The Love that is Torn
CHAPTER 7 anxiety
Meanwhile, somewhere else
After Love makes sure Zahra is asleep
Love left Zahra's room, and Cinta entered her room and closed the door slowly, Love sprawled her body on the bed she flipped her body looking for the most comfortable position for her so she could close her eyes
but nihil just his mind grew increasingly confused
"Ah..Love draws its breath I need fresh air to clear my mind in Love .
Love is moving towards the front yard
"Non Love" , Mang Udin gasped at the presence of his Mistress .
Love was without hesitation sitting next to Mang Udin ..
Tumben Non Love this hour hasn't slept yet ? said Mang Udin
"Not yet able to sleep Mang , Not yet sleepy,
His eyes were blank as if there was no life there.
Why aren't you sleeping, too ? ask Love
"Sama Non is not sleepy yet, replied Mang Udin.
"Did Mang Udin miss the family in the village" ?
"if in say miss mah Non, it must be Mamang tea longs.
mamang's wife ..has died ..",
clearly mang Udin with his sad tone.
heh..Love breathes his breath
" Mang Udin was lucky to be separated from God by death not because of divorce, if separated from death maybe we are not so sick because there is no eternal man it is only a matter of time Mang .
but if because of divorce what else because of infidelity will hurt very much Mang Udin, said Love softly.
" I'm sorry Non, if Mang Udin sassy Non again there is a problem" ?
Mang Udin dared to ask
Love only smiles without any intention of answering
Confused love must answer what even his heart is currently still unable to believe fully ,
her teary eyes were already unable to stem her grief
before her tears spilled, Love chose to enter and end her conversation with Mang Udin
Love does not want Mang Udin to know the problems he is facing
Mang Udin I'm sorry to go to room , saying Love, Mang Udin do not like to stay up later sick go to bed
given the age of the Udin mang which is already quite dusk
Yes Non if you are sleepy later mang Udin enter
replied Mang Udin who seemed to be able to read what problems befall his employer.
Kasian Non Cinta late this Mr. Danar rarely come home, hopefully their family is not okay.
Please mang Udin in his heart
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Love returned to the room and tried to close her eyes, but it was hard to keep her closed
"Why Mas Danar didn't call me either "
Inner love, while his hands take the mobile phone that is placed on the corner table of his bed.
"It's been this late but he hasn't come back yet
remembering to tell me no".
love looks for a contact that says my husband's name and presses the green button there
Tut's...Tut's..Tut..no answer there
Love pushed the green button again
Tut's..Tut's...Tut.this time it was rijeck by the owner.
Love throws that flat object on the bed
damn you mas..
Love walked towards the window, open wide - wide window of his room
Love closed both her eyes and breathed deeply into the fresh air that was pounding her body .
Mas Danar right now must be with Hani, muttering softly in his heart
oh ..God give me strength, I don't want my little family to fall apart.
What should I do now
She's pregnant, she's also going to have a child like me, what about her future child if she lives without a father .
I really don't know what to make decisions, but I can't if I have to keep going
Love sat down while leaning her body against the wall of her room, she cried so much that she hoped the burden on her heart would decrease.
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the next morning like the usual days Love doing his activities
preparing the needs of her little daughter to school
" Did papa not come home again ?
ask Zahra on Love ,
Love looks at her with its own eyes
She fondly stroked Zahra's hair on her lips to smile. " Papa was busy "Talking Love briefly as if he did not want Zahra to ask further
Let's run out of breakfast, but Udin is waiting outside
Zahra immediately devoured the bread and milk in her glass until it was gone.
after the car driven by Mang Udin disappeared from view,
Zahra would rush in and continue her activities, but the sound of a car stopped her, which was about to close the door of her house
Mas Danar his inner..
Danar got out of the car and approached his wife
"I'm sorry ,.... "Busy.." cut Love.
which makes Danar stay silent for a moment
How busy are you until you forget your son, wife
ask Love to Danar who is still pegging
His eyes accidentally caught a clear red mark on Danar's white neck
deg.heart Love feels like to get out of place , his feelings are mixed up , "Hope he's been making love all night" , it's worth my call to turn off , now between , angry , hate , love, love, and jealous..
become one and settle down in the bottom of his heart
because once again Love cannot express its feelings
Danar just passed in leaving Love without caring for Love who is still waiting for an answer from him.
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arriving in Danar's room sat pensively on the bed "what time it is now to be honest with Love said Danar in his heart as if I could not cover up the lie with a lie anymore
I have to take risks from my actions
I can't keep going like this .I can go crazy, inner Danar.
I was like a ship floating in the vast sea between two docks that I had to choose one where I could lean.
on the other hand there is Hani woman who this year fills my day, my day,
I'm like young back when I'm with him
which is indeed our age that is adrift some distance Hani who is still twenty-two years old while I who have passed the head of three
on the other hand there is the love of my wife, a patient and motherly woman who makes me unable to long - long looking into her eyes because of the guilt that torments me these days
actually, I can't choose any of them,
if I could I would like to have it both . Well I fell in love with two women who are of different natures but have their own individual attractiveness.
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