The Ant's Jakaka

My first kiss

***

I don't care about those who laugh at me. My chest hurts more every time I see Aisyah. Moreover, every bang Roni rubbed his lips using a tissue. As much as possible I hold back my tears from falling. I don't want to be caught by them.

" Hold Jay, you can. You are strong.." I strengthen my heart repeatedly.

After dinner, I went to my room. While they are busy talking in the middle room. Their laughter was clearly heard from my room. Sounds so happy.

I lay on my bed, the tears I had been holding. Now it flows by itself on my cheek. I haven't cried in a long time, last time was probably SD. From then on I decided to become a strong soul, not a crybaby. I'm tired of being teased by my brother.

And tonight, I became a whiny figure again. I wanted to hold him, but I couldn't.

" Is love this painful?? Do all guys feel this?? Is this what you call heartbreak?? Am I the only one crying in this world for love??"

" If I could just go back, I wouldn't have wasted my time. Bembi's right, I'm too cowardly. I should have dared to express my feelings."

I kept lamenting everything, until I finally fell asleep. I wish this was just a dream. I want, tomorrow when my eyes open.The first thing I see is a message from Aisha as usual.

***

I stepped with heavy steps. I don't feel like going to work. But, for what reason? Broken heart??? Ah. It will definitely be a new mockery for my two brothers. Not to mention Bembi and Sapphira, surely they will taunt me all out.

" Jay... breakfast first baby." cried mamah when I saw him cheering without reprimanding him.

" Jay fasted mah." I replied as long as I left without greeting.

Mom stared at my departure with eyes full of question marks.

" Why child. Kiss the hand. Eh this even nyelonong aja." mamah muttered in surprise.

"Why mah?" ask Papah who just came to the dining table.

" That's a pah... Jay. How could he change? yesterday was fine." replied Mom.

" Maybe dizzy thinking of his quiet tavern mah." papah papah origin chirps.

" Heeeem. but at least Jay was able to survive until now, reward. He never complains." said mamah.

" Belain aja teruuuusss." chirps bang Roni who immediately snatched the bread.

" Eat it sat first Ron. "mamah shake his head.

***

Arriving at the store...

" Good morning boss" said Safira as usual.

I did not answer him and immediately hurriedly went up the stairs. Maybe today I'll sleep all day.

Safira stared at my departure with a curious look.

" Why again, boss. Not yesterday the mood was good. Again in love drunk?? Yesterday there was a lot of enthusiasm talking about Aisyah. What don't-don't...." Safira shut her mouth.

" Don't what neng?" asked Bembi who had heard Safira talking to himself.

" Eh. Brother Bembi. Make it a shock." said Safira shocked.

" That's brother. sir boss." he added.

" Where is the boss?? Is it dateng??" ask Bembi while looking out.

" Had entered his room. But I think it's badmood again." said Safira.

" Any cooking? Not happy yesterday mbahas Aisyah yes??" bembi said in disbelief.

" uh. ogah. Mr. boss is sick of badmood serem. Asked anything will not be answered.already, yesarin aja most also sleep his people." said Bembi while shaking his hands.

Safira was not focused on work all day, she often turned to the stairs. Even lunchtime he waited for his boss to come down. But the result is nil. Jay didn't come out of his room. The girl was getting curious, she was also anxious if something happened to her boss.

After work, Safira cleaned the shop as usual days.

" How come the boss is not down too well?? Does he not want to go home??" safira's great-grandson.

He stepped up the stairs, but in the middle of the road he stopped.

" Ah. not so. Later he was expected to interfere." said Safira turned down the stairs.

" But if for example boss why-why how?" he was worried again. And finally...

Tok tok...

THE CZECH!!! He opened the door to my room. He saw me lying in a long chair. He approached me, and sat down squatting next to me.

He looked at me who was pretending to sleep with one hand I closed above my eyes.

" It turns out that the boss is looked at from the sweet decket as well yes. Not looking as stiff as I said." Safira's great-grandson praised me.

Hearing Safira's praise, my body suddenly began to heat up again. My heart was pounding, my breathing was starting to feel heavy.

"Wow....why is my body relapsing again?? Don't I have a disease?" my inner.

The cup!!!

Suddenly Safira kissed my lips. I was surprised but I did not dare to open my eyes.

" Lost is the purity of my lips. neng Cow is indeed insolent."

" Sweet." she said softly.

My heart rate was getting irregular, and I felt a strange chill running through my body. Suddenly my ants started to react.

"Oh God.... Especially this?" my screams are in my heart.

For a long time the girl kept staring at me, and then left me.

After I heard him go down the stairs, I opened my eyes. I touched my lips that Safira had just smelled. I also hold my chest that is choking. I started to catch my breath.

" Fucking sapphires, how dare he steal my first kiss." I swear.

Half an hour later, I was out of my room. I stepped slowly down the stairs. I was afraid that suddenly Safira appeared. But like he's home. I saw the shop looking clean and tidy, I accidentally smiled.

I walked into the kitchen, my stomach was hungry for not eating in the morning. Plus, last night I didn't finish my dinner. I don't know why it feels so long that the water I've been cooking doesn't boil.

I took a bag of bread and took it.

" It feels good" I said after the bread came into my mouth.

This is the first time I've ever been hungry. I took some more bread and ate it with gourd.

" I'd better sleep here tonight" I said.

I can't stand it if bang Roni comes home to take Aisyah home. Enough last night I felt tormented. I will slowly forget Aisha, let her be my brother's lover. He said, love does not have to be.

Even though it hurts, I can definitely go through this pain. Let me keep all this to myself, without anyone knowing.

... connect.