The Deepest Regrets of a Husband

Heart-set

Bandung.

Nandini POVs

I'm sure this was the best decision for me.

I could not have remained in the mansion if this heart was no longer able to bear the burden that I would have if I had been there.

It's not about your sharp mouth that always ignores and doesn't think of me as a daughter-in-law. But this is about my own husband.

Who has changed his attitude and behavior.

That was so cruel and conscious that it hurt my physical and my psychic too. He did it intentionally. Conscious and as if he was taking revenge against me.

Maybe the way he did the persecution and also said such a bad word against me had satisfied him.

Maybe with him physically hurting and also doing coercion to have sex with her by force. To prove that only he has power over me.

Maybe he was happy to blame me too. So I feel guilty for him. But he is the wrong one.

Maybe you are satisfied doing that kdrt to me mas. Under the pretext I have been double.

A blind and unreasonable accusation.

I don't know what was on your mind at the time. To the extent that you trust me with pieces of video that have been edited by Mama.

I don't know what makes Mas Gabriel so cruel.

Though all this time you've always been sweet and I feel the comfort of being by your side.

Even if your whole family doesn't consider me and doesn't recognize me as part of your family. I can hold on for you, Mas.

Since you are the first child, your sister's sister appreciates the obedient choice with your attitude.

And Mama, even though she finally let you marry me. He never really considered me either.

But, when I've acted like them. How can I survive.

I know that Gabriel loves me. And at that time I might be jealous. But still mas, I cannot accept if Mas has dared to commit physical and mental violence on me.

Living with you I have sacrificed so much. All with the ad I live.

When you have ignored me. How can I stay. That's why I'm leaving Mas now.

My actions are not right. But honestly I can't deal with people who don't like me and I'm like a stranger at home.

Maybe with me gone. You can understand and learn one thing about what love is and what sacrifice is.

I never imagined that a man as gentle as Mas Gabriel could be rude. All this time I have never been rude.

But what did you do to me that night. It hurt my heart and my feelings.

The whip wound had not even disappeared completely. There's still a trace.

Not to mention that your self forced me to have sex also left a wound there.

Five years of knowing you, and eight months of marriage. I've never seen you have a sadistic soul.

On the night where you vented all your anger and emotions. Mas El's attitude has opened the veil of other hidden properties that exist in Mas. Which I finally knew. And even I was the victim of violence by you.

I can't stand it if I keep on holding on. My mentality is not that strong. I'm not a tough woman with multiple patience.

I don't think it's bad for our relationship what it's going to be like. All I think about is this moment.

I need time and quiet to think things through.

And it can only be if I go.