The Diary Rere

Lima

On the day of the UTN score announcement, the 10 highest grades are taped to the glass of the exam room. I did not expect to see my name on the paper at all, just wondering who got the highest score? Did Jani? The aira? The dimas? or my other friends? But it turns out that the highest score obtained by one of my friends named Fadhil who is famous as stupid as me, Vanka, and other children who do not belong to the category “ smart children”. I had forgotten exactly what UTN Fadhil was worth, but the shock grew when I saw my name was just below Fadhil's. Name: Renjana Dusk Kala, Value: 28.15.

I was so shocked to see my name and UTN score ranked at number 2. The perfect UTN value is 30.00 and I'm only 1.75 numbers away from the perfect value. Whereas for 4 times taking the try out exam, my UTN score prediction only ranged in the number 23 – 26. The names Aira and Jani are ranked 4th and 5th with a value of approximately 27, sekian (kurasa), while the name Vanka is not in the top ten. I had a look with Aira and Jani, it was seen from their faces that they did not expect to see my name on the list. That moment really turned me into a different person. Rere is no longer a child who is “ mediocre aja” or “boh”, Rere is a smart kid. That's the mind of the people who have seen me since knowing my UTN value. How powerful a number is in determining self-worth.

The story of my SD days does not end here, I think there are still many things to tell because these things play a role in shaping who I am now. Let's go back a few years before I figure out my UTN value. At that time I was in 3rd grade, Rere who was thick with chubby cheeks and Dora's model hair. As you know, humans need groups to exist and survive, including me. At that time it was time to rest, me and some of my friends (who I forgot who it was), wanted to join playing the slide with “gang beautiful children, slang, tajir, tajir, fanatical with korean girl groups, and good at nari”, in short they are nicknamed “gang putti”.

“I can play the slide here no?” I asked those who were joking while watching something on the HP Nokia QWERTY pink which was very trendy at the time.

They were silent for a moment, perhaps astonished or surprised by my arrival and my friends who were in their eyes might be as close as possible.

“Ih... No, we don't want to play with you. Your hair is short, our hair is long, we don't want to play with girls whose hair is short” replied one of the frontman of the gang, his name is Princess.

Ever since the rejection, I've been getting to know some basic things. The first is that I am not beautiful, the second is that if I want to be beautiful then I have to lengthen my hair. Thanks to the bitter experience, at the age of 23 my hair is long and my face is beautiful (according to many people and according to myself).

Another incident in SD that did not escape forming me was the moment when I first watched a porn scene. Yes, again you do not read wrong, Rere 11 years old has never watched porn scenes. The incident began when Vanka and I were busy chatting about a soap opera on one of the TV stations.

“Re, you know the soap opera that aired on TV station 5?” Vanka asked me enthusiastically.

“Which one, Van?” I'm still not familiar with the soap opera that Vanka means.

“That's a soap opera that tells the girl SMA hood mutusin to remove the veil and scissors skirt length so short skirt!” Answer Vanka enthusiastically.

“Oh yes? Is there a Van?” I became curious.

As far as I can remember is that the soap opera was aired on one of the private TV stations. I also remember watching it, of course because of the recommendation from Vanka. The soap opera tells the story of a young woman who was at that time in the High School. Call it Aisyah, Aisyah is a pious child, kind, and obedient to her parents. He comes from a simple family and never behaves. One day some teenage girls “gaul” with her mini uniform: super tight shirt and short skirt on the hanky tells Aisyah if there is actually one of their male friends who likes Aisyah, they also told Aisyah that she would look much prettier if she took off her veil.

At first Aisyah's character was not affected by persuasion from the slang children, but when she saw Roby, a male figure who likes Aisyah, she felt the vibe of love. In the end Aisyah decided to take off her veil and cut her long SMA skirt to above the knee. He even tattooed his thigh when officially dating Roby. Aisyah also became a disobedient child by lying and yelling at her parents. I don't remember the end of that soap opera. When you think about it, how can there be a soap opera that shows a storyline like that? What is the benefit to the audience?

“Where, have you seen yet the soap opera that I told you yesterday?” The next day Vanka again discussed the soap opera.

“Udah, very bad ya si Aisyah!” My answer.

“We try to wear a short skirt?” Vanka half-whispered when she said that.

“Hah? You want your skirt scissors, Van?” Many wonder.

“Ya is not it! We go up our skirts to our knees. We're sitting in the back corner.” Vanka explained his strange idea.

“Keep this table hole how?” I asked who was still confused by vanka's intentions.

“We stacked our bags in the hole, so no one saw” Vanka handed over his bag and helped me stack it with my bag in such a way that the hole in the foot of the table was closed.

In the end, Vanka and I really did it. We lifted our long skirts up to the knees, at that moment somehow we were both not wearing leggings. We settled each other's thighs smoothly with each other. I remember Vanka holding, stroking and pinching my thighs with his hands.

“Thump your thighs, Re” He chuckles while squeezing my thighs.