
Arini's prayer in the middle of the night I can still hear. Although in a soft voice he asked the Giver of Life, I believe that prayer is able to penetrate the sky.
The clear thread was still down the arch of the cheek and fell on the white face he was wearing. Sadness and hope gather in that net.
Arini, the woman who always carries my name in every bow and thread of prayer. She is a woman who has accepted me with all my shortcomings, now she is overwhelmed with sadness because of her mother's actions.
Arini .. If I could re-enter that lying body, maybe right now my fingers wouldn't let those tears spill.
Here, on the edge of the prayer rug he used to worship, I sat down to guarantee every prayer temple he offered. From the bottom of my heart, I begged the Khalik for life.
Arini, she's a tough woman. In the morning until evening he fulfilled his obligations as a bank employee, when he returned home he immediately cooked and some houses. Without getting tired he immediately rushed to carry the results of his cooking for my parents who waited all day for me.
Arini's face now looks more thin, eyes moist with panda eye circles. The netra binar is now silent, implying a matchless tiredness.
I do not understand why I am still trapped in the invisible world that separates the spirit from my body. I want to put an end to all these so stifling conditions, but what is the power if God has not willed.
I stood up, stepped closer to the life-detection screen that was on the side of the bed. "If the heart rate is still there, why can't I go back to my body?" I muttered while stroking my chin.
The signs of life are still visible, but the body loses the ability to respond. This is really annoying. Although there is a good thing I can know Arini's plan with Bobby, but still this self in the void.
I miss a lot of things with Arini. Togetherness full of laughs, interspersed with the face of Arini annoyed because it does not accept my ignorance.
Yesterday was my wedding anniversary with Arini. Even one year has the angel of heaven accompanied me in embracing the divine spirit. Now in my coma helpless condition he is still faithful.
I looked back, my beloved woman had fallen asleep in the corner of the sofa. The tired face was so obvious. Tonight he is standing guard alone because Father and Mother take turns to go home Arini.
***
A bright Saturday morning. The sun shines without clouds. At least that's what I caught on the hospital balcony while accompanying Arini to breathe the morning air.
"Arini, here I bring breakfast." Suddenly Bobby had appeared in the back. Like a ghost only he, appeared without the sound of the soles of his feet.
"Thank you, Bang." Arini welcomes plastic containing food and warm cow's milk.
"I deliberately buy chicken porridge and cow's milk, let your body fit."
"You know, Bang, if I don't feel well anymore."
"Everyone can see your face that indicates you are not healthy anymore. So take care of your diet and don't mind too much."
"Yes, Bang."
"Yes, already. Here eat first." Bobby pulls Arini's hand towards a chair. He asked Arini to sit next to him.
With deft hands Bobby prepares chicken porridge that is still separated with the sauce. He poured soft food and soup into stereophomes, then began to feed into Arini.
"I'll eat alone, Bang."
"Hahaha ... why? Afraid of Danu's jealous spirit seeing you eat from my feed?" Without guilt the man who became my father-in-law joked.
She thought I could not see all her attitude and attention towards Arini, so she dared to try to seduce my woman.
"It's not. Either way you're my stepdad, Bang. We need to keep our distance. Especially if my father and mother-in-law know, I don't know what they'll think of us."
"OK, Arini. Don't worry about it. Because I know the boundary between us." Bobby smiled as if his heart was accepting with legowo.
"Later finish eating, drink milk. After that there's a surprise for you."
"What?"
"It's .. eat it first." Still with a smile on his lips he stood up and stepped into the balcony barrier. He stared at the sun that was starting to relax, the curvature on the lips was slowly disappearing with the ripples of a disappointed face.
It turned out that he was suffering from disappointment because of Arini's words. No doubt, Bobby harbors a taste for my wife. Can not be allowed, as soon as I have to return to the body that I have been unable to occupy for days.
"Already, Bang." Arini ended the mouthful, then sipped the milk in a bottle.
I admit that all this time it was I who wanted to be spoiled by Arini. Even so, he never protested let alone get angry.
"I'm sorry, Deck. All this time I've been lacking attention to you. Give Mas one more chance to pamper you, to pay more attention to you. Allow me to make up for the time I've missed." I sat down in front of Arini who was still enjoying the warm milk.
"All right, now you have to close your eyes" Bobby asked.
"For what?" Arini frowned, there were worried ripples in the radiance of her black bead ball.
"Udah, just close your eyes."
"But don't fuck around, huh?"
"Hahaha .. You're funny, Arini. You think I'm gonna kiss you?" Bobby chuckled, his words made Arini's face flushed with embarrassment.
"Okay, but watch out for anything." Arini clenched her fist as a sign of threatening, but instead Bobby laughed more and more.
"Oh, close your eyes now. Open your hands like this." Bobby directs Arini who starts to obey his words.
"It's for you." Bobby handed something in Arini's palm. Slowly netra Arini opens and ....
"Testpack?"
"Yes, let you know if there are my future grandchildren or not in your stomach," Bobby joked still with interspersing laughter.
"Thank you, young grandfather candidate." Arini chimed in Bobby's joke with a slight advance of the face towards the man before her.
With a hurried step my woman walked away leaving Bobby who was looking at her with a bland smile. I don't care about him, I'd rather follow Arini than look at a big, bad-tempered guy.
Arini headed to one of the toilet rooms, while I waited anxiously. Wishing that there really was a junior Danu in that belly of his queen.
Before long there was a cry of euphoria from inside the cubic toilet, it seemed like Arini was soaring with joy. When the door opened, I saw that sad face turned full of happy twinkle. He ran to the ICU, where my body lay.
I wanted to catch up with him, but this leg is hard to move. A white light came grabbing me with lightning speed. My body felt like it was being pulled into an endless vortex. A second later I bounced into a body that had rejected me for several days.
God, I'm finally back. But ... Why can't I open my eyes yet? Why is this whole body stiff and unable to move?
My attempt failed to try to open my eyes, until the sound of a step toward the room. The sound of the door being opened violently also made me stop my efforts.
Arini with a face full of happiness approached me, grabbing a still weak hand. "Mas, I'm pregnant. God gave the most beautiful gift for our wedding anniversary gift." Many times he kissed my palms, then moved to rub my cheeks.
"Come, get up, Mas. Welcome this joy. Don't let me enjoy being happy alone without you. I want this happiness to be complete with you." Tears accompanied every word spoken from Arini's lips.
"Our son will be happy if he sees his father back to health. Our son will miss your caress from my belly, Mas."
"Every morning you will chant a prayer for him, give him a shalawat, stroke him as he bends his body from the stomach. Don't you want to do all that?"
My heart trembled at the words that rolled like ammunition through the recesses of the heart, the tears of sorrow full of prayer and hope making this soul thrash. I must be conscious!
Many times I kept trying, I should be able to open these eyes or at least move my limbs to respond to Arini.
After a long time of trying, finally ....
"Mas, are you moving? Are you starting to realize?" arini shouted a little panicked, but was also happy when she saw my fingers begin to move even if only for a moment.
Arini's hand violently pressed the button connected to the guard room. Not long after a nurse arrived. "Please call the doctor, my husband has started to move!" arini shouted impatiently.
Not long after the doctor came in and checked. However, this body re-emerged. Again I am not able to move all the limbs, do not know what shackles the body like this statue?
God, give me my life back. I just want to live happily with my broken ribs up to Your jannah.
Forced this time I gave up, weak dwelling in a troubled soul. Look back at nature in silence.