the illusion of love?
Wiratsama
"Ze how have you been given the expression of love not yet from the lo prince?" Eitin's death began to act.
I didn't answer it and still persevere with what I'm doing right now. Arriving - TET. Eitin shut down my computer.
"Ih Etin what the hell is lo! I still have to see the data." "Lo answer my question first." His eyes were serious. But seeing her eyes and lips made me not get angry and laugh.
"Belom, yesterday I just met Client doang in Bandung" I said flat and turned on my computer again.
"What do you suspect?! almost a year you know. But he never expressed his feelings to Elo. Boro - boro knew you to his parents." That sentence was no stranger to me. Eitin said that a hundred times.
"That's just as rich what do you walk with Vino donk?." I pinched his hand, Eitin's voice could be the center of attention of another, if Vino was aware of his chatter. Could - could he fly to the sky seven.
"Tin's different they're not the same, am I the rasin."
"Or don't - don't he have a wife in Ze's village, can it be made? yes the proof is just the morning - the morning you call, you know - know already in Bogor when the schedule is already the same patent elo, every time you ask for an explanation, he always diverts the chat, he always, keep asking you to play at his house. He is not ready either he said. Try thinking with your brain. Don't use the heart." Eitin's talk sometimes has a point as well. But I promised myself I wouldn't bother with that. If you think about it it feels like my sweet potato almost exploded. I purposely thrust my used chocolate last night to him, so as not to say much. "Make it lo." "Ko ex-si?" said protest.
"Lo likes old stuff too, right? that's Hendrik's used stuff, too. You want to!"
"With Ze, my own ex is clear I want." he replied would not lose.
"New part in one cubic cuil, if I don't want yauda I love aunty rempong." immediately he snatched it from my hand. "Don't be here, if it's already in love, don't take any more sins hehe".
Fortunately, he was silent according to my prediction. Damn hearing Eitin's words made me think again, about Faraz's relationship with the people out there.
**
"Ze yesterday the hero came here?" Ask Arni. "Yes" I who seriously read Novel turned to look at them, whatever free novel I read in front of them. It won't go into my otaku's digestion, so I'll throw it and put it on the dresser. "How did it go?" Ida's voice suddenly docked towards me, the same as Arni he was also my boarding friend. We spent together from the beginning to settle in this city. I am proud to have them. Each has its own unique.
In romance Arni is less fortunate, because the man close to her always gets unlucky. "Why yes Ze every time I deket a guy, must have been unlucky yesterday Angga his wallet was gone, continued ka Fiyan when he picked up to campus his helmet was floating in the parking lot, new helmet again, new helmet again, worst hit by Riski's car his office facilities hit an electric pole in Bogor."
"Maybe it's bad again." My answer.
"Life-lifetime single heart Ar!," said Ida "Sue ! don't be amit – amit."
A super picky jomblowati. "But the way it goes is so Ze." "But fat Da." "But Ze's club." "But non-Muslims are." He had what privileges, until he took over the duty of God. Compared to humans. Hadewh. Strangely almost every kindness a man – men always he received. Exactly with Ida.
Ida is not so flat - choose. No taste and resignation. Monotonous about his life. He went to college because of my encouragement. Being a permanent employee is good, but what's wrong with changing professions other than being a security.
"Will you keep working 12 hours? Your face is appropriate at the front office or so HRD that looks, fierce, judges, funny but turns out to be kind." I said. A year later he enrolled in one of the private universities in Jakarta.
Man problems he's always lucky. Go home with luxury items at all times. "Da yesterday Michael kors same myriad of clothes. What else is this?" "Hehe charles and Keith's latest collection." Me and Arni gaping. Not his branded problem. But Ida walks with a suitable man so omnya. His age is almost 45 years compared to the reverse with Ida's age of 23 years. A person's money and royalty are enough he said. Though with a beautiful face and an ideal body, he can get men anywhere.
We are a triple Jomblowati. Except I'm still floating. A year on the road with a guy who has never said I love you leaves me confused which category.
"Gue was curious, Wira is rich what is Ze?." Ida glazed her pillow over the neck. "Emmm.he is not handsome, a lot of debt, rash and temperamental." Not a few seconds, Ida's face was attacked by a snack from Arni's mouth. "Sory Da, sory." Ida put her face flat. Arni flutter picked up some tissue sheets nearby. And clean Ida's face.
"Lo may be surprised, but one thing makes him different. He always be himself. Yeah, at least that's what got us going."
"That's enough Ze, huh,? Arni.
"That's why I broke up."
"What mutusin in marriage" said Ida who managed to lock my lips. Ida is not wrong. I was indeed in the marriage residence, precisely he disappeared suddenly – arrived and sent me a text permission to marry. How's it feel? Don't ask again. You know it feels right again dear – unfortunately arrived – arrived at stay just like that, without any definite reason?.
We used to have LDR for 3 months, because of work deadlines that require going out of town. All good – fine until I return to Jakarta, I was introduced to his extended family. They welcomed me with open arms. Her mother and sister are very familiar with me. Before that meeting I was used to communicating with them over the phone. Up to a year in Jakarta I did not feel any peculiarities.
All gone by arrived – arrived, Wira lost without news a month. I've been trying to find her home. But there's no. His mother also did not know of his whereabouts. At work, there is also no. Friends – friends said Wira resaign 5 months ago.
I give up and surrender, in every prostration I pray. "If he is my soul mate then give him back, but if he is not my soul mate then drop me as fall."
God heard my prayer one month later when the woman gave me news, she asked permission to marry. Not long ago my friend sent a photo of the invitation through BBM "I think the marriage is the same as you Ze," he said.
The armor I made as solid as I could for my heart, cracked it just like that, my second love diary book I threw into the closet. One time I realized that life is not just about love, there are still many things ahead that we can do. The sky is so vast then what is narrow-minded for?. To fill my void I continued the intention that had been delayed a long time ago. The college. At first Mama refused, she let me go to college in the village. But I insist on my stance.
The early semester was still heavy, sometimes the shadow still appeared in my mind, but the second semester I was in sports with – assignments, new friends and work affairs. I got used to it and it went well for 3 years. In the third year Wira appeared to ask for my help, at that time I thought it was okay because it did exist. So I loaned him some money, we made friends and I started to make friends with my past. Long – long ago Wira began to tell me about her household life, she complained.
"I can't stand Ze, he always humbles me."
"She's your wife, your job is to guide her. There is no straight rib of the hero, the husband is the wife's complement." A little advice I gave him.
"Do you know someone who can - I honestly grudge."
"Astagfirulloh hal'adzim, eling Wir. Why do you have God if you want to play shaman? Where's your faith!."
It seems like Wira is upset because of my answer, she no longer retaliates. Several times Wira asked me meet-ups, but I always refused, I don't know. To me being friends with the past would be better not to meet face to face. The longer the behavior of the hero the more delay. He said he was going to divorce his wife and want to come back to me. What kind of woman am I, as if she had gone and asked me back as she pleased. She looks like a vampire, who is not satisfied sucking my blood.. Especially now that there was a new figure that started to fill my heart. So I firmly refused and blocked his contact.
"Zee! Zea!." Ida's hand shook my shoulder.
"Ah yes."
"Ko ngalamun si,"
"No, Yaudah yes I want to go back to the room, sleep." Before Ida's bedroom door opened I turned my body. "Ar, don't forget tomorrow !"
"Ready commander!."
