THAT TASTE EXISTS
EPISODE 7 FUNERAL
Today my mom is buried. My friends, acquaintances, co-workers, papa family, mama, neighbors, as well as my friends and school teachers attended the funeral of my parents.
I myself, during this funeral procession can only cry and cry, I do not care about my surroundings, I am very sad, very hit, very lost, my heart feels sad once, I feel sad, I can't imagine living my life without them.
The mourners greeted me, offered condolences and encouraged me, but I said nothing, I just kept quiet and kept crying.
My body went back limp, but Ricky's papi hand held me tight, so I wouldn't fall. Yeah, ever since that night, Ricky and Heny's mom have always been with me. They were worried if I suddenly fell or fainted considering that I had fainted twice since my parents died.
After the mourners came home, I sat down at the tomb of my father and mother who was still wet, I cried again, "Pa, ma, that morning when papa went to Malang, should Vania come along, Vania nyesel sok diligently wants to learn, if Vania goes with Vania will not be alone like this. It's like we're still together. Pa, ma... Why did you leave Vania?? Vania loves papa and mom....Vania wants to come with you, Vania can't live without you..... Let's take Vania with you!", I'm back screaming and crying so much .
"Vania doesn't want you to go.... Vania doesn't want to lose you.... Vania just wants to be with papa and mama" I said, crying loudly.
Mami Heni kept hugging me, stroking my back, trying to calm me down while saying, "Darling, you can't be like this, you have to be strong, if you cry on like this, pity your parents, pity me, their way to heaven will be hampered, so you have to iklas, baby... Relieve their departure, even though you know it's very hard for you, son"
Hearing the advice of papi and mami, I began to try to control my emotions. Papi hugged me and patted my back, peeping at the top of my head.
"Honey, one thing you have to remember, you're not alone ! There's papi sama mami here. Consider us your parents' replacement. We will always love, accompany and support you", papi talk like a cooling water flush and can make me calm.
"Yes, Van ! Now you pray first for your mother and say goodbye to them. You will come back to our house, yes!" said Mami softly.
I nodded my head. I knelt down in front of the tomb. Father and mother God are gone, forgive them all their sins and mistakes, let them enter Your house. Amens.
"Pa, ma, may papa and mama get the best place in heaven. Vania promised Vania won't disappoint you. Vania will do a good thing, the right thing for you to be proud of Vania. I love you pa, I love you ma. you are the best, you'll always be in my heart. I kissed their headstone. I got up and walked with legs that felt heavy to move. My mother walked in holding me. Papi in front, we followed in his footsteps to walk home.
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