Should We Divorce?

34

Monday morning on the first day of work after the new year went well. Serena wakes up early to prepare her work clothes and Ares. After that, the breakfast event took place quickly-fear-fear the capital did not kindly launch the streets. Fortunately Altan's school is still off, so at least Serena's work is not double. And now, they were ready to go to war with a pile of work.

"You together?" Ask Ares in front of their cars.

Serena. Stupefied. Do you think he is hallucinating or mishearing?

"You want to be together?!" repeat again with a ketus. I knew he was trying so hard. Serena even quietly furrowed her brows amusedly as if mocking him. "Yes, I don't want to."

"e uh. Wait, dong," Serena held Ares' hand. "That's a big shot, huh. I'm still surprised that you're suddenly like this. What's up, anyway? Tumben really."

"G-n-nothing," his pretext covered up the nervousness. Where might he say that this is an effort he PDKT again. Tengsin. "Yes for nawarin."

Although somewhat in disbelief, Serena did not comment. Just shut up while holding his smile.

"So no?!"

"What?"

"Barength!"

"Oh?" Serena blinked, then smiled again. "It really is a big deal with you. But today I have a meeting outside. So must bring a car to be spit. Gapapa, right? Tomorrow is tomorrow. Yea?"

Ares. "Hm. Yes already. I'm leaving."

Just a few steps back to Serena, Ares felt his efforts had not been maximized. There's still one more thing he has to do. But. he doubted, rather prestige. Should he do this? Shall?

Serena frowned as Ares looked back at her. What was? Is anyone missing? Why is Ares so nervous?

"Why don't I do this?"

"What?"

Cup. Ares peeks at Serena's left cheek.

Stunned it must have been Serena made. Not even the woman knows whether her body is still alive or not? Sounds too much for a kiss. But for a marriage that has been on the verge of collapse and Ares who was careless to ask to be plucked, this is a good development.

"Be careful. I'll tell you I'm taking it."

Damn it! Just want to faint, Serena now. The surprise of the kiss is not over yet, this is why Ares again behaved unusual? And again, it could be that his face remained flat, just glancing into the car as if his actions had not ruffled the hearts of others.

...• • • • •...

After a female doctor put her stethoscope back in her suit pocket, Serena got up from the hospital ward and followed the doctor's steps to sit down and listen to his explanation.

Yes, this afternoon Serena decided to see a doctor. Did he say yesterday? Until this morning he felt bad. That's why he felt he had to check it out.

"Where, Doc? What pain do I have, huh?"

"Ok, here is written Mother feels her body often lemes and rather jovial," the forty-year-old doctor who rolled her hair read the report that Serena fill in the registration. "How dizzy and nauseous are there, ma'am?"

"Dizziness exists. But it's nausea.it's not like."

"I'm sorry, did you have a child?"

Serena frowned, but still nodded as well. "Y-yes. Already, Doc."

The doctor smiled calmly. Very calm. Meaningly. "Then there's nothing to worry about. Pregnant women are often unaware of these changes in their second pregnancy. Especially in week five."

Deg.

Unlike it like being hit by magic, Serena was still staring. His mouth opened a little, and his ears seemed to be in a long screech.

Whahuh? What does this doctor mean?

"Congratulations. You're pregnant."

...• • • • •...

Two test packs are within Serena's grasp. Both show two lines.

Without warning, tears welled up in her arms. Accompanied by a smile that did not escape his lips.

Positive? Positive?!

Oh God.

Serena rubbed her stomach carefully. A little still unexpected. This is too sudden. Not unexpected at all.

Hurrying, Serena reached out to her phone on the nightstand. Sitting at the side of the bed with an inexplicable feeling of passion.

Ares. A name that rotates in his brain. The name he presses on his smartphone and he will call.

Isn't this really very, very pleasant news? Especially for Ares? The man was determined to have another child. He will be happier than Serena is now.

Five seconds, ten seconds, the phone line just rings. On the second occasion, there is still no validity. And the third, Ares' phone changed mode to inactive.

Never mind. Maybe Ares is busy. Serena just gave up. Afraid to disturb. It's 6 in the afternoon anyway. Ares will be home soon.

Better now he cooks a special dinner to deliver this special news as well.

...• • • • •...

At 7pm Ares came out of the meeting room with a tired face. It turns out that the long holiday of the new year makes his work really pile up. I think he wants to go home and get some rest.

When she remembered home, she remembered Serena. While walking towards his room, he took his phone in his pocket. Serena called him at the meeting. Ares was forced not to answer the call and turned off the phone for courtesy. Now he'll try to call back.

"Sir Ares?"

Just about to activate the phone, Ares was surprised by the appearance of the secretary who seemed to just come out of his room with a somewhat anxious face.

"Why?"

"Inside there are guests for Father. But the guest asked to wait in the Father's private room. I've tried to give her an explanation, but she insists on wanting to stay inside."

A guest? Wh who? Ares doesn't feel like there's an appointment.

After allowing his secretary to leave, Ares walked into the room guessing who his guest was. Who could presumptuously ask to wait in his private-room room where he rested?!

Ares shook the doorknob of his room, and the figure of a woman behind him greeted his sense of sight.

Wait for. Ares seemed to know that posture. He even knows, even if he only sees his back.

"Anye." Ares' voice whispered, but it was able to make someone up ahead turn his head.

Oh God.

Ares' world stopped that very second.

It really is Carnation. It was Anye who Ares had been looking for and longing for. His mouth until stiff can not be closed or sound. Ares couldn't believe what he was seeing. This is unexpected.

Anye pulled both corners of her lips creating a bitter smile. Not yet his eyes are watering. Newness filled her heart as Ares ran into her arms so tightly.

"Anye. Carnation." It sounds like how beautiful Ares' voice is right now. With her eyes closed her fingers continued squeezing Anye's back as if she did not want to and would no longer let go.

He let out his voice until he was able to create a lump of sobs in Anye's throat that was difficult to swallow. Anye had no power to hide her ripples that were reddened by crying. He squeezed as firmly as if holding Ares' back was his last strength to stand upright.

They feel the same fear. The fear of loss seemed to eat away at every chest cavity. The long, unbridled longing now greeted each other in a warm embrace.

"Yes" Anye nodded with haru. "It's me, Antares. Carnations. Anyelir who is good at making instant noodles with rawit."

"W-you how are you, hm? Right, eh?" Ares anxiously examines Anye's body. "Body why kurusan? You why? Tell me. You sick? Is anyone sick? You-you--

"Sssst," now it's Anye's turn to cupper Ares' cheek. Calm the man she missed the most. "Im fine's. I'm totally fine."

"T-continue... This...this is why you are so skinny, Nye? Why?"

"Here" he led Ares to sit on the side of the bed. Rubbed his anxious hardened jaw. "Relax okay? I'm gapapa, really. It's kurusan because. yes. Nothing else."

"Tell?"

"Yes," her smile was thin. "Continue. because, the inner pressure is ngangenin you." He's a little snigger.

"Why don't you go home, hm?!" anxious spray. "Why so long ago, I admit? Where have you been all this time? Live where? Same who? How's your life?"

"Just one-on-one" his thumb moved on Ares' cheek. "People all this time I've only been looking at Mbah to Jogja. Keep my life safe and happy there too."

"Jogja? So... You went to Jogja?" Anye nodded and Ares moaned in frustration. "God! Why don't I think, huh? I thought you were going to Singapore to get Opa."

"Faraway he thought. Gegayaan take abroad all."

"Ah whatever," Ares clucked and shook his head. "I don't want to think about that anymore. Just don't you ever trust me again ok? Don't ever leave me again. You know I'm almost crazy thinking about you?! What do I want to say to Mama Papa me and your parents in heaven? I promise to keep you the same with them. If you're okay, maybe later I'll say Brother who can't take care of his sister."

Slowly, Anye's smile faded from her lips. Brother sister. He hated that word. He hates that Ares still uses that word for their relationship status. Will the title stay between him and Ares? Can't Ares take it any more than that for a moment?

"Yes, Res. You sit here undaunted. I took you for a drink at your desk. You seem tired and anxious. Yea?"

Ares just nodded small.

Then after that, Anye walked out of Ares' room, entering the man's study. He noticed there was a glass of water on the workbench - next to the laptop.

Anye hung around for a moment. Staring at the water under his gaze. He was determined to do this. He can't back off.

Something from his little bag. A medicinal powder that he had prepared from the beginning. He opened the medicine zipper, then sowed it into the water. Wait until late, until fused and invisible.

He moaned quietly while whispering in his heart; "You are forever thinking I am your sister. So for this mallem, I'm gonna make you look at me more than that, Res."

...• • • • •...

The clock keeps going. Time keeps changing. I don't know how long Serena's been pacing around in the living room. Dinner had already passed, and he deliberately did not eat first so that he could eat with Ares. He still wanted to tell this happy news with Ares over dinner. He can't wait to give it to me. I can't wait to see how shocked his face will be. Will Ares be happy? Is he going to smile as widely as he is now? Haha. It must be really fun.

Serena looked at the clock. It's 8 o'clock. Ares hasn't come home yet. He tinkers with his phone. The message he sent from earlier is still one. His phone from earlier was also inactive. Is he still having work? Or worse overtime?

With hesitation, Serena sat on the sofa. Glanced at the entrance, and sharpened ears waiting for the sound of Ares' car.

...• • • • •...

"Res, you're as long as I'm not okay, right?" Anye's head rested on Ares' shoulder, rubbing his sturdy arm. They sat together on the edge of the bed, staring at the view of Jakarta at night.

"Hm." Answer Ares lethargic.

Anye who realized the strangeness of Ares's voice, immediately looked up to take off the crib. Watching Ares's adorable face and her eyes reddened.

"Why are you, Res?"

Somehow from a few minutes ago Ares felt his head a little dizzy. He also listened less to what Anye said. Don't know what the woman told me. If I'm honest, he's sleepy.

"Don't know. I'm dizzy." She squeezed her back hair.

"Dizziness? You sick? Try the bed first. Up, Res. Oozing. Come on."

Unsuspecting, Ares allegedly pushed his body up onto the bed. Lying his limp body on the soft mattress.

"You're dizzy, hm?" Anye is touching Ares' hair with love.

Ares really didn't open his eyes. He was very sleepy.

"Res? Ares?" Anye's palms were waving. Determine whether Ares is still conscious or has begun to be affected. But, it seems like the sleeping pills are already working. Evidently from Ares' eyes that open and closed weakly.

Goody!

Anye smiled thinly-not completely happy. That's because he didn't want to do this to Ares. He can't fool Ares like this. But what else to do? Circumstances forced him to act this way. It's just a sleeping pill anyway. It won't hurt Ares one bit.

After that, he lay down on Ares' chest. Swiping the chest of the field that is still wrapped in a slim fit white shirt gently. Really am! This is what he had been waiting for for a long time. Being near Ares without sister brother frills.

"Res, you know what? At first I didn't like moving to Jakarta. I'd rather Jogja. But said Papa Mama, in Jakarta there are their children who are their age. The boy is kind and smart. He's gonna be a good friend to me..."

"...the name is Antares" Anye smiled in light of their first meeting as a child. "The boy who always plays ball in front of my house. Our house is across, but I don't dare to know you. If not because our parents are clumsy and often eat together, maybe we will never be acquaintances..."

"...since that day, I knew that what Mama Papa said I was real. You're a good boy, Res. Every day you play with me. You take me to play with your friends and always defend me from children who like to disturb me. Mama Papa is also really about you smart boy. You always teach me lessons I don't understand. Always wanted to ask Mama Papa me to do PR together..."

"...i'm so impressed with you, Res. At the age of 10 years you are already good at English and can martial arts. It's something that makes me squirm you're different from the other kids..."

"...without me knowing it, that admiration changes meaning after we grow up. I no longer see you as a friend, a sister, or anything else. I see you more. Moreover, when I slumped after... My mom and dad died in that accident. You're the only one who's always been there for me. You're the only one who made me rise and smile again..."

"...do you remember the day you wanted a theater race? At that time I actually wanted to be frank about this feeling. If only you didn't suddenly say you had a crush on a girl..."

Anye's gaze turned sad. Lamenting how broken he was at that moment.

"...i was so angry that I felt at the time. Especially after you start busy finding out who the girl is and more often chat with Dito to love each other info. I think you're a long way off, Res. Very far..."

"...in the last days of school, Opa came to meet me and asked me to come with him to Singapore. You know how much I hated Opa because of Mama Papa's death, but at that time I even let her do it, right?"

Anye wore a discordant smile mocking herself.

"...that's a lie, Res. That's lies. What I'm not really agreeing to is Opa, but I just want to run away from you. Escape from this one-sided feeling. In Singapore I don't want to live with Opa. I live alone. Survive on your own. Starting from the cafe waitress until SPG I jabanin for the cost of food and college..."

"...either be grateful or what, or, but because of my busy work, I rarely received your phone call, which often confided about the girl you were counting - and until then I didn't know who she was - than I was told..."

"...i'm so sad, Res. As a result, I cannot escape you as far and as busy as I am. While you, even in England, you still like the girl. Every day your liking for him is bigger. And it's even too big until you're willing to marry the one whose future husband left a few days before the wedding..."

"...the oath. The day you got married, I chose not to come even if I could. I said that I have model training, but I really just don't want to squirm the face of the woman who has taken you from my side. Of the many wedding photos you sent, none of them I opened because I was too afraid to see the reality..."

"...your marriage news made me determined to start wiping out all my love for you. Five years I tried, feeling like I could escape your shadow, but apparently, it was all in vain when I returned to Jakarta, hugging you at the airport. At that time I knew that your embrace was still just as great for my heart..."

"...and then everything went that way. In Jakarta we are back near kayak first. You and your heartache because of your wife, me and my faithful love..."

"...I was able to think that what I did to you was wrong all along. I love you, but I'm not a destroyer of people's households. Especially after I found out your wife is Serena, I'm getting made worse. I don't want to be in the middle of your household anymore..."

"...and again, Res. Once again I ran away. I went to Jogja Nemuin Mbah for self-reliance. Wish there could be back to your life, but again I lost with my heart. In the city, I am even thinking more about you. There's not a single day I've spent without your nagging..."

"...taste, I'm hot. I'm trying to forget you. That's enough, Res. I can't really. This feeling is too big to lose..."

Feeling that the story was at the end of the word, Anye carried her body slightly inching. Change position so it is above Ares. Rubbed the man's cheek until his eyes opened a little more.

"...that's why I came back, Res. I came back for you. I want to be honest about how I feel about you. I know I won't be that brave talking in front of you, so I use it this way. It's sneaky, but I don't know what else to do..."

"...It's been enough for 17 years you just think I'm ready. It's enough Serena has all your love. This time, I was selfish. Let me own you. I want to understand how it's yours for this time..."

"...now. Tonight. I'll be yours, Res. Yours as a whole. We'll be one. So one..."

"...I love you, Res. I love you with my whole heart."

Just like that, Anye put her lips together with Ares's closed lips. His long fingers opened one by one the buttons of Ares' shirt and were ready to give up his pride in the name of love.