The Shackles of the Past

Selena and Josh: Apologizing

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Selena was sitting on the single sofa facing the window of Josh's apartment, three days ago Selena returned home. She was undergoing treatment in the apartment, for three days Selena still silenced Josh as free to invite the man whose status was her husband said calmly.

It's better to shut up for Josh to get fed up and leave him, that's Selena's mind. Selena did not move a bit from where she was sitting, she looked straight at the view presented from the top of Josh's apartment.

His gaze moved down, right in an apartment garden. His sense of hearing caught the sound of a small child's shrill laughter made Selena wonder what made the little boy laugh was playing a romp with his father.

Netra Selena could not be separated from the little bangs, her crisp laughter made Selena feel at home for a long time looking at her from the apartment floor. The usual view is now turned into a sad, the two neutrals Selena is already foggy, the tears are ready to grow wet the beautiful face of the woman.

Looking at the little family below made Selena's heart and chest very tight, slowly but surely. Both of his shoulders trembled and a stifled sobbing filled the room. Selena once dreamed of having a happy family with Josh, having children to accompany her, going to a playground of three, all the things Selena wanted to do when her father and mother left.

Josh who was in the doorway of Selena's room just stood up and was silent. He knocks on the door but gets no answer, causing Josh to open the door to his wife's room without permission.

Seeing the scene in front of Josh's heart again grieved and regretted, he also heard the sound of a child laughing. It can be ascertained if his wife must be remembering their biological child and the fetus that was just a few days ago also left.

Inhaling the air deeply, Josh tried to be fine and did not regret his actions. He stepped his foot towards Selena with a tray because since noon Selena had not eaten anything, it was confirmed that the woman was not taking her medicine either.

"What do you see, baby?" Ask Josh by putting a tray on the nightstand.

Selena who was shocked and unaware of Josh's arrival immediately wiped her tears quickly, "Who told you to go into my room!" Selena's Flick to Josh.

Josh just stared at my face and his wife's puffy eyes, "Why ask permission if this is also my room." Josh's reply made Selena stare fiercely and hatefully.

"Let me go." Selena said firmly.

"Thousands of times my answer remains the same, it will never make you walk away from my side." Josh replied no less firmly with Selena.

Selena turned her head irritated by crossing her chest, talking to Josh only made her angry and dizzy. Similarly to Selena, Josh will only be emotional when talking to his wife.

"Eat, after that drink your medicine, you must get well soon and we return home." Josh's orders are firm which makes Selena tick.

"Go home, I'll stay here. This is my country." Selena said without looking at Josh.

"And you are my wife." Said Josh.

"Not much, I want us to mend our relationship and make a peaceful family." Josh reveals what is in his heart and mind.

Hearing Josh's words made Selena smile wryly, did she say mending relationships and building a peaceful family?

"Our relationship from the beginning was wrong Josh, you lied to me and for a peaceful family I don't think it can ever be, you ruined everything from the beginning Josh. Not me." Reply Selena with a low tone full of emphasis.

"That's happened in the past, beb. Humans also have mistakes but can still be corrected because there is a desire to fix them. I want to be a good husband and father to you and our son, forgive my biggest mistakes of the past." Said Josh in a compassionate and pleading tone.

Selena's eyes warmed up again, her eyes glazed over. His throat felt choked and his chest felt pain recalling the past. The baby Selena craves must die at the hands of her own husband.

"You don't know how broken my heart is, you don't know how a mother lost her son Josh. You only regret but don't bear the pain that I always feel at all times." Selena answered with tears that had already dripped down her cheeks.

Josh squabbled beside Selena so much that his height equalled his wife's knees, "I'm sorry, I-I'm not ready to accept the presence of a baby girl. You know for yourself what my past is, I'm just a kid that my parents don't want, I grew up in an orphanage and it makes me not ready to have children. It's a wrong way to get you, I lied about my job and my wealth but look. I worked hard even I could hire a guard, buy an apartment, and chase you back." Josh said at length and glazed.

Selena turned her head towards Joh, "Josh you forgot something, I'm also the child left behind by her parents. The difference is that you've been living since infancy, and I was left alone when my father passed away." Selena bit her lips deep as it trembled.

Josh keeps his head down, Josh forgets the one thing that is the wife's deepest wound. It was selfish of him in the past, thinking only of his most hurt and unwanted self in this world.

"I'm sorry pocket, baby." Said Josh who was crying in Selena's lap.

Selena covered her face with both hands, her body trembling and the sound of her sobbing was heartbreaking. Both of them were crying out spilling a feeling of tightness within each other's hearts.

"Sorry."

Only an apology can be said by Josh, if only time can be turned. Josh will turn the clock in any way so as not to make the deepest mistake, hyper se*x is not his wish but it is indeed Josh's shortcoming.

"Josh's pain." Selena said in her tears.

Josh lifted his head and got up to hug his wife, "Sorry baby, I'm sorry. If by exchanging my life for the past I will do. Sorry for killing our son, I'm sorry." Josh said with tears in his eyes.

Selena was crying loudly with both hands beating Josh's body even though it didn't hurt, Josh tightened his arms and let the wife beat him. This is not how much pain he incited in the heart of the wife.