The Journey of Dreamers

Should I ?

This semester went by so fast. I didn't think a year had passed since I met Jay-yum. My daily life as usual. Nothing too special. It's just that in this semester, I studied more than last semester. Not without reason, this is my last semester.

The semester has passed. Meaning? Huhum you guys know, right ? This means reporting. Again, again,

Again I hope very much. Help u! Value please work together.

"Dad !" Call me.

"Vii."

"How's it?"

" That's it, just at home yeah."

" no. Tell it here. I don't want to put it off anymore."

"What's coming down again ?"

"Vii."

"If you look like it's not." My question vibrates.

" Give me my Rapport Daddy !"

Dad gave me my Rapport. Iopenit. Hah, I don't know what to say right now. Stupidly I still believe that everything will be okay. Look, the value went up a little bit. But the effort to get it is very different. What is this ?

It is as hard as getting good results.

Akhh, the number !

Numbers are like oxygen now. I have to get it. I have to get it.

The tear dam overflowed. The tears that fall cannot be stopped.

"The headmaster said you had one more chance. Next semester. If next semester your grades aren't any higher. You-"

"At the drop of the scholarship isn't it ?"

"Why not now ?" I am crying tears.

"The headmaster said you were a smart kid. It's just that your grades are so hard to climb. You were given one chance. But, your scholarship is only half."

"I mean ?"

"Dad to pay half of it ?"

" It's the same as paying in full if in a regular school. So it's okay Vi."

" Then what if the next semester stays like this dad ?"

"If fully removed. I have to pay it completely. Better move me to a regular school before it's too late. Waiting for next semester will be complicated. Moving in the next semester will only interfere with the final exam later."

" Are you sure ?"

" I don't want to burden you with the cost of Junior High School Z."

"There's still another school dad !"

" Vii !"

"Dad go home first. I'll be home in a minute. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I promise."

" Daddy understands." Dad walked to the school gate.

I want to see this school before I move. Me, me,

I'm very comfortable here. Why ?

Why does it have to be like this ?

Friends of friends I will miss you !

I ran to the back of the school. Back of school is a rare place. At least I can cry there.

Sick !

It hurts so much !

My chest feels tight. Why does it have to be like this ?!

Can't I get a good result. When ?!

When will the delayed reward I get ?!

I lied to myself by saying don't worry ! Everything's gonna be okay. You'll get what you deserve next semester! That's what I told myself a year ago. But last semester ?

Did I get it ?

Nah! Again I lied to myself. I hope there is a change.

But look now !

Did I get it?

One more chance, he said !

What if that opportunity fails again !

"Vii ?!" Jay-yum.

I raise my head. My eyes must be very red by now.

" You guys?!" I said I saw Jay-yum coming with Aiden.

" Vii, I know everything."

"Vii, don't give up please !"

" Yum, goodbye ! Maybe next school year I won't be here anymore."

"What did you say Vi !" Shouted Jay-yum annoyed.

" I'm moving on."

" It's not Yum's bullshit."

" VII!" Jay-yum hugged me.

" I've failed Yum. It's time for me to go." My tears.

" Don't !" Aiden's approaching.

"Non't now."

"Why ?"

" You still have a semester, don't you ?"

" What for ?"

"Fear again ! What if I fail again ! My father won't be able to pay for everything."

" You can do it !"

"That word !"

"Huhum, you guys think why have I survived all this time !"

" I lied to myself with that word !"

"Vira !"

" This time is different."

"What's different ?"

" I'll help you."

"Help what huh ?"

"There's nothing you can help now."

"Hold on."

" Stop Ai !"

"He's too stubborn to listen to you."

" Haru ?!"

" Wake up !" He threw his jacket at me.

" You want to go home with this look ?"

" I don't want to go home yet !"

" WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO YELL AT ME HAH !" Haru shouted at me.

" Haru ?!" Aiden held Haru who was like he wanted to hit.

" WHO ?! WHO ARE YOU ?!"

"SAY ?!" Haru shouted out in anger.

" What's your name ?!"

"What do you want ?"

"Tell me what's your name ?!"

"What do you mean Haru?!"

"I don't know you so tell me what your name is." He said it's quieter now.

" We were in class for a year so you must have known my name was Vi. Nadia Vira - Qanita."

" Not !"

"You're not the Vi we know !"

"The Vi we know won't budge with the circumstances !"

"The one we know won't stop before trying."

"What do you know about me ?!"

"Who gave you the right to cut my words ?!" Her words pulled my collar.

"DARU ?!" Jay-yum. And Aiden pulled him.

"You're not Ninda or Vira who I'm allowing to yell at or cut my words!"

"Vira ?!"

"Well, Vira. Son somehow I can't control it even though I've been trying for over a year."

"Say! Tell me who you dare to yell at and cut my words off !"

"Because you're not Vira." He took off my collar.

" You're not a very hard Vira to control."

"You're not the Vira who likes to dream high."

"You're not Vira who wants to make her dreams come true."

"You're not the Vira who's gonna try to get to the last point."

"If it was Vira I knew. Wake up !"

" There's a degree you have to lift !"

I'm pensive. Do I have to give up now ? After 2 years of trying. Do I have to give up now ?