Strunggle Love

Green Lights From Dad

I've been talking to Alex for a long time, and I've been spending dinner with him.

It was time to go home, and we hurried and Alex drove me to the front of the house. "Thank you" said I who came down and immediately walked without looking. 

"America!" alex shouted my name. I was stunned for a moment, "She called my name," my heart was pounding so hard. I slowly turned my body looking at him who was still in the car. 

"I Love You!" Alex smiled and drove up to his car. While I was silent with Alex's words getting bolder.

I smiled to myself, I don't know how I felt right now. It felt like I was floating in the air, my heart was like I was in a drunken romance, "Is this Love." I was glued to the spot while looking at Alex's car which was slowly disappearing. 

"Aware Amerta is aware." I patted my face to wake up from the daydream that seemed late and did not want to disappear. 

I set my foot toward the door, and I did not knock. Mother first opened the door for me, as if she knew I was home. 

"Tumben, home this late? Already eaten?" there was worry on my face when I saw her.

"Hehe …. Yes, bun, there was a meeting outside" I replied, kissing her hand. 

"America!" call Dad when I just got to the TV room. 

"Finished shower came to my father's office" the father said without looking at me. I was so scared when you were expressing this, wondering, why? and what's up? in mind. "Okay," I replied slowly. I was only able to answer that short and then rushed off to clean myself up. 

My heart still feels pounding, what important things will actually be discussed. If you call me to his workspace, there is definitely something important to be discussed. 

Geck! Geck! Geck! 

I slowly knocked on my father's office door. 

"Lake in!" That heavy sound really made me feel creepy. "Sit for a moment" said the father pointing to the sofa facing him. 

"What's the matter, Dad, why call me here? Is there a secret job like it used to be?" I was really worried, I was still curious about the father who suddenly called me here personally.

I remember that time, just like today. Dad used to call me here for a mission, a complicated and secret job in a foreign country, ah I don't think I want to remember that, a troublesome job for me. 

"It seems like my son is much better today" said the father who I cannot understand. 

"I mean dad?"

"Yes, since that incident. You seem to be much better now?"

"It looks so." I looked down, ever since that day. The day that made me feel down on my own, I had to give up the love I had spent so many years craving, the love I couldn't express to the end. 

But that's not what I'm worried about right now. There was something else going on in my mind, how would I explain to my father, if I had finally decided to marry the man I just met. 

"It seems like there is something you are worried about my daughter" said the father with a calm look, raising the coffee cup in front of him. 

In front of my father's eyes as if I could peek into my heart, I felt like I was back as a child. 

"A-what?  Worrying? Ti-no, Why suddenly ..." I stammered like I was caught making a mistake. 

Gluey! 

I gulped my saliva, a hot sultry feeling creeping through my body, Even dad can tell that far.

"By the way, lately I've been hearing some pretty interesting gossip" my father's return made me feel panicked. 

"Ru-rumors, what rumors?" I stammer with half a tickle. 

"About you," replied Father, smiling slightly to tease me. 

"Rumors about me?"

"Hmm, that I'm crazy to work, and until now still single, it's been normal for me," I replied as I slightly flashed a fake smile to trick my father. 

"The rumor that you're close to someone, he's called Alex." My expressionless father's gaze looked at me, as if I was locked onto that sharp gaze.

"What, is that true?" ask Dad like he's introgasin' me. 

"Let only my secretary be my father, so everywhere is always with me," I replied saying part of the truth, but it is true, Alex is my secretary and will always be near me. 

"If that's it, why did this rumor get to my ears" said the father, smiling again. 

"Once again it seems like you're the only one who doesn't know anything" he added.

I threw out a breath that felt so heavy, "It's been scattered apparently," I replied with a bow of my head, I was confused what else to say to dad. 

"Sounds like that guy?" ask me to look at me seriously. 

"No, no, it might be that fast, after all he was just a junior who had just worked yesterday," I replied as if lying to myself, for some reason with that answer like there was a heavy pressure in my heart. 

"Although, you don't seem to like it either?"

What kind of question is that, what's wrong with dad, why is he so eager to talk to me about Alex, "I'm not that bad at not liking someone, anyway he didn't have anything wrong with me, did he?" 

"As a woman who rejects many men cruelly, you speak too much of my son." Dad smiled while sipping coffee that looked cold. 

"That's because they're all embarrassing, that makes me feel nauseous. Unlike Alex, he is a victim and I have to take responsibility, he is also a little handsome and not as disgusting as other men, "my inner being can only answer the words of the father in the heart. 

"When you're seven, you're older than him?"

"Yes, it seems so." I lowered my head, considering our age which was very far away, my father reminded me of it making me feel like a selfless person, being in a relationship with someone who was much younger than me would definitely be everyone's scorn. 

Dad came closer to me, "America, do what you want to do, don't limit yourself to circumstances. You're not a person who deserves to be restrained by the past, free yourself, don't dissolve into the things that will make you fragile for the rest of your life."

"Dad!" I hugged the man who was always on my side, who always supported whatever I wanted, which always motivated me to always be excited. 

"Thank you dad, thank you." I am so grateful to have parents like him.