The Come Back Again

All Passed

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Now I feel like I'm having a nightmare.

Nightmares when your High School always punish me for coming home too late. Yes, that's my habit until now. Playing and spending time with friends is so fun that they always forget time

And papa always scolded me by punishing me to keep learning so that my rank went up and my phone was taken by him for a few days pissed me off.

But now there is no more. My mind has wandered where, I can't do anything else.

It's like watching a horror movie and hiding behind a pillow. But it's more than that. Wake up! i'm yelling. Wake up let's get up! but I can't. I can't get up

Every now and then I would slowly punch my cheek, trying to wake me up so that I would soon come to my senses from this nightmare but only in vain again.

I just want to wake up like I did, get together with my parents, my friends and I want to get my college degree. Oh my God, what is this! why is this happening to me.

I want to graduate soon because papa has promised me we're going on holiday to Japan to celebrate my graduation day. Enjoying the snow in winter, it is like a school holiday.

Celebrate on a cold night, use a thick jacket and drink warm water that is so warm to the body. The atmosphere of the Japanese city night I wanted to meet on my graduation day.

I'm pacing back and forth there. There's no one there, just me. Like in a very old prison. I'm tired of being here.

I remember Mama's time telling me a storybook. Such a sweet sound makes it easy to sleep. Mom and Dad always kissed me before going to bed. I'm only an only child, so their affection is only fully for me.

I kind of lost my mind to get out of here. I want to randomize that nurse's desk. I want all of this to disappear and come back the way it used to be. I want to disappear. I don't want to be in this hospital, I don't want to be in this hanging state. I can see what's going on around me, I'm aware of how I feel without being able to really feel it.

I couldn't scream until my throat hurt, I couldn't break the window until my hands bled, or grab my hair until the pain in my scalp overcame my current heartache.

I looked at myself, Alessia who was still alive right now, lying on the hospital bed. I felt a burst of anger for my current state. If I could slap, I'd slap my own face that didn't react.

But now I'm sitting in my chair and closing my eyes, hoping this is all over soon. Tapu can't. I could not concentrate because I suddenly heard a voice that disturbed my hearing. My monitor twinkled and the two nurses came back to me.

" my blood pressure and my oxygen intake are down!" one of the nurses shouted

Soon the doctor quickly joined the two nurses who were in my room.