The Former

FLASHBACKS

"Czech" the sound of my room door opening.

I, who was cool with my laptop, turned to the door behind me. See who's in. When I found out about Vino, I immediately stood up to him.

"Eh. Father ... You home?"

I kissed his hand. I saw the clock. It's only 10 o'clock.

"It just so happens that early in the morning my work is done. So just breakfast, meeting for a while, go home. How mama? It's a dateng, right?"

"Udah. This morning after Me and Maya finished breakfast. Now again in the room, rest maybe."

Vino nodded his head.

"Yes already. It's good to come."

After putting his briefcase on the desk. Vino went straight to the toilet in the room. Though I want to directly ask about the words of Indri and also Mama Renata. But I hold it until Vino finishes the shower.

Before long, Vino was neat. Seeing it after a fresh shower, and the smell of its pungent perfume, made my nose opiate to continue to smell it. I fell in love so many times when I looked at him.

"Honey. You made me miss." I said, hugging him. Forget the words Indri and Mama Renata.

Vino didn't return my embrace. He took my hand out of his embrace. I jerked. Retrogressive.

"Why you?" my many.

"No papa. I'm just tired of it."

Vino is not usually like this. He's like a stranger. Like I don't think I exist. I was in a hurry to wake myself up. I forgot my bad thoughts about him. Suddenly I immediately remembered Indri and Mama Renata.

"I'm gonna ask you a minute. Want to talk important." I said sitting in bed.

I pulled Vino to come sit next to me. Must now. Let's finish my curiosity.

"Yes already. What do you want to say," he said slowly.

"What does Indri mean?"

"Indrii's? What happened to Indri?"

"What do you have to do with Indri?"

"Lohs. Who should have asked that was me. What is your business with Indri? until what does Indri mean? What do you mean?"

"Duh. What are you, even muter belibet like this."

"Well, how do you want it? You are clear. Suddenly what does Indri mean? How do I want to understand if your questions are half that."

"OKs. Just jump. Indri said you were in prison because you told Indri to fight you! Right so?"

I didn't expect Vino to agree with Indri's words. I want Him to argue with her. Refuting all Indri's words.

"Indri must be very emotional to see you. Where are you and what are you doing to meet Indri?"

"I'm just nanya, where were you yesterday, why did you meet Indri?"

"Lohs. I told you yesterday. I went to the hospital, looked at my friend. You forgot?"

Vino shook his head. His face looks wry.

"Friends or infidelity?" said.

Vino's voice had started to rise. His face looked like he was talking with a scream. But restrained. I was surprised by Vino.

"I'm the same Rey is done! He's not my affair anymore! We have nothing. Believe the same I am Dad!"

"After everything that happened. I have to believe it? Same You? How wonderful you Tasya! I survived because of Maya. Because Maya!"

Vino the more I can't control. His eyes are dewy and reddened. I am still curious about Indri's words. Vino hasn't answered.

"Enough! I just want to know the truth of the words Indri said. You told Him to fight you. Yes, or not!?"

"Well, why?"

The sentence is very simple. But my heart feels like it's being ripped apart. That's not the word I want to hear.

"What do you mean, all this? You playin' me Dad! Prison is not for toys! What does all this mean!" I said with a stifled scream.

"Jail isn't meant to be played. But it was your play that got me imprisoned! You'll know later what I'm doing all this for."

"Your son Yes Well by the way. I'm dying to get you out of jail!"

"Sacrificing for your affair, huh?" vino's words with a shout made me spontaneously step back.

"Not like that! You misunderstood me!"

"Yes. I did misunderstand! My understanding of you is very wrong. I would die for you, but you would die for another!"

Just this time I saw Vino getting angry with a deep word. Vino is no longer being gentle with me. I don't think I'm dealing with Vino. It's like I didn't find his soul in this body in front of me.

I looked into her eyes that I had seen dewy. But Vino threw away his face. I'm getting scared. Vino I can't soften his heart.

"Dad ... We can still talk about all this. Don't be like this. You make me sad Well."

"That's it, Bun. I can no longer pretend to be so sweet in front of you. As if there was nothing. I admit I love you so much. But the love I have will mean nothing if the loved ones don't appreciate it at all."

My cry broke out for a moment. Hearing his words that made this chest feel tight. Looking at Vino who no longer cared about my whining. I was getting more and more anxious about his attitude towards me. It doesn't feel capable. Just like this I'm not strong. I'm used to being pampered with his tenderness and attention. But this time, Vino was different. So different!

"Dad .." I said trying to hold him back that was about to pass.

Unheeded. My manjaku whine who hoped that Vino would come back to be gentle turned out to be unbearable. Vino rebuffed my hand which tried to hug and hold her. His gaze was unfriendly. Not a sense of pity, he was just sick of seeing me.

"Just save your tears for later" Vino said as he passed.

Vino left me out of the room. But he saw me crying. I am getting more and more confused by his last words. I spilled my tears.