Scratches of Ink on my finger

Don't Say That

Am I in love

Because a small feeling in the bottom of the heart bursting smoke

Am I in love

Because beauty comes into being in the mind and then just painted

Or it's not love

Sometimes I get caught just guessing that I'm in love when it's nothing

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Tonight is getting late, my eyes are forced to close never sleep. It's far from my usual sleep schedule. While looking for a busyness that hopes will make me bored and sleepy, it took two hours to make it happen, and I am grateful because I who need to rest this can finally reach the dream realm.

***

Hours of rest, as usual, busyness in eskul mading takes a lot of time. This morning I had not had time to eat breakfast and rest hours were also not possible to go to the cafeteria for a while.

"After each member is expected to collect the results of yesterday's journalistic training, seniors will check it out. For those whose work is selected we will show in the mading." Sentences from the mading chief up ahead. After that, he sat down to continue his conversation with the other seniors.

"Bay, you made it?" Genta, my friend in eskul mading.

"Udah."

He sighed deeply, "I'm tired, Bay. We have been busy for a few weeks. Plus in a class that makes me almost crazy."

I saw his face that looked desperate.

"You just need to get a chest, Gen. If you fight, it'll make you harder than this."

Genta let out a rough breath. He no longer continues his words. A lethargic sigh accompanied the bow of his head. After submitting the training work he immediately left without greeting other colleagues he used to do. The bell in is gonna ring soon. I want to go to the cafeteria for a while just buying bread to prop up a stomach that has not been filled anything.

"Eh, Bay, Si Genta, why him?" Fina.

"He's tired, Fin. I'm sure we're all tired too. Especially every day there is no relaxing activity."

Fina glared forward there, digesting my words. "Yes, Bay, I'm actually tired too. But, I can't get in contact with the situation."

I noticed Fina whose face was the same as when Genta spoke so earlier. I was just like them, tired of all the work at school. But, there is no intention for me to give up just because I am tired like this. I just need to relax my mind that every moment stiffened because all the activities here are demanding.

"If there's anything I can do to relieve someone's fatigue, I'm gonna admit it, Fin."

Fina's smile was staring at me. "Thank you, Bay."

"Eager, yes."

Fina suddenly felt together. He turned his face to the other side pretending to be looking in that direction.

The bells are heard all over the school. I haven't been to the cafeteria to buy food. I decided to just go to class, hopefully the next break I got to the cafeteria.

"Where are you from, Bay? How did you look from earlier?" Dina my classmate, came up to me when we were already on the front page of the class.

"From Eskul's room, Din."

"Oh, have you eaten?"

"Not yet, but later."

"Now, take. I happen to buy more."

I turned to look at a loaf of bread that Dina offered me. "No papa, Din, I'll take a break to the cafeteria."

"Udah, take it. Starving again." Dina handed the bread to me. "Eat, yes." The road ahead of me goes to class.

"Thank you, Din." I yelled a little because he was already away in front, he then replied with a wave of hands with my back while continuing to walk to class.

My eyes suddenly turned in another direction. I found Love looking at me. As soon as she realized I was looking at her, she walked into her class.

The subject teacher was now visible at the end there, I went straight into the classroom to eat the bread Dina gave even if only a few pinch.

***

This second break I moved to the cafeteria first, only then went to the mading room.

"baby! Where's where?" Yoga is approaching.

"To the cafeteria, I haven't eaten."

"You haven't eaten yet?" Love comes from behind. Spontaneous me and Yoga turned towards that voice.

"Eh, Love." Yoga answered.

I smiled at him, and I caught from that face a worried stroke there. "Yes, this morning I didn't have time for breakfast, break time has to go to the mading room."

"Yaudah, yuk, to the cafeteria." Take Yoga later. "You coming, Cin?"

Love is quick. We walked to the canteen three.

I feel strange now, on the one hand I feel warm between them, on the other hand I feel ashamed because as if I was the one they were loving, it was bad.

"Let me order. What do you want?" Yoga looked at me and Love took turns. We arrived at the cafeteria.

"I ordered it myself, Ga." My love.

"Udah.say quickly what? You guys just sit there." Yoga pointed at the empty table not far from where we were standing now. "Buruan, what do you want?" Urge Yoga, looking at me and Love alternately.

"What are you, Cin?"

"I'm a moccacino, deh."

"Ok, jerk, yeah. Sit down there." Yoga went straight to order.

"Come on, Cin." Take me. Love nodded then we walked to the table that Yoga had appointed before.

Not long after, Yoga arrived with a tray containing orders for the three of us.

"Now, Bay. Quick finish. You're going to the mading room again, right?"

"Good, Ga."

"Here, it's normal, Bay. And here's the moccacino, Cin."

"Good, Ga."

"You are the same." Yoga then sat down to sip his ordered drink, a cold Sprite.

I chuckled watching Yoga while shaking lightly. After that, I spoons my food quickly because I have to go to the mading room again soon.

Yoga and Love watched me eat in a hurry until they looked at me in wonder.

"It's a drink first. No need to rush." Love offered me my drink.

I immediately stopped looking at the approaching glass as it was pushed by it and floated a light smile welcoming the drink. "Thank you." I sipped the water and continued eating at the same pace.

"It has to be, yes, you eat it?" Yoga interrupts in the middle of my meal.

"I have to hurry, Ga." My mouth still contains food.

Love is still looking at me in wonder without me noticing what she's paying attention to me that might look very bad right now, but I have to be quick.

Yoga held back her laughter seeing the face of Love like that watching me eat.

"Tomorrow don't eat late again, Bay. People worry about it." Yoga is back.

"You worried?" Without any consideration the question came out of my mouth that was still busy devouring food.

"It's not me. Love."

My last mouthful came to a halt after Yoga answered me. I looked at Love, she looked at me in surprise. Immediately I continued the last mouthful and then sipped water in the glass until it ran out.

DREETS. The creaking sound of my chair as I stood up.

"I go first, yeah. It's late, here. This is the money, Ga." I put the money in his direction.

"Take aja. I bought it today."

"Thank you, scale again, Ga. I'm headfirst. Bye, Cin's." I ran away leaving those who were still sitting. It's been a few minutes I'm late from the gathering schedule in the mading room. Since I just finished eating, I can't run any faster than now.

"Well, that's Bayu." One of the people in the room pointed at me.

"Where are you from?" Chief approached me.

"Sorry, Brother. I ate at the cafeteria."

"Yes, hurry back to your place."

"Yes, Brother. Excuse me.'

I've been sitting in that room with a folding study table in my lap. As always, we will make the writings of the results of previous trainings, after completion of the writing will be collected. As soon as everyone enters this room.

"Bay, do you think this is true yet? Actually yesterday I didn't know about this. So, the writing I collected yesterday made original." One of my friends put the sheet on my desk.

I explained a few things related to his question. There are several errors in his writing, ranging from the sequence of sentences that are not precise, the placement of the main sentence and explanatory sentences that some are still confusing, to the placement of words that often repeat.

After some points I mentioned he understood, while noting those points he took the time to write a sentence that was more precise than before.

"Thank you, Bay."

"Together."

He and I continued their activities for a while before the bell rang.

***

I walked into class with a friend of mine whose class was next door.

"Bay, you got a lot of feedback from fans, huh?"

"There, some."

"How few? I often come to the mading before going to the mading room at break time. Every time I see a paper that goes into your fan box. You're famous, Bay."

I just shook my head with the big smile I pinned.

In front of me I saw Yoga standing at the door of the class. I remember the love I had with her.

"Eh, Bay, stay here." Yoga dragged me away from the classroom door.

"Why?"

"Love likes you." Bisik Yoga's.