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Me and my boyfriend

I'm Misel, I'm 20. I have a girlfriend, Dimas her name. We've been dating since 3rd grade High School. We were 1 school at the time. PDKT almost 2 years, resulting in a lasting relationship until now.

I went to one of my city's universities, tax department, 6th semester student. While Dimas studied out of town, majoring in chemistry. We're LDR because Dimas got a scholarship there. As a girlfriend, of course I have to give support to Dimas. I'd like him to go to college out of town, and I also believe that Dimas can take care of his heart for me.

 

michel I'm going yes

you are fine here, take care of your heart and your feelings.

nurut is always the same mamah and papah.

I'll be home every semester break.

I love you, only you.

 

I love you

 

That's what Dimas gave me before he left. I think he's a good man. He is gentle, and he is also quite handsome. Even friends always say that our faces are similar. People say that his face looks similar means a soul mate. I believe that, but I'd rather believe that if Dimas was really my soul mate and that one day he left, he would definitely come back again.

Dimas and I knew each other in High School. We are both different majors. We always went and went to school together. Where at that time I still have no sense let alone fall in love with Dimas. I remember, before we were both officially dating dimas once asked.

"is your heart too frozen until it's hard to melt love for me?" said.

In this case the person is too poetic, he also often throws his waves at me. Eventually, I fell in love with Dimas. He said softly, his sweet attitude and his more attentiveness made me believe that he would always love me at any time.

Before we were officially dating, I always asked Dimas,

"what happens when we date and break up? can they still be together? or can't even?".

And Dimas always answered, and,

"we will always be together and we will never be apart".

In the end, I decided to date Dimas.

On July 28th, Dimas and I are officially dating. Dimas has prepared a letter to be signed by me and Dimas,

That's how the letter is. It's true that as long as we're dating Dimas always takes care of me. He always loved me, he cared about me, and he kept my trust in him. We always go alone, even on vacation with my family and Dimas if Dimas comes home. Our parents have known each other and were close since we were still PDKT at that time.

I went about my activities as usual and Dimas also did his activities like normal days. However, ever since Dimas was out of town, I felt lonely. Usually Dimas and I go to school with Dimas' motorcycle. We also often play under the rain. Yeah, that's when Dimas was still living here. Now, I go and go home to college by myself, and play under the rain alone.

Truly, this heart is claustrophobic in the land longs to burn. I can't regret the meeting, I can't take it back, I can't take her home with me anymore.

Indeed nothing has changed from Dimas even though we are LDR. Dimas is still the same Dimas I know. It's just that we started to get busy with our respective affairs which made it a little difficult for us to communicate,

"I'm on, you're off. You on, I'm off"

That's how we've both been since far away.

I cry sometimes, I think hard, I even wonder. Why is all this happening?. It's just distance, and we're still together.

Dimas always takes me everywhere. He did not allow me to take the motorcycle alone. He never felt bothered by me. He was patient, facing me if my mood was not good. I always dreamed, if one day I could be together and one house with him forever.

"All the specks of rain that were washing over me, that was proof that I was longing."

Those are the words I always say to my heart when I play in the rain. I'm scared sometimes, I can't believe it. But I'm trying to get rid of all my evil thoughts about Dimas.

Dimas and I have spent 3 years in LDR. It doesn't taste good. We fought a lot, we had different opinions. Either maybe because of the lack of communication or indeed this relationship is indeed time to run aground.

But I'm trying to defend. Dimas always convinced me, too,

"we can always fight, even quarrel as great as possible, but please never intend to separate. You certainly know very well stringing life with someone who is loved is not easy. Moreover, we are far away, so it is difficult to monitor your activities, let alone monitor who is now in your heart. My task now is just to survive and believe in you."

Until now I had to make myself happy in my own way and in any way. There was no one to look after me, no one to hide my makeup, no one to pick me up and take me anywhere, no one to surprise me on my birthday. Never mind, it's not good to just go. This is God's destiny for me.

"i keep waiting with a longing heart"

Yes, I have to keep waiting. Waiting for Dimas' signal to be good, waiting for Dimas to tell me, waiting for Dimas to reply to my chat, waiting for Dimas to pick up my phone. Maybe even, now I'm waiting for Dimas to repay my love.

Dimas was gone for a few days, even a few weeks. Then he gave the news that he was busy, busy completing the report for the final semester. I understand it, because I am also finishing my report. Because it's a requirement for graduation, I as a girlfriend can only understand and support. But is it really that busy? Until I can't reply to any of my chats? Can't you just pick up my phone for a second?. I kept waiting, I kept understanding, I kept missing, I kept holding on.

Dimas came home because his father was sick and was hospitalized. Dimas came to my house, and took me to the hospital to see his father. We rushed to the hospital. Dimas' father had kidney failure and had to undergo surgery.

Dimas took me to the hospital cafeteria to buy food and drink. During that time we both talked.

"i'm sorry michel, I often disappear without news.I know you continue to wait for my reply.I'm sorry" said Dimas.

"it's okay, I understand ko dim" I replied.

After that Dimas drove me home,

"sorry that I've made you wait for the micelle, I really don't know how to manage time for you" Dimas said.

"i told you, gapapa. I know how to make myself happy when you're not around" I replied as I walked into the house.

The next day Dimas came to my house in the morning, he decided to go back out of town,

"i say good to come back, you don't worry, my heart is only for you" Dimas said, holding my hand.