The Right Hand of the Young Master of the Mafia

Episode 39: Awake Now

Time showed at 3am and I had not slept at all. I sat down next to Alan who was fast asleep, I wrote my strategy by mixing up Alan's version of strategy, yes, although it is not too difficult but it makes me very dizzy especially I am the head of the mafia so I do not want to until my plan fails again

Tiiigggg...

Suddenly my phone shook inside my clothes, I took my phone and read a message from Sann Liu saying that Sain and Sina were wounded by members of the rebel organization group and fortunately they were both able to escape, Sina was only lightly injured but now Sain is being critical. I immediately replied to the message so that Sann and Hassan would continue to look after my two sisters and put my phone back next to me

"Hmmmm.." My sigh hid my face between my legs while holding my cry even though I was crying right now

I felt like I had failed so much to become a big brother, I was already unable to protect my two sisters and now they were injured because I took my sister from the hands of that organization. I know Alan's two sisters can protect him but I... I feel so useless wanting me to end this useless life

"Why are you crying?" muttered Alan opened his eyes and looked at me coldly, I was speechless and completely unwilling to tell Alan anything

"Why are you crying?" alan asked once more but I was silent

"SANI ANSWERED!!!" alan's yelling that made me so sick to hear that instead of him calming me was yelling at me like that, without saying anything I got out of bed and ran out of the room

"So where are you going tonight - nights like this!!!" yelled Alan took my phone. Even though I knew he took my phone but I didn't care at all and kept running from Alan's headquarters. As I passed the kitchen I picked up a knife and ran out again

"Where's your young lady going?" shouted the gatekeeper loudly without caring about it I kept running away from the area of the headquarters and into the forest

I ran and kept running until - until I fell to the ground as I tripped over the roots that appeared above the ground. The pain in my knees and elbows I don't feel at all just the pain in my heart that I feel now. I still can't protect and make my two sisters happy

"DAD ... MOTHER ... WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME? WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE BOTH OF MY SISTERS? WHY ARE YOU MAKING MY LIFE SUFFER LIKE THIS? I CAN'T AFFORD TO... I CAN NO LONGER AFFORD FATHER MOTHER!!!!" I screamed loudly

Jeeeedddrrrr

The sound of lightning striking the sky, the rain fell very heavily, I who was lying on the ground could only cry while feeling the cold of the day and the wet ground exposed to water. I don't care about my wet nightgown, I don't care about the cold tonight, I don't care about the raindrops that hit me hard, and I don't care about anything. All I know is I want to avenge my family's death and end my life

I took the kitchen knife in my hand. I scratched the needle in my neck that made my neck hurt and blood came out united with rainwater. Suddenly the rain that hit my body disappeared, I glanced behind me and saw Alan who was carrying an umbrella while looking at me worriedly. Alan immediately carried my body walking away leaving the rain

"Why are you here?" my sigh was slow but Alan just fell silent wordlessly carrying me back to his headquarters

"Young master... Young miss?" muttered the guards bowing their bodies while looking at me who was bleeding without saying anything Alan continued to walk into the room

Alan helped me sit up in my chair and pick up the medicine box in the closet. Alan immediately stopped the heavy bleeding in my neck and wrapped my neck in a bandage. After he finished treating me, Alan looked at me with his cold gaze without even blinking at all.

Seeing Alan's frightening gaze make me even sadder and I ended up crying back, Alan hugged me gently and gently rubbed my wet hair. Alan's embrace made me feel sad and desperate

"Hmmm, I know you're sad because of what baby. I'm also sad to hear it.."suffled Alan quietly.

"But you can't hurt yourself like this..."

"The attempted suicide made me very sad for my wife..."

"Do you have the heart to leave your faithful husband waiting for you for decades?" sighed Alan softly, on my cold shoulder due to the rest of this rain I felt a warm liquid felt on my shoulder. I let go of Alan's embrace and first saw Alan's tears dripping down his cheek. I wiped Alan's tears with both hands and hugged Alan again

"Sorry Alan, I disappointed you... Again." I closed both my eyes

"Why do you always do that Sani? Don't you want to be with me?" sigh Alan stammered - brick

"I want Alan but..."

"If you want why you're doing this Sani, why do you always want to leave me alone." sighed Alan softly.

"A... I'm..."

"I'm tired of living alone Sani, I don't want to be alone Sani. A...I ... I want to live with you" Alan sighed slowly

"I have no one - who else is Sani, I'm far from my family and far from my two sisters. I only have you a nobody else anymore." sighed Alan as he continued to cry.

"I'm just a sick girl from childhood, I'm cruel, I'm evil, and I make anyone unlucky. Why do you keep hanging with me Alan, you should find another woman..."

"DO NOT!!!" alan's shout cut through my conversation and squeezed my back firmly. Alan's anger made me a little surprised, Alan looked very sad and angry when I said that, even though I didn't want him to be unlucky like everyone else let alone no one knew about his age..

"Hmmm I'm sorry Alan, I'll promise not to do that again and we get married how?" I murmured slowly, Alan's wrath getting weaker and weaker. The two eyes that had been flooded by tears of sadness excitedly looked at my face seriously

"A.. Do you want to promise?"

"Yes I promise you" I smiled at Alan

"Hmmm thank you Sani." sigh Alan smiled at me and fainted in my arms suddenly.

"Alan? Alan... You why?" to my surprise, I held his head very hot

"Roy, Zaky, Wan!!!" my screams and my three subordinates appeared

"And Tu.. Mr Alan why did he faint?" zaki asked in surprise

"Later I tell you, the important thing is please bring him water, food, and fever medicine" I muttered trying to lift Alan's heavy body

"Eeeehh well young lady" muttered the three subordinates and left my room

I lay Alan's body on the bed and I immediately changed my clothes and took Alan's clothes from the closet, even though his clothes were not too wet but he had a fever out of the rain

"Young lady what happened to the young master?" muttered Fians standing on the bed

"He fainted, he's hot"

"Hmmm ... The young master of these few months did not sleep at all and only today did the young master sleep. There is too much work to be done by the young master and also the young master always thinks about your situation young lady let alone you are always alone and always want to kill yourself." murmured Fians slowly, mumbled, I looked at Alex's face which looked very pale and it made me very sad

"This young lady is water, food, and medicine for Mr. Alan." Wan muttered putting a tray on the table

"Yes thanks.." I murmured slowly

"Can I help young lady?" muttered Fians looking at me seriously

"Nothing, you guys just rest let Alan do what I do" I muttered softly

"Okay young lady" the four muttered and closed the door of the room

I undressed Alan slowly, with a chest field and a belly box - a box clearly visible in front of me. I changed Alan's clothes and re-buttoned his shirt, I held his chest and it turned out that his heart was still beating even slowly. I gently rubbed her soft cheek and continued to look at that Alan in the face, I didn't realize that I had made Alan suffer all this time even until he had never slept and I had also interrupted his night's sleep with my selfishness

"Sani's... Sani don't stay in me Sani." muttered Alan softly.

"I didn't leave you, baby." I sighed softly, I held Alan's forehead which was feeling very hot

"Hmmm you're delirious when it's hot" I muttered taking a bucket of warm water and patting Alan on the forehead with a warm towel

"Sani's... Sani... I'm overheating Sani... Where are you?" alan's murmured with tears

"Hmmm.." I sighed slowly

"Excuse me young lady, this is a special fever medicine for young master" muttered Fians giving me some capsule medicine

"Special fever medicine?"

"Yes young lady, if the young master had not been given this medicine he would have been delirious for days and the fever would not have come down"

"Why is it like that?" ask me confused

"The physicality of Mr. Alan is very weak, in fact he is not allowed to stay up especially for months but Mr. Alan does not listen to my words or the doctor but still Mr. Alan is staying up late"

"Ohh well thank you Fians, don't worry I'll take care of Alan" I muttered smiling

"eeee.. Mmm well young miss" muttered Fians with her flushed face away from my room

"Sani's... Sani come here, see if I find a good weapon for you. Maybe this needle fits you perfectly." Alan muttered in delirium.

"Hmmm Alan are you still unconscious?" I tried to wake Alan up but Alan was delirious

"Sani's... Sani... You are so beautiful like a cherry blossom, I won't let anyone take it from me!!!" alan muttered loudly

"Hmmm yeah baby, I just for you anyway" I whispered slowly

"Selvin ... Sani... Do you want to marry me? I really want to marry you!!!" muttered Alan deliriously put

"Yes Alan, I'll be your wife anyway, which is clear you have to take medicine now huh.."my murmurs put medicine and water in my mouth and I immediately kissed Alan so that the medicine could go straight into his body

"Sani's... What did you give me just now? Why is it bitter?" alan muttered deliriously with a funny facial expression and seeing it made me want to laugh

"You if delirious can be as funny as that Alan.." I sighed next to Alan.

"Sani's... I'm weary... Don't leave me... Accompany me.." sighed Alan quietly

"Hmm yeah baby, I won't leave you.." I muttered tightly to Alan as I continued wiping Alan's half-dry hair.

"I'm sorry Alan, I'm sorry for always bothering you, I'm sorry for not being the best life partner for you. I'm sorry for always desperate Alan. Take it easy Alan, I promise I'll take care of you I'll love you I'll change for you my husband.." I kissed Alan's cheek and hugged him tightly

I closed my eyes and fell asleep with Alan, the pain in my neck I didn't feel anymore. Now I realize that this pain is nothing compared to the pain of knowing that my two sisters were hurt and the pain of seeing you who was there for me while I've always troubled you even since we were kids - child...Alan...