Stepping Without Direction

Twenty-four

"Why are you so easy to promise Safa something big?" ask her with a voice of reprimand.

"It's not just a promise, Mirna. It is a word that contains certainty. Mirna, since we have already touched on that matter, then on this occasion I will propose to you and marry you. Give me a chance to give Safa happiness and erase everything that has made you suffer with Safa all this time.."

"But I feel guilty. You don't force your own ego. I'm not very good at it. You're used to living free. So don't be Safa and then you change all your habits."

"Without you even saying it, I can read your heart and mind. But Mirna will soon be three heads. I used to think that it was time for me to get married and have a family. Safa's existence and my self-introduction to you were instantly all the answers to my requests all along. This must be the destiny given to me. Mirna, come on think positive for our better future. So again I said I wanted to propose to you. Will you be my companion until death do us part?"

Mirna shook her head many times.

"No, Mas. I don't want to marry you."

"Aren't you thinking about Safa's long future? Think only about Safa's existence and future. Don't just attach importance to your ego, Mir."

"We must speak as is in accordance with the facts. We are also very foreign to each other. Also in your family, I am a nobody. Even though we were once so intimate in one day that time." Mirna's face immediately flushed red as she spoke in front of Arya.

"But the incident was due to my stupidity and carelessness in getting along. There are no special feelings between us. Especially love and love. Frankly, I'm afraid of entering into a marriage with you, Mom..."

"I fully understand your feelings, Mirna. But think about it again. Can't you sacrifice for your son's future this time? If it's our marriage you consider it a sacrifice for Safa..."

"Seven years of practice, have you ever thought about the boy's whereabouts? The money you gave me wasn't to abort her existence in my womb? But sorry, I was taught by the caretakers of the orphanage to never negate the lives of others even though they were still in the womb. It is not the sin of a little baby that he is present in his mother's womb.

Why should his life be lost? He's just an innocent baby. If I had been caliph at that time, wouldn't there ever be a Safa in this world? So I decided to leave the parlor to take care of my own son. Can't that be said as a sacrifice?

Arya was surprised not to hear the story of Mirna. She digested it verbatim and imagined all the past stories Mirna had passed through. His heart is sad and sad. Without being able to hold himself back, he let out his tears that he had already weathered earlier.