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Ziya was still silent as he hugged Delfin. Giving a gentle swipe on the man's back seemed to give him strength to be able to act calm. "You're strong, really, Fin. I know that," said Ziya lirih.
Delfin slightly flinched. She was ashamed to cry in the arms of a woman. "Thank you, Zi. I was so ashamed I felt this way. Like a woman," said Delfin slightly smiling bitterly after unraveling his embrace. The atmosphere became a little awkward, and the two became misbehaved.
"It's okay, Fin. Sometimes a person needs a cry to vent the tightness that lingers in the chest. Not just women, men are the same. For both are blessed with tears."
Ziya looked at Delfin with a faint smile. Wiping the tears still left in the man's eye patch with his thumb. "There's nothing inappropriate in this world, Fin. Everyone has the same right to get what they want. Whether we are destined to be ours, at least we have tried. I believe God is fair. All the effort you put in earnest, will surely pay off." Ziya added again to give spirit to Delfin.
"You really are, Zi. But how much effort I have now feels in vain, if Cia does not want to support me anymore. Cia has changed, Zi. He was instigated by his grandfather's words. I am useless as a husband. Can't keep my wife's own love." Delfin roared again.
"Are you sure Miss Cia has turned away from you? You may have misunderstood, Fin. He was always jealous of me. That means, Miss Cia still loves you so much."
Delfin was silent for a moment, digesting well Ziya's speech just now. Is it true that Cia still loves him? Then why is he lying and still keeping in touch with Farel behind him?
"But, Farel—"
"Try asking nicely with Ms. Cia again! I'm a girl, Fin. We have the same heart when we love someone. I know what a woman who loves her man so much is like Ms. Cia." Ziya cut Delfin's words.
"Did I really misunderstand?" Delfin muttered to himself, but could still be heard clearly by Ziya.
"Like Miss Cia misunderstood me, you're like that now."
Delfin who had originally lowered his face looked up. He smiled clumsily at Ziya's smile which was like a mocking of him. From that smile he knew, if Ziya had heard his mutter earlier.
"I don't think you're horrified" said Delfin, scratching the nape of his neck that didn't itch.
"of course. My ears are still functioning properly," led Ziya slightly laughed. Trying to shake off Delfin's sadness with a little joking.
Hearing that Delfin laughed as well. Although there is still much sadness left. The advice from Ziya made Delfin even more amazed at Ziya's mature figure. In Delfin's eyes, Ziya was a good figure, like an angel helping her, always there for her. However, without Delfin knowing, Ziya is the source of problems in his household today.
"Again thanks, yes, Zi. You want to entertain me. I'm a little calmer now. At least my passion to keep this marriage alive." Delfin grabbed Ziya's hand for him to hold. Even their eyes could not look at each other. Their minds are both glaring with their own fantasies. Ziya with her love interest clapped one hand, while Delfin with his wish lived happily with Cia in the future.
"Come on, Mas Delfin. Continue filming again!" The voice of the assistant director reminded, if the break hour is over. Just shake Delfin and Ziya's hand grip just slipped off.
"Ready, Mas. I immediately followed," exclaimed Delfin, then stood up from the chair he was sitting in.
His feet had already stepped when he decided to turn around. Without warning the man approached Ziya and hugged her tightly.
"I'm really lucky to have a manager like you, Zi. You are not only beautiful, but also smart and kind. Lucky for a man who can get your heart."
"That lucky guy is you, Fin." Of course that sentence could only be thrown into Ziya's heart. His heart was so sick that his love could only be harbored.
Ziya was still speechless as Delfin let go of his embrace again. "I'll continue filming first, yeah. Bye." Delfin left after saying that sentence. Leaving the still pensive Ziya alone condemned his current stupidity.
How could he play with his own feelings? How could he fall in love with the person he was about to destroy his household? If it's like this, it's not like being entangled in his own bait. "Fool you, Ziya!" erang Ziya when Delfin was gone.
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"You just got home, Zi?"
"Yes, Bun. The filming was just finished" Ziya replied to Erna's question. Ziya had just returned home from filming after midnight. He smiled faintly, then kissed the back of his mother's hand before entering his house.
Erna locked the door before she walked around Ziya. "Have you eaten?" ask Erna.
Ziya stopped stepping and turned around again. "Udah, Bun," he answered.
"You why? Your face looks sad?" As the woman who took care of Ziya from the baby, of course Erna knew that her foster child was being bullied. Mimik Ziya's slightly different face, easily guessed by Erna.
Ziya sighed, before hugging his mother's body. He could not hide his feelings with the woman who took care of him.
"Come, sit here! Same story mom! You why?" Erna who was worried broke Ziya's embrace, then herded Ziya's body into the guest chair in the living room of their house.
"Ziya's okay, Bun. Just tired," Ziya replied lying. There was no way he could tell that his turmoil came from his job as a destroyer of people's households. Moreover, the work was done because it wanted to save the orphanage. Erna would definitely feel guilty to him.
"Are you sure? But you can see there's something else."
Is correct. Nothing can be hidden from a mother, if there is a change in attitude from her child, the mother always knows.
"There is, Bun. But Ziya can't tell the same story Mother. Forgive Ziya, yes!" Ziya lowered her head as Erna stared at her two shiny eyeballs. She was afraid she could not help but cry in front of her mother.
"It's okay, son. If you don't want to tell a story. Mommy just hopes, you can take care of yourself and your health. Don't get too tired of work, and don't do anything that is religiously forbidden! Mommy knows you're trying to save this house, but I hope you don't push yourself, son. It is better to lose our possessions, than to lose our honor by lowering our self-esteem."
Ziya was so impressed by her mother's words. Ziya felt his pride had already been bought by Pram. However, he also could not ignore the fate of his mother and sisters who lived in foster care. Apologies were incessantly spoken in Ziya's heart. Ziya knew this was wrong, but the rice had already become porridge. Ziya had to continue his efforts to save their home. So let everything go as it is. Inwardly, Ziya promised. Someday, Ziya will definitely make up for her own mistakes.
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...To be continued .......