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Past Fauzi #part 1 #

Afifa's eyes are still difficult to be closed, maybe because the whole day of sleep continues or maybe also because of the tightness that is still not lost from his heart.

At 2am Afifa recalled that tonight had not taken the medicine that the doctor had given her this morning, she got up and looked for it, finally he found it on the table located on the edge of his bed, but the drinking water in his room was exhausted, forced Afifa to rise, then went into the kitchen to take drinking water even though still staggering.

Afifa was shocked when she heard someone's voice from behind. He stepped his feet slowly towards the source of the voice and then paused for a moment while thinking, there was a real fear as well.

Like someone's voice is sobbing, but who? her mind. Afifa put her feet back. Like from the mushola room. Mumbled.

Afifa looked up her head peering behind the slightly open door. Seen someone was resting on the prayer mat there, complete with sarongs and peci worn, turned his back on the door because it faced the qibla, his head bowed, his shoulders shook like he was holding back crying because of the pain so deep.

Afifa was curious, and opened the door slowly without a sound.

"Jully...." How shocked she was when she saw her husband there, crying sobbing like he was holding a burden so heavy, that she did not realize that his wife was sitting next to him.

For a long time Afifa sat there, continuing to look at her husband with pity, she did not know what the cause of her husband until sobbing like that. eventually Afifa could no longer stand still. She hesitated to raise her hand to touch her husband's shoulder.

"Sir Aji..." Say Afifa quietly while touching Fauzi's shoulder.

"Deg..." Fauzi's heart paused for a moment.He looked so shocked because it turned out his wife was already beside him. He immediately wiped away the tears that had fallen. "Eh...Deck...why not sleep?" He asked while rubbing his face.

Afifa did not reply, she just focused on looking at her husband's puffy and pale face, her eyes were reddened and wet her forehead was wrinkled exuding so much weight that she had in mind. Suddenly the look on her husband's face changed when his gaze met his wife's eyes, like he was holding back a deep and painful cry.

Afifa corrected her sitting position, then patted her lap with her right hand. "Come here..." She said softly as she spread her left hand to grab her husband's shoulder.

"Bruk...!" Fauzi dropped his head on his wife's lap, crying sobbing, his sobbing cries he poured out there. Long enough Afifa let her husband let her cry out in her lap.Suddenly Afifa's right hand rubbed the head of Fauzi who had not fizzed anymore due to fall, her left hand began to pat her husband's arm which was still shaken.

Afifa's hand caress turned out to be able to calm Fauzi's heart, his cries began to subside, the shocks on his body were no longer visible.

Afifa just kept stroking her husband's hair, she felt very sorry to see it, her whole life only this time she saw a man crying so much during that time, even like a sickle, just like that, until finally Fauzi grabbed Afifa's left hand and grasped it so tightly with both hands in front of her chest.

Afifa started talking. "Sometimes when we have a problem that is so tight, we will need someone, maybe to just tell a story or just lean on. Believe me it will reduce a little burden on your heart". Afifa let out a long breath. Fauzi fell silent and began to raise his head, then sat cross-legged right in front of Afifa. "Can I be that person? I will faithfully listen to all the complaints that Brother Aji feels". Afifa smiled convincingly.

"But you're gonna hate me for sure".

"Hmmm, maybe I'd hate you more if Aji didn't tell you everything. Tell me this time I'm not your wife but your friend. Sis Aji is free to say anything, and I will listen faithfully. How's...?"

Fauzi was silent and lowered his head.

"Yes, we've been talking about aja..." Afifa got up and pulled her husband's hand to stand up and follow in her footsteps. I don't know why the body of Afifa who was so limp suddenly felt light.

Fauzi was sitting on a sofa, his face was riled up, he was confused where to start.

Afifa realized that, she got up and took two glasses of water from the kitchen. "Sir Aji drinks first" reached out with a hand holding a glass of water to Fauzi and sat down next to Fauzi and drank from another glass.

The clock ticks at 2:30 p.m

"Sir..."Fauzi started the conversation

"Hemmmm" replied Afifa who had just finished drinking.

"My sins were so great in the past..." Fauzi glanced at his wife who was focusing on listening. Afifa commented a smile. "My sins are so great that I feel like God will not forgive me". Back glanced at his wife, then leaned his body against the sofa. "When I was a bad boy, I went to a private school in Bandung, quite far from my mother's house. Because I had to go back and forth to school, I asked permission to stay at a boarding house close to school.

"That day the graduation announcement, we who have earned the nickname the most naughty gang child at school feel unsure if the school will approve us. But when we arrived we were given the envelope of graduation notice and opened simultaneously, how happy I was when reading The name of the student: FAUZI RAHMAN RAMADHAN stated - LULUS - So did the friends, we cheered, we cheered, jump for joy. Back at school we planned a graduation party in a cafe, of course with each partner still wearing SMU uniforms. Unbeknownst to our parents, we party until late at night, there are drinks there, the atmosphere of the graduation party of young people, our uniforms are full of colorful piloks. At 1 am we go home and drive each partner to his house and to his boarding house.so I drove Wulan up to his boarding house on a motorcycle. Arriving at the boarding house the atmosphere was so quiet, my head also began to get dizzy. Wulan invited me to enter his room, and there was the disaster. We are not aware of what we are doing..." Fauzi began to shed tears. Afifa grabbed Fauzi's hand and held it, hoping Fauzi had the strength to continue the story.

"The next day I woke up, I was shocked to realize that there was a woman sleeping beside me with not a single piece of clothing attached to our bodies. I got up looking for my clothes and put them on, while the woman was still sleeping soundly. I secretly took the bag lying down and came out of his room, the atmosphere outside was still quiet, around 5 am. I led out my motorbike so that his voice was not heard by anyone including his hostess Wulan.

"I sped off my bike to my boarding house, when I got there I felt fucked up, not believing what I just did. There was a feeling of fear in me, of having her pregnant and holding me accountable. At my young age, my mind was still unstable, I didn't know what to do. I finally decided to run away from him. I immediately cleaned up all my belongings and went home, I thought he didn't know my home address either".

Fauzi bowed and then quietly glanced at Afifa, apparently Afifa still faithfully listened to him.

"Is she the woman in the SMU uniform in the photo?" ask Afifa.

Fauzi nodded weakly.

"Did Aji's sister ever see him again?"

"No. Even when he took the diploma he did not come. I had time to come again to the boarding house, but his boarding mother said he was picked up by his parents on the same day after the incident. It makes me feel more guilty".

"Did Kak Aji ever ask the school's full address?"

"Had been.., maybe a little late, I just asked the address after 2 years I entered the boarding school.I had looked for it to that address, but the house has changed hands. the new occupants of his house said they and their family had moved to Jakarta. And two and a half years ago I also went to Jakarta, based on the instructions of the new residents of his house, but unfortunately he only found out that they moved to the cengkareng area, he didn't know the full address. I searched for him for days, but I didn't find it".

"Why did Kak Aji just look for him after all that time?"

"hhhhhhh. I know I was wrong, the new time out SMU, my mind is not mature, although there is a guilt that haunted my mind, I actually vent it to negative things, I actually, I fell back with the illegal drugs, until finally my parents put me in the boarding house. Insist I refused it, but for the sake of Mama who was sick at that time because of the shock of seeing me sakau, forced to follow the wishes of my parents.

My days in the pesantren were very tormented, every day I was beaten and treated by pa kiyai, until finally after 2 months I recovered from drug dependence. I began to follow the activities of pesantren despite a sense of saturation in my mind, I had run away several times, but always returned ushered by my parents. until I finally met someone who caught my attention, I often heard his achievements in school and boarding school, his face was so innocent and sweet when I first saw him in front of the boarding school office, since then I have continued to pay attention to it, even to just see it often I deliberately come to the place where the sisters gather on the grounds of tempting them. I don't care that even though the security of the boarding school often warns me even to the point of punishing me, the label of a bad boy is already embedded in me. For 2 years I stayed in the pesantren no other because of his presence that always gives me spirit, I always pay more attention to him, by giving him various gifts in hopes of seeing him smile. But his age is still kls 2 Junior High and his attitude is so innocent it only considers me no more than a brother, but I am still happy, when he saw he laughed with joy when he got a gift from me." Fauzi looked at Afifa and found Afifa gagging, covering her mouth with both hands, after realizing that the person her husband was telling her was herself.

"Sir.." call Fauzi.

"Eh.iya..."

"I'm sorry.if I used to have other intentions with the various gifts I gave you."

Afifa smiled and shook her head. "I'm also sorry for not realizing it". Afifa was downcast.His face blushed red.

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