THE MENTARY FOR THE ESTUARY

CHAPTER 24, ON HOW TO APPRECIATE LIFE

“A beautiful 20-year-old model named Elsa Pramudita, killed in a single accident on the highway.” Riana almost threw her teacup on the floor, as soon as the news of the infotainment on television gave news that she did not expect at all. His legs were limp, as if his bones were broken one by one, so it was not strong to support his body.

“Ri... Lo why?” milia asked frantically as she left her laundry, hurriedly approached the squatting Riana with a look of shock, holding tightly onto the teacup in hand, and staring blankly at the TV screen.

“Ri... Lo why? You're all right, right?” ask Milia worried.

“Gu-Gue is not wrong, right?” tanyanya slow.

“What's the matter?” but without the need for Milia to ask again, the answer had come alone, from Maura who ran down the stairs while crying hysterically.

“Ya... You're not kidding, are you, bang? Seriously Elsa has nothing?”

“Eh, innalillah... That's Elsa that Riana mentioned yesterday right?” ask Milia. But no one was huffing, all were shocked at the sudden news.

*** Riana looked straight at the chaotic-looking man in front of her. With tears\, he sat down near the tomb whose soil was still wet. He beat himself\, feeling very guilty.

“I'm evil... I'm killer... I'm depraved, I'm a jerk, I should be the one to die.”.

“Rey-Rey..” call Riana.

“I'm evil... I'm killer... I'm killer... Me...”

“REY FARIS SAPUTRA!” Riana had to yell at the man, so that he stopped his racket. Rey turned her head, and her regret grew, as soon as she saw her ex-lover standing there, even as trying to comfort and strengthen her.

“R-Ri..” for the second time he cheated in front of this girl, for the second time he felt unable to do anything, even after his rude treatment in Bali the other day, he said, now Riana comes again, and stays nice to him.

“Come home, already this afternoon.” take Riana.

“I still want to be here, Ri... I feel guilty.”.

“Don't keep wailing so, pity Elsa, let her calm down huh. If you can not be happyin him in the world, please, happyin him in the afterlife by making his way easier,” said Riana softly. Rey bowed. He was really confused half-dead, actually, what was this girl's heart made of? Why is he still so good to her, even though she has carved such a deep wound in her heart?

“You better be Ri who comes home, this is already going to rain, I am a boy, can take care of yourself. You are a girl, not good magrib-magrib is still outside, in the tomb anyway.” said Rey.

“You really don't papa if I stay?” riana asked unsure.

“Trust me, I will fine..” said Rey slowly. Riana nodded, unable to force Rey to go home with her. Maybe Rey's condition was also so hard hit, and he needed more time to calm himself down. Better, now Riana came home, to calm the hearts of her friends who might also be worried about her now.

***

“Thank you, mbak, I said..” a woman's voice sounded suddenly behind her, making Riana suddenly stop her motorbike. From the rearview mirror, he saw a female shadow that was so clear, and the shadow was – for whatever sake, the shadow formed a similar form of Elsa.

“Quiet, Insya ALLAH I went the right way, kok, you know, my plan is to go to Bandung to see papa? So, please do’ain me yes.” said Elsa again, as if understanding the contents of Riana's head who was guessing the cause of death. This once, Riana who was confused, he was unable to say anything. But his head nodded, confirming Elsa's request.

***

“Ri, I am so sorry yes..” said Abhi, shortly after Riana met him in the guest room of the boarding house. There's Dyo and the gank there, too.

“Still, Bhi. BTW come from what time are you?” riana asked while leaning her tired body on the sofa.

“Fifth hour, this turns out to be the same with your band members, they used to want to make jamming, he said, but who said? You do not exist, anymore takziah at the same time follow makamin who is it.” explained Abhi.

“Iya really, my friend single accident on the highway, died on the spot. Where else to get pregnant.”.

“Hah? Innalillahi!” abhi was surprised.

“Iya, pity yes..” timpal Dyo.

“Makanya, really sorry guys, like tonight we can not jamming deh,” said Riana.

“Yes, no papa, Ri. We also want to go home this evening, ” said Satria while rising from his seat.

“Iya deh, Sat, later we set the schedule again yes. BTW, can neither of you be with Abhi to go home? Kasian if she has to stand out at night like this.” said Riana.

“Lho no need Ri, no papa, I also have an appointment to meet a friend, later the most requested please Dyo sebrangin until the front.” said Abhi.

“Lho, have you met tho?” ask Riana.

“Abhi used to be an additional player I fit still often nge-jamm in Rainbow Lounge And Resto, Ri..” said Rasya.

“Oh, it's good if that's the case, so during my wait there was no awkward right?”

“Ngak Mbak Ri, we chat very familiar even... Yes already, we all say yes, mbak rest, do not forget.” said Dyo while kissing the reverence of Riana's hand.

“Iya Dyo, yes. Yes already, as bengi iki ngko..” said Riana. Everybody nodded. Finally one by one they beg themselves, leave home.

***

Room, again. Riana stared at the ceiling of her room. These three days, the day had perfectly changed. Many people who come and go according to time and provisions, bring a variety of lessons, so that he increasingly has an understanding of the meaning of life, as well as the reasons why he is present in this world.

And speaking of the meaning of life... Riana got up from her sleeping position, picking up the phone located on the nightstand. On a whim, he turned on the flashlight on his phone, then he lifted his left arm. And there were those terrible strokes; which were one of the evidences of his tyranny to himself, one of the most obvious proofs that he had, so far, had little regard for his life.

“Astaghfirullah!” again, in different occasions and times, the girl recited the earnest istighfar born from her heart. It was fortunate and relieved when he managed to avoid Elsa from as bad as the way of death of mankind; the way that the universe hated and its creator; suicide. O ALLAH! What if (amit-amit), ALLAH took his life while he was wronging himself? Athaghfirullah! Lafaz Istighfar was flowing repeatedly, along with Riana's body that shook violently because of it. Indeed, the whole series of events today is the best lesson for him; the lesson of how to interpret life.

(BBC).