THE MENTARY FOR THE ESTUARY

CHAPTER 26, BEST CHOICE

“Not all that love needs to be expressed. Sometimes, there is a sense of love that only needs to be conveyed through do’a, along with the wind and water flow that always, all the time.” (Abhis).

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“Kuat very njenengan iku, mas,” comments Ganesh, shortly after they arrived in Malang. Throughout the journey on the plane, which became the discussion material they both just that; whether the feeling of admiration, like, or the like, should be expressed or not?

“Ganesh, you think this way because you are still a teenager. If you were my age, you would think it was different again.” replied Abhi while waiting for the flight attendant to help her get off. This time, they're just two, and both are visually impaired. There were some obstacles at the airport and in the plane, but thank God, everything can be passed well.

“But his name is love, does it sometimes defeat logic? Because of love, people can be crazy suddenly,” comments Ganesh again. Abhi just laughed, then patted the shoulder of the high school boy.

“We continue at your boarding house only later, now, let's take the baggage first..” said Abhi. Ganesh. The two visually impaired men walked together to the baggage counter.

***

“Iya mbak, I've been at this hostel, just recently. After the bath continues to order food, there is Mas Abhi here.”.

“No, he nginep a day doang kanya, tomorrow picked up by the team from his EO, make us transfer to the hotel..”.

“Iya mbak, mbak well yes, later if you want to go home to Malang say I. Okay sip..” Ganesh ended his conversation with his older brother on the phone. And along with that, Abhi had just walked into her room, having already received the phone call as well.

“New call Riana,” guess.

“Seratus, price. Really do... But BTW, why know?” ask Abhi.

“Just a Riana Mentari who can make your voice sound cheerful and full of energy when talking... Amazing date yes he..”

“Lah, that is also what I hold and I feel that Mas Abhi is again chatting with Mbak Riri..” commented Ganesh. Abhi grimacing.

“Kok turned it to me again anyway? Don't be dong!” he pretended to be annoyed.

“Ya out mas it is strange, already know like, already know dear, instead of talking even diem-diem so..” protest Ganesh.

“And you know, Nesh..” said Abhi slowly.

“I know, mas, mas tuh like the same Mbak Riri, I still remember when mas said about it in Jogja.” said Ganesh fiery.

“Hhh..” Abhi sighed. He leaned his body against one side of the wall facing the closet, against Ganesh who chose to lean near the bed.

“The problem is not that, Nesh.” Said again.

“Keep what?” Ganesh still looked fiery. He was so anxious with Abhi that he thought he was moving too slowly. Should he force Abhi to this one thing? After all, she also agreed that her brother went along with Abhi.

“Dek, not everything we feel we have to express, there are some feelings that are better to be harbored, for the common good.” said Abhi slowly.

“Iya anyway for the common good, but if the sick only we ourselves like gini, how?” ask Ganesh again.

“You mean?” Abhi asked back.

“Aduuuh, hard to say the same mas-mas this one. Yes already, I did not tell you anything about my experience later, but we order food first yes, I laper,” said Ganesh while taking his phone, preparing to go to the online ojek application.

“Lereno kono, I did not wait for brother ojol first.” said Ganesh while out of the room. Today, he is alone in the boarding house, Vishnu again to Sidoarjo, to his brother's house, attending the wedding. So right, he can sleep without having to empet-empetan threes (for information, Vishnu is the shape end it, bullet), so surely the mattress is full if there is him.

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“Oh, so it is, Nesh? Complicated is also your love story..” said Abhi while bribing the fried rice in front of her, with Ganesh who gasped for the wrong level.

“Iya mas, yes now already understand right, why do I really miss maksa mas reveal everything to Mbak Riri? I want mas fight for his love mas, just like I fight for Mbak Hani first.” said Ganesh. Abhi stopped her fried rice mouthful, then grabbed the sweet iced tea glass that was right next to her, then gulped it down.

“Not so easy that's the problem, Nesh... When it comes to Riana, I know maybe she can take me, but what about your parents, how are you? Okay maybe I'm a coward here, because I don't want to try to fight first. But Nesh, as long as you know, I was also once in this position, the same girl, already pretty, very dear, but hindered by the blessing of her parents, too, I was humiliated at the girl's birthday party, how dear it was, how did not have my face after that, even no ability at all from me to meet the girl, and I chose to go and forget everything.” Abhi said at length. Ganesh gawking. The automatic stop also stopped. He remembered a program that dealt with such stories; the unreserved love story, and or other stories, and, on a streaming radio (if curious what the name of the radio is and what the name of the broadcaster, comments or inboxes yes, later the author whisikin).

“Casak the hell mas, up to the whole?” tanyanya slow.

“Yeee, seriously, it happened a year ago... Eh no, this September just fit a year.” Answer Abhi.

“Yeah, means new counted dong, mas?” Ganesh surprise.

“Yes, that's why, I've been able to curse the situation, to curse myself especially, why should I fall in love again, when I still feel pain over it.” Abhi explained. Ganesh sighed. Yeah, it's hard this way, too. Had there never been that trauma, maybe Abhi could have been easier

Reveal everything. After all, she agreed that Abhi was dating her brother. Just really yes, papa they are complicated people, whose taste height. Cook yes Ganesh would like to bring Abhi to that painful situation again, what else is the position he is still traumatized...

“Yah's... It's hard to tell, too, then. I don't know if it turns out there is a heartbreaking story behind the decision and attitude of the mas who went back and forth like this.”.

“It was him, Nesh, until now I chose to remain silent, so that my feelings could fade by themselves. But if the intensity meets me with Riri continue, constantly, yes mbuh maneh.” Abhi sighed.

“Hadeeeh... I used to be the same as Mbak Hani tuh, in fact yes mas, when I revealed it to Mbak Hani, his position he had a girlfriend you know.”.

“What?” Abhi surprised. This from earlier eating them not kelar-kelar you know BTW, gegara interspersed with vent events.

“Serious, but their relationship has been on the verge of being destroyed so, indeed his own Ma'am Hani ya vent to me, if his toxic girlfriend really that, it's been almost a year, already, he wants to break up but mentally continue, and enter me into his circle of friendship, and automatically, also enter me into his life.” said Ganesh again.

“So you accidentally broke them up, Nesh?”

“Enggaaak, we made it after Mbak Hani broke up long ago from his girlfriend. But, Ma'am Hani is a good woman anyway mas, I think, a stupid guy who wasted him from a long time ago. I feel lucky because I can get her heart. But there's still something stuck..”.

“Apaan?” Abhi curious.

“My competition is a lot, his campus, his other guy friends, until dizzy I mas, insecure itself will be.”.

“That's just because you are still a teenager, Nesh, still too think what is the name jealous, if Hani is your soul mate, he will not go anywhere.” said Ganesh sage.

“Aamiin, mas, hopefully we are a match. Uh, sek ya, he called tuh.” said Ganesh while hastily took his phone. Abhi sighed half irritated. If this is the case, the address until the night he was left with the Ganesh, left dating, again, it is very severe. Yes already, mending him on a laptop, all nyiapin material presentation he day after tomorrow. Tomorrow morning, he will be picked up by EO, taken to the hotel where the event is held. And rather than him sprain himself ngedengerin conversation messraanya Ganesh same Hani by phone, mending he pairs a headset, listen to a song, keep internetan while reading the material. No papa, let singles, the important thing is not to languish.

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Time has shown at one in the morning. Abhi turns off his laptop, puts it back in his backpack. No voices have been heard, which means Ganesh is also asleep. Abhi sighed, again. How is this the fate of her love? Why should he fall in love again, even when his heart has not completely healed? Ah, nevermind. Hopefully the decision not to reveal it is the best option for him. At least, for now.

(BBC).