THE HEART IS BROKEN

FROM ME, FOR OUR SAKE

I haven't been home for two days to my mom or dad. Disappointment towards father and papa is still not lost from my heart. I still did not expect that the two people I always proud of and made role models turned out to be people who incited disappointment in my heart. Tears keep dripping if I remember the talk of father and papa back then.

"La, never mind the negativity, think positively of your father and papa" Airin said as she gently stroked my sleeping back, with tears streaming down the roll.

"I can accept Rin, if they reject Rama from the beginning. But this.. Those who taught me not to look at possessions in association, not to put material together in life.. But now? They are also the ones who make property as a gap" I said in a sobs.

Airin can't answer anything, he can only rub my back. Because, Airin also realized how disappointed it felt. I've been staying two days in Airin's contract, I choose not to tell anyone. Only Airin knows where I am.

Airin's cell phone is ringing.

"Hallo.. Assalamualaikum", Airin answered the phone.

"Waalaikumsalam", said the owner of the vote at the end of there.

"Who is this", asked Airin because the caller's number is not stored in the phone's contact.

"This is Aira sak", said the owner of the vote.

Airin. Coded me that the one who called was my sister.

I'm unmoving.

"Hallo, brother Airin.. Is Arlanya over there, brother?" ask for a voice on the other end of the phone.

"Oh no deck, why?" airin's answer is lying.

"Ga there's nothing, brother, yes brother. Assalamualaikum" Aira turned off the phone.

Airin could only sigh and look at her best friend. I got up from sleep and wiped away the tears, as if I had just gotten an idea. I hurried to get a towel and take a shower. Airin only watched my movements wonder, but was reluctant to ask. Five minutes later I finished the shower.

"Rin, you get ready, make me meet Rama" said I who was preparing.

"Meeting Rama? Why?" ask Airin.

"Don't ask too many questions, get ready soon" I continued

Airin fell silent, and rushed to get ready, not knowing what plan was on my mind

****

Airin's white sedan drove fast down Sudirman Street, of course at my request, to Pondok Fattah catering. I want to see Rama. Fifteen minutes into the journey we finally arrived in front of Fattah catering, I hurried out of the car, regardless of Airin. Airin just kept quiet, and chose to wait for me in the car.

"Assalamualaikum, Mas", Sapaku to a young man sitting on the porch.

"Waalaikumsalam, can anyone help, Mba?" ask the young man friendly.

"Here is, Mom?" askaku.

"There is Mba, Mbanya want a catering message? It was full of Mba, because this week there is a job to fill the wedding event", explained the young man without being asked.

"No, I just want to meet Rama, can I call you?" my continue.

"Oh, well Mba, wait a minute", replied the youth and inside.

I sat on a couch, looking around. I played the end of the bag strap to release the groggy taste and put together the words that I would pass on to Rama. Five minutes later Rama came to see me.

"Assynolt, La. What was? Tumben's here?, hello Rama.

"Waalaikumsalam, yes. There's a need" I replied.

"Why? miss me, huh? hehehe", the god of Rama.

My face flushed hearing Rama's joke. Although there really is a taste of it, but I have to hide it.

"Idiih. your spiciness",

"hahahaha.joke, what's going on?" ask Rama again.

"Are you catering for your wedding?" continued Rama.

I grinned, "your wedding? I repeat Rama's phrase, "does that mean you?" I asked him. Then down.

Rama simply fell silent, and let out a long sigh. Then sit next to me.

I explained the purpose of my arrival just to ascertain whether Rama is willing with the submission submitted by my family.

Rama let out a long sigh, he was confused as to what to answer. On the one hand he must admit that he is unable to fulfill the request, but on the other hand he must fight because if not, then the girl before him at this time must be willing to let go.

"Do you really want me, Ma?" ask me directly with a racing heart.

Rama was silent, stared at by the face of the girl who was sitting in front of him.

"Jawab Ma, do you really want me to be your companion?" askaku.

Rama was still staring at the girl's face, now the girl's gaze began to sparkle, there was a flood of tears that he was holding there. It felt like Rama was holding the girl's head in his arms, so that he knew how great the taste he had for the girl.

"If it doesn't, I go Ma", I continued in a trembling voice.

"Yes. I really want to ask you, but with my limitations, I will try. But if I can't, I don't want to. You have to let go of La" answered Rama.

"After all, I'm sure this is how your parents rejected me, with all my limitations. Maybe all this is for your own good, La" continued Rama

Hearing Rama's reply, I turned my face. The tears that I had originally weathered with great difficulty, finally dripped. Those tears were dripping down his cheeks. Rama did not know what to do. He could only look at the girl who was in tears.

"La, I will do my best" said Rama softly.

I wipe my tears, "Ma, if you can't, because you're being chased by time, put on my savings. We split two. I'm sure it's enough" I said.

Rama just breathed. Because it's impossible to feel if he has to use Arla's savings. Where is his responsibility as a man.

I convinced Rama. "If you really want me, use my savings, Ma, this is from me, for the sake of our relationship. If you reject it, it means you don't really want me", This time my tears are dripping more than before, I don't know why my heart is so sure of the man sitting next to me. The hope I would hang on that man.

Rama remained silent. He just looked at my face looking at him with a hopeful look.

"This is my last question Ma, yes or no? if it doesn't mean you don't mean it to me. Because you know your limitations, that way I can completely forget you. And this is our last meeting" I said in a stifled voice

"Well La, I want to. But this is just a loan. One day I will return it, even though we were officially husband and wife. That's my promise" Rama finally gave up.

There was a happy smile on Arla's face. Rama was happy to see that his gloomy face had turned into a happy one.

I went home, all the way I was happy. A smile cannot be separated from her sweet face.

"La, what's wrong with you? It was a sweet morning, now a smile?", asked Airin.

"Why, Rin", I answered briefly.

"Oh yeah, what did Rama say? How much did Rama look at you?", continued Airin.

"By the future" I answered briefly.

"Hmmm.all right if you don't want a story",

I deliberately didn't want to tell anyone what I had done. Let God be enough, only me and Ramah know.

****

This weekend Rama and his family returned to visit my father's house, with the aim of delivering the shipment that was taught by my family. Dad and papa did not expect that Rama could provide a delivery with a large enough amount of it in less than the specified limit. The arrival of Rama and his family in addition to handing over the shipment, also as a determination of the date of their marriage. Next month Rama and I are getting married.

****

"Arla." call Dad.

"Yes, Dad, "my answer was brief with my eyes fixed on the television.

"Arla. try you here first", call mom.

Father, mother, father and mother were gathered in the living room. I'm sure this means I'm going to be tried by my four parents. Because they will not be able to gather at home if it is not related to children's problems. If only business affairs are usually only father and papa.

"Arla.. That ear is still worn ga", mother began to emotion.

I took a step towards my four parents.

"Hmm.", I replied and sat leaning on the sofa.

Alternately father, papa, mother, mama began to advise me about attitude, behavior and so on. As preparation for me when I become someone's wife. I listened to all the advice from my parents. I understand very well that my four parents took me off with a very heavy heart. They didn't fully approve of my marriage to Rama, especially my father and father. But in my heart, I am determined to prove that my chosen man is the best and that I will be happy with him.

I hope that.

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