two are in the car to the shopping center, Selena continues to smile and occasionally looks at Josh who is focused on the highway. Until he felt his stomach slowly feel sore, until the pain was more intense attacking Selena's back and stomach.
"Awhsss!" Selena grimaced by gripping the car handle tightly, her forehead had appeared grains of sweat, her forehead was getting wrinkled inward, her face that was originally slightly red now pale, now pale, with lips that are bitten deeply to channel the pain.
"Lad." Call Selena in an almost inaudible voice.
"Please hold on for a while, baby, after that you won't feel any pain." Josh answered without looking at his wife.
Selena looked sadly and angrily at Josh, "What are you giving me." Said Selena in a soft but pressing tone.
A faint smile rose on her husband's handsome face, "Only medicine to abort a baby." Josh answered without guilt.
Selena's two eyes are perfectly dilated, both eyes are reddened, and teary. However, the pain continued to plague him.
"I'd hate you for the rest of my age if this baby was missing Josh!" Selena said seriously and with great emphasis.
After saying that, Selena was unconscious because she was not strong emnahan pain that made her life as if toyed on the crown of her head. Josh, who heard Selena's speech for a moment stunned, saw Selena fainted and Josh immediately pressed the gas car to the hospital.
Lucky is near so that Selena's life is saved, but the baby still dies in the womb. Since the beginning of Josh's goal is indeed a hospital not in a shopping place, when he heard the doctor's description of how the effects of the drug made Josh feel pain in his heart as if his world collapsed if he imagined Selena going from his side.
"Sir, because the hard medicine made Ms. Selena's uterus lining hurt pretty badly. It may be difficult to get pregnant or while pregnant can experience disability. But what is more feared is the life of one of the two." The doctor clearly showed the results of the ultrasound.
"How to get healed?" Ask Josh in a daze.
"Getting intensive care, sir. Although later can not return perfectly, at least can minimize the things you do not want." Answer the doctor.
"Do your best, doc, no matter what the cost. Give my best to my wife." Kta Josh with a pleading tone and face.
The doctor nodded, "Sir, where did your wife get the medicine? Because in the state it's illegal to have an abortion." Ask the doctor full of questions.
"I don't know, doc. Because I just got home from work and I'm going to the shopping mall." Lying to the doctor.
The doctor just nodded his head just a sign of understanding, allowing Josh to see the wife's condition. Since that incident, Selena's warm attitude vanished replaced with her cold and rude attitude. He always opposes what Josh wants and says, in the relationship Selena always fight until Josh ends up doing violence and heroic forcibly.
Selena escapes from Josh's life, driving the man crazy and spending all his savings to catch up with his wife back in his home country. How Josh knew where Selena was going, all because of William and Wijaya's family.
Although the two families already offered all the facilities, Josh turned them down. For Josh, just know where the wife is the rest let Josh do it.
