The Enchantment of the Former

Nostalgic

Somehow the story goes, Fattan who suddenly came to Shazna who was shedding his tears. Fattan is like the shadow of a Shazna. Where the woman was there the man followed her.

'' How come you're here?, don't say you follow me Shazna said with a sharp look, after he was in Fattan's car. The man smiled as he started the engine.

'' Think of it that way, '' Fattan replied casually making Shazna sigh and look away from the car.

While both were silent, Fattan was driving at a moderate speed, Shazna was stuck in her own mind. His mind wanders far away. I don't know what to do next. I don't think he's going to continue working for Brandon. It's too painful to see that man with another woman.

Several times, Shazna breathed heavily. Fattan glanced at the face of the woman who looked dreamy.

'' You guys broke up?,'' can't stand it, finally Fattan asked as well. Shazna looked at it. But the woman seemed reluctant to answer.

Seeing Shazna turn her face back. Making Fattan understand that the woman next to him was not wanting to be disturbed.

'' I'll drive you home?'' asked Fattan carefully. Shazna shook her head, she wanted to calm her heart for a moment.

'' I don't want to go home yet Shazna replied lethargicly.

'' Where do you go?, added Fattan, the man turned his head for a moment. The woman beside him now seemed to close her eyes with her head leaning against the back of the chair. Putting up his own face.

'' I don't know where, '' said Shazna, Fattan smiled wryly, it turns out that Shazna's heart parted with Brandon.

After a long drive in silence. Fattan stopped her car near a hill that was not very high. But it was quite quiet at almost midnight then.

'' It was late at night, go home yuk!," asked Fattan, Shazna seemed to sigh heavily. His feelings were mixed, there was pain, hurt, disappointed but there was a sense of relief also in his heart

" He finally chose his parents' choice?," asked Fattan, for some reason it wasn't happiness that greeted his heart as he. But there is pain in seeing the woman hurt. He wanted to carry the woman in his arms.

" I'm backing down, because I realize, I'll never be an option, Shazna said without looking at Fattan. Fattan clasped Shazna's hand. The woman slightly flinched, staring at Fattan, but the man was down, his eyes fixed on the hand he held.

'' I realized, I'm not the right person to say that everything will be okay. Because I know how it hurts. And we've been in positions like this. Leaving someone we still love, it hurt, Fattan squeezed Shazna's hand slowly, but the man's gaze looked far away. Return to the past when he had to leave the lover, at a time when the love was still growing fertile.

Shazna smiled bitterly, her eyes staring back out of the car. His hand was still within the grasp of the man beside him.

'' I used to feel like a victim of your selfishness. When suddenly you cut off the relationship, when there must be a reason behind all that, said Shazna, the grip on his hand felt tighter. The two turned their heads together, making the two pairs of eyeballs meet. The two of them stared at each other in silence.

'' Sorry, ''' said Fattan. The man let go of the grip on Shazna's hand and shifted his gaze. He looked at the dark in front of him.

'' I used to think, parting is the best way. You know for yourself how difficult long distance relationships are. I'm faced with two options, stay with you and quit college, or I'll go to college on condition that we split up. Obviously it was a tough choice for me, Fattan looked down considering the time that used to feel so hard for her.

'' Why should there be such a choice?, '' asked Shazna who never knew why Fattan had left her. Fattan looked at him with a bland smile on her lips.

'' Because my grades are ruined every time we misunderstand. And I come home too often whenever we have a problem. You know, right?, I'm not from a wealthy family that doesn't care about costs. Until my father finally rebuked me, Dad said. Want to stay in college and leave you temporarily or just quit college and my tuition to get married, said Fattan at the end of a bitter laugh.

'' Don't think I'm okay after that Shaz, heavy. But you are an encouragement for me to study, to finish college quickly and I can ask you. But it turned out that everything was not in line with what I expected. When I came back you were not there, said Fattan, reminiscing about the bitter moment of her life.

'' Dad moved to work after I graduated from school. I'm moving in, because there's no way Dad could have left me alone. Especially at that time, I was also devastated. My test scores are ruined. My hopes of getting into medicine were dashed, Shazna recalled, who was in a difficult time at the time.

'' I'm sorry, '' said Fattan, back the two looked at each other. And a smile was equally etched on their lips.

'' I used to feel the most hurt people, and blame you for my failures. But I'm actually too stupid. Mentally still mental crackers, said Shazna at the end of the laughter.

In the middle of the night, the pair of ex-lovers laughed, remembering the past that used to be painful, it was now worth laughing .