The Love of Habib

Chapters 15.6

Gisel decided to go out on his own. When he came out he deliberately brought the food that was purchased last afternoon in the cafeteria. There are still a few packages of food that are quite eaten until tomorrow. Losing money last night, Gisel learns not to just take his money off in the closet. To secure the money from being lost again, Gisel keeps it in his underwear - oh, don't think anything weird. Gisel underwear has a pocket that can be opened close to store personal items while traveling. It was fortunate that Gisel remembered to take her while being chased out to the boarding school. If not, then tonight he would be confused about where to hide the money.

"But because of Aish, the culprit must not want to steal anymore. At least for this moment, this incident did not happen again." Gisel muttered with a small laugh at how panic the heist was now.

Shrugging his shoulders, he then walked out of the room with a black crackle bag in his hand. While leaving, several door supervisors greeted him to join them to play cards. It was a pity that Gisel refused their invitation.

"Um, hostels are very crowded. Sunday night at the boarding house is not really as bad as it is in the city." Looking here and there, santriwati are everywhere.

Some read books in the park by relying on the light of the lights, some are cool to chat - whether what they are talking about but certainly their facial expressions are diverse, diverse, and there is also the same with him that is enjoying a starry night on a stretch of grass.

Tonight the gates haven't been closed so the sisters can get out but can't get too far from the dormitory. If caught, the disciplinary officer of the girls' dormitory will record a reduction in points for people who violate the rules.

"Where are you going, brother?" A disciplinary officer of the princess dormitory who was standing guard at the gate greeted Gisel.

Gisel looked at the disciplinary officer of the princess dorm with an innocent and polite face without the arrogant behavior as before.

"I want to sit on the grass there, brother, to squirm the stars." Gisel did not hide his purpose.

The senior looked at Gisel strangely but gave no comment. After all, there is no harm in seeing the stars and precisely this activity is good enough to reflect on how the Power of Allah SWT when creating the sky and its contents.

"No, you can't go anywhere, Dad. If big brother leaves, we will note the points deduction for big brother. Oh yes, big brother is also not allowed to linger outside. Before 10 p.m., you have to come back here if you don't want to be covered by the gate." Obviously the senior told Gisel some rules that should not be skipped and broken.

Aish nodded politely to understand. After noting his name in the notebook, Gisel then continued his steps to the green grass in front of the dormitory. Who came there is not only himself because once there, Gisel met many santriwati who came in groups. Some of the group coolly chatted while lying on the grass and others, Gisel did not pay much attention to it. Because the people were too crowded, he changed his plans and walked a bit further to the side looking for a quiet enough place to spend a Sunday night.

"Well, here's better."

Then he sat down on the grass along with a black crackle bag in his hand.

Gisel raised his head upwards, looking at the expanse of distant starry sky there. Warm, there was a gentle touch that began to crawl his heart. Strange, his heart felt a very sweet longing in his heart. Not missing his family or his dead parents, this feeling was far from this. This feeling was like a gentle touch that did not make his heart uncomfortable, on the contrary, he felt a longing that was very longing and unable to be expressed in words.

"O Allah, is this what is meant by the favor of faith?" Ask wishes.

"But I'm dirty, still worth it?" Sissy whisper.

Can he still complain to the Most Merciful for all the pain he has felt so far?

Is...

"Does God still want to hear me?" His whisper wondered with a faint smile at the corner of his lips.

There was clearly a trace of doubt within his own eyes.

He's a filthy, dirty creature. To his embarrassment, Gisel feels that he has another step in his afterlife.

In his grief, suddenly a heavy voice answered all the doubts and confusion in one breath.

"قُلْ يٰعِبَا دِيَ الَّذِيْنَ اَسْرَفُوْا عَلٰۤى اَنْفُسِهِمْ لَا تَقْنَطُوْا مِنْ رَّحْمَةِ اللّٰهِ ۗ اِنَّ اللّٰهَ يَغْفِرُ الذُّنُوْبَ جَمِيْعًا ۗ اِنَّهٗ هُوَ الْغَفُوْرُ الرَّحِيْمُ"

(QS. Az-Zumar 39: Verse 53)

"The Qur'an, the letter of Az-Zumar 53 can be one of the lights in the midst of the uttermost for those who feel trapped in the despair of sin. Allah SWT specifically said in the verse: 'Say : O My servants who have set limits on themselves, do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Allah forgives all sins. Verily He is the Most Forgiving, Most Merciful.”

A tall man suddenly stood up from the bushes in front of Gisel.

Gisel's scared. If he had not previously heard this man's voice recite the holy verse of God, then he would have thought that this man was not a man. But wait a minute? Since when is this guy here?

If all this time he's always been sitting here eyes are over already. This person must have been listening to her words all along!

The tall man walked away from the bushes and stood several meters away from Gisel with his face raised against the expanse of sky above.

"From Anas bin Malik radhiyallahu 'anhu he said: 'I heard the Prophet shallallahu 'alaihi wa sallam skipped: “Allah said: ”Wahai Bani Adam, verily, if you pray and hope to My–, I will forgive you all the sins that have been committed against him, and I do not care. O son of Adam, if your sins were as high as the sky, then you would ask forgiveness from My–, I would forgive you and I would not care. O son of Adam had you faced My– with all-earth sin and then you met My– in a state of not associating Me with anything, surely I would have come to you with full-earth forgiveness anyway.” (CHR. Tirmidhi).

In the shock of Gisel who was still not receding, the tall man opened his mouth again to speak. Saying some serious words that Gisel usually hears during a mosque study. This man was a very intelligent person and had a deep religious outlook, that was the impression Gisel had tonight.