The Former

NEW LIFE

My heart was slapped at his words. I'm shy. Very embarrassed of him. So great is Vino's sacrifice for this selfless woman. A woman who can never appreciate her sincerity.

My steps feel dead. Even my knees couldn't hold me up. I fell weak. I cry over myself full of sins. For a moment, I was silent. Wiping away the tears that had been spilled. I turned my body to Vino, I approached Him.

"Why do you want to do this? It's the same you sacrificed our household, huh. You should have just. It's all my fault. So just let me do it all. I don't care if I have to bear the shame of a lifetime!"

"You think by letting your video go, that's the best way? Your mind is very short, Bun. Here Maya is going to be the victim. Maya will also endure shame and humiliation for the rest of her life, if only I let your video with Rey spread and go viral. You gotit?!"

"Certainly, do you think divorce is the best way and no one will be the victim? Didn't he? No, Dad. Maya will also be a victim here. He'll be devastated. I will be tormented away from him."

Vino ruffled his waist and turned his face to the ceiling of the room. A burden of mind that is very difficult to melt. It feels like stacking on the head into one.

"Give me time to think things through. I promise I'll break this problem. As much as possible there will be no divorce, and my video will be safe" I said.

"How do you do it, Bun. They all want us to get divorced. Otherwise, you will be ashamed for a lifetime. So does Maya. He'll hate you his whole life if he finds out later. I don't want the people I love to fall. It will be forever."

I smile. My soul is getting stronger. Whatever it takes, I'll try to keep my marriage. I will no longer allow them to be thorns in my household.

"It's all my fault. This all happened because of me. I promise, I'll try to make our family whole like it used to be. Happy as before. For Us. For Me, You, and Maya."

Vino's approaching. Gently grab my finger. Then pull it slowly until I fall into his arms. My heart is beating fast. My breath spurred faster, blowing warmly against his face. Truly, a moment I miss so much.

"My company tonight, I miss you" said Vino whispering softly with lips touching my ears.

I smile. Tonight I feel so beautiful. The love between me and Vino blossomed and re-bloomed. I'm terlena.

*****

After that night. Vino and I were playing a show to make it look like there was still a fight. We don't want Mama Renata to know that we're getting along. If Mama Renata finds out, I already know their plan and try to fight, Indri may be dark and reckless to do things that can harm Us. While we relented.

Maya who still always shows her grim face, does not want to go to school. I understand his feelings. There was no way he could go to school with a heart hit like this.

'I'll try to talk to Maya, and give her an understanding later after coming from my inner office' when I see Maya only silent when I ask her how she is.

Lunch time at the office is time. But I'm not getting off my desk. Vino's words that surprised me about my video with Rey came back.

'How will my marriage end in divorce? What if Indri wants to spread my video with Rey? Wait, Rey! Yes, Rey. I have to meet him.' I sat with my eyes fixed on the PC screen.

Then I took my phone. Scroll incoming messages in whattsapp. Search her name. Be met. I immediately typed a message for him.

['Assalaminophen. How are you Rey? Recovered yet? Can we meet now? In the usual cafe. There's something important I want to talk about.'] Fill in the message I sent to Rey.

['OKAY. I'll be there in 15 minutes.'] reply to Rey's message.

I rushed to the cafe behind the office. I'll pick our favorite table. Near window.

"Old time, Shay?" greet Rey who sat directly opposite me.

"New. New nyampe. How are you doing?"

"Alhamdulillah, Yes. Thanks to you, I'm back to health. Can continue to live. I owe you my life, Sya."

Rey clasped my finger. Gently squeezes it. His eyes again hypnotized me.

'ciihi! What the fuck? Why am I silent, Rey holding my hand? Even I returned her gaze that was staring at me.'

I took my hand and turned my gaze, which had been staring into his eyes since.

"Sorry, Rey. I just want to ask and beg you. Please, I'm happy with my family. I beg Rey."

My tears can't last long in the pelupuk. It's easy to get out. Rey quickly rubbed it. Gentler.

"Tash ... Ye know? Ever since I found out you were donating blood for me. You saved my life. I don't want your life anymore. I'm determined to make you happy and come back with your family, completely. Though this love will remain in the heart."

I shook my head. My sense of disappointment crept. Getting lush.

"You're relaxed about me? Then what does he mean by you having Indri threaten Vino? Threaten to spread our video?" I said with emphasis on my tone.

"Our video? Where did Indri know and get the video? Oath, Yes. I had no idea about Indri's threat to Vino. Even Indri has that video I don't know."

"Udah is Rey. No need to be tickled anymore. Where did Indri get that video? Yes, obviously from you, Rey. From who else?"

"But I'm serious, yes. I have absolutely nothing to do with Indri's plan with our video! I swear to you!"

"It's hard for me to trust you, Rey. Because that video is all you have. I need proof. Not words to avoid you. Proof that you're not involved with any of this!"

"OK, Yes. Let you believe that I'm not involved with Indri's plan about the threat. I'll try to help you solve this problem. I'll try to remove all copies of our videos wherever Indri keeps them. Please, trust me."

I'm nodding. Assented it. I hope Rey really isn't involved with Indri. I want Rey to really help me out of this. I'm sure the bright light out there will be found to illuminate my path to happiness.