Stepping Without Direction

Twenty-one and Twenty-two

"Father..." Safa hugged Arya. Feeling the treatment Arya's throat felt very painful. Safa is really thirsty for the affection of a father. Whether where Mirna's parents and siblings were, she didn't dare to ask. Especially because Mirna herself did not tell her life story.

"If Safa goes home, Papah also goes to Safa and mama right?" safa asked with her innocent attitude.

While Arya could not say anything and was silent, Arya soon answered Safa's question with confidence and maturity.

"Dear dear, papa will always be near Safa." Answer stammering.

"really?"

"Yes, papa will always be there for Safa."

Safa released her embrace from Arya's body and looked at the man's face with enlarged eyes. Every time she asked her mother when her father would come home from work, she avoided asking her questions. Because Mirna didn't want her daughter to be disappointed.

"Really, pa?" ask Safa again.

"Yes dear."

Arya has almost four times to deliver Mirna home to take some of her needs and Safa needs while in the hospital. From what Arya sees, she knows that Mirna and her daughter are in a phase of deprivation. His heart was touched by a great sense of sin because he had wasted the lives of Mirna and her little daughter.

So spontaneously the question asked by his daughter he immediately answered without having to think long. When Mirna heard Arya's reply, she was shocked instead of playing. Both of his eyes suddenly grew. But he did not want to say anything because Safa was near the two of them. Therefore once Safa fell asleep, Mirna immediately pulled Arya's hand out of the room and invited Arya to talk seriously.

"Mas, you shouldn't give Safa empty hope. Because he can already think and remember what he heard. Moreover, he was including a soft-hearted child and still very innocent." Said Mirna bluntly in front of Arya.

"I want Safa to feel happy so that she can recover quickly" replied Arya.

"But there are many other ways to please her." Mirna said firmly.

Arya took a deep breath. What Mirna said just now was not wrong. But what he said earlier was something very serious not a joke. However it seems that the woman did not see his seriousness and suspiciousness.

"Surely you don't recognize me and understand me yet, that everything I'm saying is not nonsense, Mirna. I am a serious person in words." said Arya.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean very clearly. I will take Safa and her mother to my house and live with me."

"Say clearly what you mean."

"It seems obvious, Mirna. I want us to live in a family bond together."

"You mean we're married?" asked Mirna in surprise instead of play.

"Yes." Yeah."

"That's too much and I object to your decision!"

"Because of the letter you received seven years ago?"

"No. I never asked for a wedding. Especially now. So again I'm telling you, I have an objection. Don't ask me why I object. But obviously, I feel very depressed."

"Because you don't trust me?" Arya asked in a soft voice.