The sanctity of Love

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Erfan went back to the operating room, papi and his mom were already there. Bilqis' parents continued to cry waiting for her son to be operated on.

"Where's Fan?" Asked Mami worriedly, Erfan sat between Papi and Mami.

"Eat the same friend Mi." The answer is short, somehow the condition of his heart is now raging.

"Bapi has done an investigation, Bilqis hit-and-run case. You calm down, Fan, be patient." Erfan nodded even though he did not know how to calm down at a time like this.

"You haven't prayed? There prayed a lot, that Allah might help."

"Yes Pi."

"Go to mushola first." Erfan nodded, walking gontai towards the mushola. Upon seeing that operating room, his soul seemed to lose its way.

"Erfan, dong spirit." Hira said when he came out of the mosque to see Erfan who looked very fragile.

"Ra, I can't see it being in there."

Hira restlessly glanced at his watch, time to stay a little while longer he already had to be in the operating room. He wanted to accompany Erfan, but he couldn't now.

"Fan, I'm so sorry I can't accompany you now. Five minutes to go, there's a caesarean section schedule."

"Go, their lives are more important." Hira nodded, speeding up her steps into the room then made preparations for the operation. O Allah why his heart is so restless thinking about the situation of Erfan who is falling. He just wanted to help the man to be strong, just like Erfan made him strong.

Erfan complained of all the turmoil on the prayer mat. He did not feel his tears falling when he prostrated. He doesn't know what's going on with him right now.

Allah, take all the pain away from Bilqis. Heal him, let us live together in the world until your heaven. Erfan was crying so much, his tears could not be accommodated anymore. He has just learned to open his heart, but God is testing it again now. What's wrong until it all gets like this.

He should blame God, but God is very good to him.

"There is no bad destiny that God has given us, only we as servants who have not been able to receive every destiny from God well."

The words that Hira spoke again revolved in his mind. Astagfirullahaladzim, Erfan let out a long sigh and continued to take a breath.

***

Hours in the operating room, Hira was finally able to breathe. He returned to the room for a while to pick up a cell phone. Then looking for Erfan, Hira was very worried about the man.

I don't know what he's thinking right now. Hira walked slowly closer to Erfan who was bowed lethargic alone. He crouched down in front of Erfan, looking at the man whose eyes were puffy.

"Generic...!"

Erfan raised his face looking at Hira who called out to him. "Lo is great, you are strong, cry if you want to cry again" said Hira.

"Erfan, who is he?" Asked by the cynical Mami, Hira suddenly stood up and stepped back to hear the words of the middle-aged woman who had just arrived. "She's the girl you're with, Fan?" Shouted mami.

Don't repeat your mistake Ra, enough of Ringgo's parents insult you. His heart is now as in crumbs. It was as if there was no permission for him to be friends with men.

"He ate with you?" Erfan nodded, Mami looked at Hira dislike and then sat down beside her son. "You want to marry Bilqis, why you still meet other women" Mami said.

"Mi, Erfan doesn't do anything, just eat together." Erfan looked at the mother who had been pregnant was clingy, so as not to realize the departure of Hira.

"Mommy still doesn't like it." Erfan rubbed a rough face, not funny when like this mami instead invited him to argue with things that are not important.

The operating door opened, Abi and Umminya Bilqis approached the doctor who had just come out. Erfan and Mami come closer, papi has gone home first.

"I'm sorry, we can't save your daughter." Said the doctor to Abi, Umm Bilqis immediately dumbfounded with Abi to hold him.

Erfan ran from the operating room with tears flooding his cheeks, not caring about Mami trying to hold him there. He could not bear, could not look Bilqis in the face anymore. He could not be there, the news was very painful.

"Oh my God, why did all this have to happen to me. Why?" Erfan was screaming hysterically in the quiet park.

"Don't question God's destiny. You may hate something, but it is very good for you, and you may like something, but it is very bad for you; God knows, and you do not know." 

Hira saw Erfan running to the park, he followed the man.

"It hurts Ra." Lirih Erfan, Hira also grimaced to imagine the pain left by loved ones. His eyes were foggy considering the last time he looked at the face of the mother.

"Don't run away like this, Fan!" Hira came closer to Erfan's side, he wanted to hug the man. Like Erfan hugged him back then.

"Gue can't see him lying stiff Ra, it's too fast. It's too painful for me."

"Fan, look at him for the last time. So you won't regret it later." Persuade Hira slowly, her cheeks get wet as sick as this sees Erfan injured. What happened to his heart.

"Gue can't afford Ra. I can't afford it." Lirih Erfan pulled Hira into his arms, he buried his head in the niche of Hira's neck. "Ra Sakiit, I'm not good enough Ra. I can't." Hira rubbed Erfan's back whispering words that could strengthen the man he was hugging. "You can be Fan, you can, look at him for a minute."

"My company." Erfan finally said, Hira nodded her head to strengthen her heart to meet Erfan's mother again. Now is not the time to be selfish. Let it land in his ear again. His intention was sincere to help Erfan, not take advantage of the situation.

"Gue only has a little Fan time." Hira said, not wanting to see the Erfan family for too long. He does not deserve to be friends with a man as handsome and rich as Erfan.

"It's okay for a minute, as long as it's accompanied." Erfan breaks his arms, "thank you Ra."

Hira nodded, then walked behind Erfan towards the mortuary. Hira just looked down not dare to look at the prospective in-laws Erfan or Erfan's own parents. The three middle-aged people were standing in front of the mortuary. His mother Bilqis was still crying hysterically.

"May me and him come in." Erfan asked the nurse, they nodded allowing him to enter.

"Erfan, why bring a stranger in." Hira hears Erfan's mother's words, indicating he can't enter.

"You're Fan, I'm with you from here." Hira tried to pull both corners of her lips to smile, even though her heart was very sick now.

"Mommy can speak more politely, Erfan asked him to accompany her inside." The sentence Erfan spoke sounded flat, yet very piercing. It makes Hira uncomfortable. Mami nodded at her son's words.