The Bridge of Sin
A Confession
...Hurt me with the truth...
...But never comfort me with a lie...
...Those who are willing to forgive themselves and dare to accept reality are called strong...
Brian POV's
I saw him walking down the stairs this morning, after cooking he didn't greet me at all. He simply put some food on the table, then returned to the room. When I just came out of the bathroom, I saw her preparing clothes for me, she put them right on our bed. Totally unconcerned about me, he sat in his bed playing with his phone.
Why is it so painful to be ignored like this. But anyway, it doesn't feel right if I scold him, I'm here to start first. Sorry Bella, how else? I really don't want to share you with anyone. How I explain that to you, I'm really frustrated. Plus I'm afraid, if you give birth to a baby, then there's a lot of fatal things going on there. No, I don't want you to leave or get hurt.
Bella was beside me right now, she took me food and put it on the plate. Before long when the plate was full enough, he gave it to me.
"Where are you going?"
I tried to ask him when he left me. He just turned his head while throwing a smile, then his finger pointed upwards.
"Bella!"
He stopped his steps and turned back. My hand slapped an empty chair beside me.
"Sit down, I want you to eat too!"
My words were only answered with a smile by him, the head shook slowly and then went back up the stairs. Did I overdo it last night, he didn't usually shut me down all this time.
It seems like enough for today, maybe I should just say it. Really, being ignored by the person you love the most is very unpleasant. Maybe this is how he felt last night, when the food menu in my plate ran out I decided to lead my feet back into my room.
The door of the room seemed to open a little, I slowly approached it and opened it. Bella was on the side of the bed apparently, while leaning on the head of her net bed focused towards her laptop screen. When my foot went in there, Bella didn't see me at all.
"Darling, don't you want to take me to the front?"
I asked him, he just nodded and then stood up to me. When he walked out of our room, I pulled his wrist when he turned to hit me.
"You must be so mad at me, right?"
Bella was just silent, my woman is still down like disappointment is indeed touching her heart at this time. The disappointment might be huge for him. Moreover, the one who created that disappointment in his heart, was me.
"Say?"
The question made him look up this time, his netrait was me staring at me.
"Hun, I said the same thing last night. But you, prefer mute. When I decided to shut up, imitate you, you asked me for a reason to shut up? Why is it so funny hun?"
A smile I gave her now, my hand trying to grab her wrist at this moment. I thrust it into my face, cupped it, this time I bowed my head.
"Darling, there's actually something troubling my heart. I'm sorry I did last night, I honestly didn't mean to hurt you at all."
"Say, I want to listen to what's bothering you."
I led Bella to sit on the bed right now, we were both sitting there. The eyeballs were still staring at me, the eyeballs were still trying to figure out what reason was bothering me.
"I'm afraid, lose yourself!"
As if he didn't understand my words, I nodded this time smiling at him.
"I'm not ready to share you with anyone, including our children!"
"Geez!" Strangulated me.
After saying that, I lowered my head while Bella was seen holding her laugh there. He seems content to get answers to all his questions. After this he will mock me.
"Jeez Hunny! You are so funny! How can you say that, even if I give birth to a child. I'm still your wife! I'm still yours."
"I'm also afraid, what if something fatal happens when you give birth later. I'm not ready to lose you."
"This big baby!"
Bella cupped my face with both hands, there she played it. A little uncomfortable indeed, but the smile of hers that expands this morning relaxes my heart. The tension between us will soon be gone.
"Dear, I don't know I love you too much. I'm sorry I was too possessive of you!"
My words made her smile grow bigger. The mane of the description this morning is quite charming really, it has been since last night I silenced it. Last night I didn't even hold her, now seeing her this happy feels so warm my heart.
"Hun, may I ask you something?"
Bella threw a question at me this time, I just stared at her while nodding my head.
"Yes?"
"Building a relationship is difficult, it's not easy indeed. If I'm wrong, you need to talk to me, show me where it's wrong. Hun, man is not God. Man is only able to see, and hear what is in front of him, as well as what is told to him. Hidden voices, how do people know?"
The eyeball was very shady, he said, the voice was very soft caressing my heart. Grateful to have her here, even just looking at her, that was enough. My Bella, my lover, my woman, the one thing I get, through a lot of hard things. Just got sucked in by me, maybe I can't have it. But now, this woman, mine completely. Why was I so stupid, hurting her heart last night.
"I got something most beautiful on this earth, really, it feels like my heart is filled with flowers right now."
"What does that mean?"
Bella doesn't understand what I'm saying, what I'm saying to her, it describes her but she doesn't feel it at all.
"I got you in this cruel world, that's enough for me!"
Cuppp
After saying that I stood up, pecked at the top of his head, not forgetting to stroke for a moment. The red clover slowly crept across her face, even though I often did Bella still blushed.
"I'm leaving first yeah, Eddie must be waiting for me there!"
Hearing that Bella nodded, she got up. Taking my hand, we got out of our room. Bella drove me to the yard, when I entered the car opened my windshield, a wave of her hand made me smile. In the end the peace between us was created already, expelling the awkward who had just anchored. Hopefully there will be no more fights or silent events between us. Maybe I should also thank Stevan for bringing me home drunk.
...The fact that I am not alone makes me happy...
...No one in this world is born alone...
