The Heart-Bitter

Inner War And Love

Andri who does not know where to go after going through his romantic night with Citra, finally Andri's choice fell to spend the night in a mosque, the, after asking permission for the mosque's marbot to stay there on the grounds that he came from a faraway teemoat and was too late to come to his brother's house. The good-natured marsupials received it well and prepared a safe place for Andri and Andri immediately thanked him and immediately prayed.

Andri could not sleep thinking of the two women who were now filling her heart. The image has clearly given signs of having stayed waiting for Andri to express his love, but the seeds of his love for Julia are increasingly flowery again in recent weeks. From the beginning of his meeting with Julia he loved her so much, but his household trip after he married Julia all this time Andri felt it was difficult to get the love of Julia completely. The presence of his two children who adorn their relationship both add to his love and responsibility to continue to survive and try various ways to make Julia happy and get the heart of Julia. The presence of Citra has made its commitment falter

Andri remembered the past when he had to choose between pursuing his future after graduating High School as expected, working while in college to achieve the title of mechanical engineer whom he hoped for or save Julia who was already depressed at that time and would commit suicide because of conceiving a child due to her relationship with Thunder. When he decides to save Julia, it is of course a debate between him and his parents. His mother wept because her son had to bear the burden of others' lives at a very young age, but fortunately he had an extraordinarily wise father.

"You sure of your decision, Andri? Because you have to take responsibility for the rest of your life, Andri, not just until the child is born." His father looked hard at Andri.

"Do you really love her or do you just feel sorry? If you're just sorry I suggest you cancel your decision, that feeling of pity is very weak." His father asked back.

"I loved Julia long ago Dad!" Andri answered steadily.

"Did he love you Andri? Her mother asked in her sobs, Andri could not answer, she did not know how Julia felt towards her, even Julia had been drawing limits to Andri. It was only after he found out that it was pregnant Andri who Julia was looking for as a friend to devote all her problems and Andri was sure it was not because of love but because only Andri who knew Julia's secret.

"That's not important Mom, a woman's love can come and grow later if Andri really loves her, the important thing is that Andri wants to take responsibility and fight for her life and Julia's life. You didn't love me yourself, did you? But look now you don't even want to be away from me." Andri's father teased his wife, his wife smiling and laughing on the sidelines.

"Ah Mas! You still doubt my love after I gave you three wonderful children?" this time his father andri who smiled and gripped his wife's hand. Andri's mother replied to her husband and continued her words.

"Betul Andri, let alone we can not help much except to give your blessing and prayers, your two sisters still have to fight to be able to finish school. You have to be really steady with your choice Andri." Andri immediately approached and hugged his father, then he hugged his mother.

"Pater and Mother's prayers and blessings are enough for me, I will try my best not to trouble you."

Facing Julia's parents is another question and more emotionally draining Andri. Especially before Andri came to Julia's parents' house, Julia's pregnancy was known by both parents. Even worse, it turns out that Thunder never once came to show the trunk of his nose introducing himself as a girlfriend to his parents Julia. As a result Andri became the target of emotional shooting and disappointment Julia's parents. Neither Andri nor Julia said that the child Julia conceived was the son of Thunder. Andri's good intentions are ready to be responsible to backfire for him. Almost there was a fight between them if it was not broken by Julia's younger brother and their security.

Andri comes to face Julia's parents when Julia has been driven from her home and comes to Andri's house crying not knowing what to do. Andri faces the wrath of Julia's parents who accuse her of defiling her son and damaging their reputation. Especially at that time her father Julia was running for the legislature.

So also when Andri and his parents came to propose Julia. They no longer care about the fate of their children and behave foolishly. Their marriage was not attended by Julia's parents. Likewise after the child in the womb Julia was born. They had tried to come to reconnect the broken silahturahmi but their arrival was rejected outright by both Julia's parents, even Andri and his family did not manage to penetrate the gate escorted by the guard.

Andri pulled out her phone and saw a picture of her two children. He loves them so much and his longing will peak when one day he does not meet them both. Andri could not understand how Julia's parents could ignore their only daughter just because of her imaging interests, career and self-esteem.

Comparing the actions of Julia's parents who left their children for a career what about themselves? That'll leave Julia because of her lust. Leaving Julia also means severing direct contact with her children, children whose parents separated must have psychological problems in the future. If he does it means he is not much different as depraved as Julia's parents. If Julia's parents are lucky because their children are in Andri's hands what if the children even fall into the wrong relationship? Andri's fur stood up when he imagined it.

The clock shows at two in the morning. His eyes cannot be closed. Andri's head became heavier when Citra's figure last night with her in her beautiful dress that showed her feminine and sensuality, her beauty, her dazzling smile, and her beauty, his laughter could not be lost from his mind. Andri knew there was only one solution to solve the problem. He stood up to take ablution water and do night prayers and Istikharah prayers asking for instructions and the best path for him.