Surviving Pain, Splitting Difficult

Fear of losing

Kellan opens her phone and searches for a wedding photo of herself with Zea. After being able to Kellan also showed the photo to the guardians.

"I'm her husband Ma'am this is proof of her picture because if you want proof of marriage license I do not bring Mbak." Obviously Kellan by thrusting his phone at the Mbak-mbak keeper of the inn. The guardians also seemed to think a little if they were husband and wife why Kellan still asked a lot and not just report and go straight to see the Wife.

Kellan who knew from the steps of the innkeeper who doubted him was also racking his brain again how he could enter to meet the Wife.

"Look our mother was the husband of the wife My wife left first because I still have work our purpose came here it was because it celebrated our Happy Anniversary wedding. I deliberately did not ask my wife because I would give her a surprise." Obviously Kellan was trying to trick the guardians so he could get into Zea's room.

The guardians of the inn also seemed to think, because the reason Kellan gave so reasonable.

"Well Mas, your wife is lodged in room number 17 of her own room at the very end of her own as requested." The keeper's light was on Kellan. Finally Kellan got the information where the Wife's room was.

"Thank you Ma'am." Kellan rushed to the room where the wife was sleepy When she reached the front room Zea, Kellan seemed to think how Zea reacted when she saw him. However, Kellan put all that aside because he was already impatient to see the state of his wife.

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"Excuse me, ma'am," Shouted Kellan from the outside, he deliberately so that the Wife immediately opened the door. Because never got an answer Kellan did once again with a little firmer. However, not to disturb other visitors who are staying because considering this is almost dawn.

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"Excuse me Mom," Zea was writhing spoiled on the bed, she got out of bed and walked to see who was knocking on her door at dawn.

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The door to the room was opened by Zea. "Yes, what's wrong?" Zea's body pecked when she saw who was behind the door. Kellan immediately grabbed the wife's body to enter her arms. She hugged Zea so tightly that she kissed her head.

"Don't do this, baby, don't go live Mas kayak gini." Said Kellan who got no response from Zea. Zea still froze silently, not avoiding Kellan's embrace, but not replying.

Long enough they were in that position, until finally Kellan pulled Zea in and then closed and locked the room door. Kellan sat himself on the sofa and pulled Zea who was still standing. However, now rejected by Zea, Zea is reluctant to sit with Kellan. Kellan who received rejection did not lose his mind, he now hugged the Wife again with Kellan sitting and Zea standing.

Long enough the position occurred, Kellan who was afraid of losing Zea but, he was not good at how to keep his heart. As much as Kellan's fault was he never let out an APOLOGY from his mouth, that's what made Zea not like. He showed a fear of loss yet, foolishly he forgot the simple yet so meaningful word.

"What are you here for?" Finally Zea opened her voice after a long time of silence.

"Don't you trust me anymore." Zea said again, Kellan raised his head up to see the wife's face.

"I've been looking for you all night, I'm worried you're okay or hurt, I'm afraid of losing you, I love you so much, baby." Kellan answered softly, with a sad face and tears in her eyes.

"Heh, did you say Mas Love, worry, fear I was hurt, hahaha." Zea laughed after saying that and said back.

"Why are you afraid I'm hurt? you don't have to fear that I'm hurt when the person who hurts me often isn't with me, and what Love is, is what it's like to be the treatment we deserve for our loved ones." Zea said that deliberately suppresses the word love in front of Kellan.

"Dear please, yes. Dear Khilaf, I'm too emotional you raise your voice in front of me." Obviously Kellan's defending, but he's forgetting to slip the word SORRY.

"But you said, you don't trust me anymore and why are you still looking for me?"

"I'm glad I didn't want to lose you, please you understand that."

"That's right, your lips are talking you're afraid of losing me Mas, but your treatment tells me to leave you." Zea said that by trying to stay strong and did not want to look weak in front of Kellan, but unfortunately Zea's tears escaped without permission to wet her smooth cheeks.

Kellan did not budge as Zea said that, she was confused as to how. On the other hand there is a Mother that he must prioritize, on the other hand there is the Wife who so he loves.

"Dear please stop this debate, please." Please Kellan to Zea, she knows Zea is very hurt by him but, she also can't bear to fight with him.

Zea just silently did not respond to Kellan's words, she was actually very tired of having to argue this way. Kellan tried to pull back Zea to sit next to him, apparently this time successfully Zea did not refuse. Now Zea was sitting next to Kellan, and Kellan leaned her head against Zea.

"Let it stay this way, baby, I need your shoulder to lean on." Kellan also rested her head by closing her eyes that felt painful due to crying and sleepiness. Of course Kellan is sleepy, Kellan just came home from out of town, and now he's out of town again what else the clock shows at 5 a.m.

Zea was just silent did not respond to the words of her husband also did not reject it, then he saw the tired face of Kellan who had successfully closed his eyes on his shoulders. There was a taste of kasian terbesit on the Husband however, the wound in his heart still dominates quite deeply. Zea stretched out her hand rubbing Kellan's smooth cheeks, again Zea let out her tears. He was confused as to what to behave like, he loved Kellan very much, but on the other hand he was also disappointed in Kellan. The nature of Kellan who seemed to tell him to leave but, when he went, Kellan's nature also pulled him back.

"I'm confused Mas, what to behave like, you managed to give me a very perfect wound."