The Enchantment of the Former

Don't Hate Me

The knocking of the door was heard many times at the front door of Shazna's house. The woman who was enveloping the father who had fallen asleep seemed to snort in annoyance, hearing the knock of money in the sense of impatience.

'' Who is the night, '' Shazna grumbled as she closed the door of the father's room and stepped towards the front door. A little annoyed, Shazna opened the door and could not figure out who was standing there.

'' Mas, '' said Shazna interrupted to see Brandon standing with a messy appearance. The usual hair neatly combed now looks disheveled. His work shirt came out of part of the pants he was wearing with his sleeves rolled up to his elbows. And the tie that had slipped off the neck of the man who was now taking off the glasses that used to be perched on his nose.

Without warning, Brandon pulls Shazna's body into his arms. Shazna pushed the tall body, but did not make Brandon release his embrace. It was precisely the man getting tighter hugging the petrified body of Shazna on the spot.

'' Please briefly dear, I miss, '' Brandon said in a weak tone. Shazna neither refused nor accepted Brandon's embrace. The woman looked stitched. Seeing how the man was broken made his heart feel stifled. But to start again with that man he would never be able to.

Brandon let go of his embrace, looking at Shazna's expressionless silent face. The face she so missed. Shazna grabbed Brandon's hand from his face. The woman nodded weakly.

'' Unable to believe the gini mas, '' Shazna shrewdly, Brandon stared inside the woman before him. Grabbing Shazna's hand and in her grasp gently.

'' I can't love, I can't without you, '' said Brandon with teary eyes. It's only been two days and his life is a mess without Shazna. Shazna shook her head weakly as she pulled her hand from Brandon's grasp.

Shazna shook her head slowly, staring at the disheveled face before her. His heart was so sad to see the man full of love seem desperate.

'' No more mas, no choice, '' Shazna said weakly.

'' Why is it impossible ?, we can still be together, no matter where you approve or not. The important thing is that you stay next to me Shazna, said Brandon, who now grabs Shazna's cheek again and on his trunk gently, the look in his eyes was heartbreaking.

'' How about Kellie?, '' Shazna continued.

'' They want the status of marriage, let her remain my wife. You will remain the owner of my heart. Let's go together, I don't care what people will say about us. I just want you, Brandon said in despair . Shazna couldn't stop her tears. When I saw my eyes full of joy in front of him.

'' Marriage is not a game of mas, do not mess with the sacred pledge before God, Shazna said trying to restore the sanity of a Brandon who was falling.

'' But my life is nothing more than a game, '' said Brandon who is now bowed. Then the man looked up and wiped his tears with his wide palm.

'' I could never decide my own life, because I was just a puppet for the puppeteer who played my life, '' said Brandon with a bitter smile that glared at the man's lips. There was a wound clearly visible in the eyeball. Shazna clasped Brandon's hand.

'' Let's find the wind outside!," asked Shazna who felt it took time to speak from heart to heart. He did not want them to let go of each other by hating each other. Let them hurt each other at least their separation does not leave hatred in the hearts of both.

Brandon said that when Shazna told him to get into Shazna's car. The woman drove slowly, through the night streets that were beginning to appear silent. Both are still silent.

Until Shazna stopped his car in a large field. Seemed quiet, there were only a few lights on the sidelines. There were still some people sitting on the sidelines. But it's pretty far from where Shazna stopped.

The two looked up at the sky which revealed its dark face. There's only a few stars rolling up there.

'' I think seeing you happy will make it easier for me to let you go. But it turns out just saw you laughing with another man, it hurts here, said Brandon as he held his own chest. Shazna turned her head, looking at the man who spoke while looking at the pitch-black sky. Like the hearts of two broken human children.

'' And that's also how I feel when I have to see you with another woman. I know this won't be easy for us. But it's better to get sick from letting go than to hang on and plant a time bomb that could explode at any moment. Please respect my decision. I do not want to be considered a woman who does not know herself, Shazna said.

Brandon smiled faintly, looking at the woman who was always beautiful in his eyes.

'' I'm sorry I was always selfish, thinking only about my feelings. True as you say, there is no way we can survive a gray relationship like this. I don't even know where to take our relationship. By making you my mistress is the same as me lowering your pride, said Brandon ended with a bitter smile.

Shazna clasped Brandon's hands, both of them staring at each other with deep gazes.

'' Everything is gonna be okay, trust me, '' Shazna said. Brandon responded by holding Shazna's hand.

'' Just go through with sincerity what has been written in our destiny sheet, '' Shazna added.

'' May I hug?, maybe for the last one, said Brandon, Shazna smiling and nodding small.

Brandon holds Shazna's body in his arms. Inhaling in the woman's fragrance. Storing in his inner memory. To be a memory that will probably be the most beautiful memory of his life. He must be willing to let go when he himself cannot promise happiness.

'' Continue on for work ?'''' asked Brandon after letting go of his embrace.

'' Sorry I need time to get my heart back together, Shazna said.

'' If you don't work, how do you?' asked Brandon, who felt that she still needed a job.

'' Don't worry, I still have savings. And I will definitely be able to work as soon as possible, Shazna replied to calm the worries of the man who was still looking at her lovingly.

'' Don't hate me, I know I'm being an indecisive and wishy-washy man. But please don't hate me, said Brandon with a compassionate look. Shazna nodded steadily.

'' I can't possibly hate you. I know what makes you so unequivocal. Maybe it all seems like a form of return. But it could be a plan that God has outlined for us. Believing God's plan will be much more beautiful in the end than the plan we assembled ourselves, Shazna said.

The two looked at each other in a smile. Give strength to each other's hearts. Convince themselves that this is the best path they have to go through.