THE HEART IS BROKEN

I'M SURE, MY DECISION

Psychology Course Educated Participants just finished. I was still sitting on my stool, reluctant to move on. Mager really felt, especially seeing the weather outside the classroom so hot. I prefer ngadem in this air-conditioned classroom.

"Woy..! Canteen yok! Hungry," cried Airin from the classroom door.

I'm unmoving. Airin came in to my seat.

"Why be lethargic..? Not hungry?" tannya

I remained mute, and laid my head on the campus table.

"Hellow.. I'm talking about humans, not corpses", Airin's cerocos is getting upset.

"Hmm.", I said.

"Why the hell? Galau? But it's singles"

I held my head up, and looked at Airin cynically.

"Ow. ow.. This view is what I don't like about you" he said, covering my face with a book.

"Rin, you know. I express my feelings for the Chronicle of the Musholla", I continued.

"HAAAHHHHHHHHAH... YOUUSS!!!! YOU SHOOT HIM", Airin's response half-screamed.

"You borrow this campus mosque, let one universe know, really excited" I said exasperatedly.

"Upss. sory. sory, so what's the answer" Airin's voice softened.

I told the whole story from the beginning to last night on Airin. He seems to be listening to my story. Without commenting anything. Airin is a good listener. He will comment when the interlocutor has completely finished telling the story.

"Hm.. If from your story, I'm sure Rama was shocked and misbehaved because you suddenly asked that", he explained

"How should I be?" my many.

"Where is it? Oh yes, from your story also seems like Rama is a tabligh worshiper, where maybe he also wants to date, and the relationship between the opposite sex must be maintained. Different from us who sometimes do not know the rules, hehehehe" continued Airin.

"Yes too, yes if you do not want to date, even marriage I am ready" I replied confidently.

"NIKAYA!!! at the age of who has not been the head of these two? you sure?" Airin was surprised by my answer.

"Wouldn't it be as beautiful as you imagine La, let alone at this immature age of ours, not just because of that momentary sense of you acting like this. I'm sure this is just your ambition. About the challenge at that time, I was just kidding", advises Airin

"It's not as beautiful as I imagined, but it's not as hard as you think Rin is. I'm sure, when Rama asked me to marry, I would have accepted it", I was swept away in my daydream.

"Yes, if that is your decision, but I believe this is only your momentary ambition, out of curiosity with him, you do not know him very well La", Airin said in disbelief.

"I don't know why I'm so sure of him, I'm sure he can guide me better. He's a man of Soleh. Rarely do I meet such a man" I replied

"You know only his outer skin, you know only what he looks like, his attitude, his disposition, you don't know La, the gentleman matter of Soleh or not, there are so many out there that are. It's just that because our environment is not such a person, so we do not find the Soleh so. Think again of your intentions, lest you regret it later," Airin advised me at length.

I just kept quiet without commenting. But my heart is sure. If only Rama had asked me to marry I was ready. Even though I'm only in semester 3. Married while studying is not prohibited by the campus.

***

This afternoon, I decided to go to a bookstore that I hadn't been to in weeks. Only guarded by employees who are also students at my campus, only he is still semester 1. You could say he's the one I trust to manage my finances and keep my shop for as long as I'm not around. Rendi. A graduate of a famous pesantren in Java. Quite religious, that's why I believe him.

"So, some stationery is already running out, the printer ink is also running out" said Rendi while submitting a sales report last two weeks.

"Oh yeah, you shop, I don't think I have time, a lot of college work" I replied.

"Okay sister, you're staying in the store today?" tanyakanya.

"No, it's crazy that I'm here with you" I said.

"Yes that's it. You see, I want to go, brother, if you stay in the store, I'm not back. Maybe after tomorrow back".

"Oh so, if you don't go back, papa, the store is closed. Lots of stuff is empty. Later if you come back, all shopping yes." I explained

"Okay, ready".

After a few shops, I went back to my mother's house. The day was dark. Around 10 o'clock, usually the road to the mother's house began to be quiet. But I didn't choose to gas my car. I chose to relax while enjoying the night. Sometimes I see some young women who are still wandering with their lovers. Throw each other smiles and jokes, even on the bike. My mind floated. If only it were me and Ramah.

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