Rain in spring
RAIN IN SPRING ~BAB XVII~ SHACKLED IN STATUS
"What the hell is on your mom's mind!!"(said the Imam with a tinge of emotion on Riza)
"Propay bi maybe all this time you do not know our relationship because umi never told mama"(said Riza while calming the priest who is emotional)
"Then why don't you tell your mom if there's anything else from me or what your mom's answer is like"(the Imam's words began to be rude because they were carried away by emotions)
"Yes Alloh bi what the hell you've been talking about ever since I split up with the children I'm just close to you there's no one else I'm not who you think I am"(said Riza as she began to cry because she felt pain in her heart to hear the Imam's accusation)
"I've come well - good talk - good to ask permission but your mother's response is very underestimating right I am a poor person even I do not have it but I still have it self-esteem"(the word Imam is still carried by emotions)
"Mama like that because my mother does not want my failure that used to repeat again please understand this situation bi" (said Riza trying to calm the Imam)
"I understand that I don't even really understand that I can't talk to your mama, I can't even accept children like my own biological children and I'm sincerely mindless sorts"(said the Imam with a high tone to overflow his emotions)
"Yes I know you are sincere I also know you are serious not playing but all need a bi process so that mama is sure of the seriousness we understand not really you"(said Riza explaining the current condition)
"Do I need to kidnap you and the kids or do I kill everything that stops us from realizing it?"(?"(the Imam said the more emotion heard Riza crying)
"You remember what I said when I received you that I was looking for my mama's blessing I was looking for my mother's blessing enough because I could not get the blessing of my mother and I did not want it to happen again to us"(said Riza while more affirming his explanation to the Imam)
"Ok....ok......... I remember all your words but when???try to get even me if you don't talk to your mama you won't be able to know mama for my seriousness"(said the Imam who is still carried away by emotions and can't calm down)
"We ask for guidance Alloh bi because only Allah is able to reverse the human heart do not use our strength" (said Riza while pitched softly)
"Yes mi.........AAAAAA......***......."(shout the Imam to vent his emotions while hitting the wall)
"Astowfirullohalazim bi istigfar do not control your emotions existing I'm more afraid of the same you can - can later you when angry will kill me and children?"("(riza said in a frightened tone and still cried)
"Yes mi...maaf mi hati abi very crowded think this and certainly his abi could not kill people who abi dear"(the Imam said while crying feeling tightness in his chest)
"Yes bi.umi did not expect the failure of umi used to be a stumbling block for us to step"(said Riza while holding the pain in her heart).
Wounds that have not been dry like his must feel in sour vinegar again until the wound is getting worse.
Since then the attitude of Mama Riza changed and often offended - offensive and cornered the Imam even children Riza was forbidden to call abi to the Imam while the children of Riza very close to the Imam in the hearts of the children of Riza Imam there is his abi that happened to the children of Riza do not respect the word - said his grandmother.
During the past month after the Imam came to Riza's house and spoke of it and got a rejection from Riza's mama it was often the Imam's more protex and more frequent sensi his attitude towards Riza.
Since then Imam often use sleeping pills because Imam hard to sleep when the night until it has an impact on his emotions are not as stable often angry - angry with anyone until his employees are hit the impact of her and one of the Imam's employee wives happened to be one of the offices with Riza.
Just then it was lunchtime and Tika invited Riza to eat outside the office while talking about the problem of the Imam who was increasingly unable to control his emotions.
"Riz.....eat meatballs yok??"(said Tika approaching Riza's desk)
"Come on....at the tract yes hehehe.."(said Riza while turning off her laptop).
"Yes.iya let's hunt me down I haven't changed my mind"(said Tika while fixing her hijab).
Then they both took a motorcycle to their regular meatballs about 15 minutes later they arrived at the meatballs and they ordered meatballs and guava juice while waiting for their orders to come Tika and Riza sat outside because inside was full.
"Riz what is your relationship with the Imam??did you come to see your mom?"(?said Tika who pretended not to know his problem)
"It is not easy for us to convince our parents Riz what else with your current status"(said Tika while accepting her meatball order that has come)
"Yes Tik...I am confused to calm the emotional Imam and I just know the Imam emotional while I am currently like the fruit of my position court"(said Riza while stirring - stir the meatballs in her presence)
"What do you mean by the court, what is Riz....??"(tika asked Riza while frowning)
"Yes, please, the court I still survive with my mother Imam does not approve that I stay the Imam will be fatal due to him in addition to my children are very close to the Imam so all-round wrong me Tik"(said Riza while enjoying her meatballs)
"You ask Allah deh Riz's instructions on what is best for you and your children and if the best Imam's answer is defense because all need sacrifice"(said Tika while drinking guava juice in her presence)
Approximately 30 minutes Riza and Tika enjoy meatballs and orange juice then they both want to go back to the office because soon it is working hours again and they also pass the market Tika happened to see The priest was sending goods at one of the shops in the market and was angry to the point of beating the store owner.
"Riz......Riz..it was like his Imam who was fighting"(said Tika while slowing down his motorbike)
"Astowfirullohalazim ya Alloh right Tik let's go there Tik.."(said Riza who was quite surprised because the Imam was never like that which Riza knew).
Then Riza immediately got off the bike and slightly ran towards the Priest who was fighting with the shop owner with the aim of wounding them both.
"AMBIS........STOPS........ABI.........STOP..."(said Riza while pulling the hand of the Imam who was at the peak of emotions).
And almost Riza was hit by the Imam because the Imam was really dark his eyes felt like he wanted to kill everyone in front of him while the store owner was already bloody battered - bloody beaten by the Imam who was his emotional sensibility was not as stable.
"Abi....istiqfar you why the hell bi like this do not others you target hit me if you are angry as I do not go to others"(said Riza while pulling the Imam and taking him to sit away from the crowd)
While Tika only thrust mineral water on Riza and Riza opened it and gave the mineral water to the Imam so that the Imam was a little calm and wanted to tell him what the real problem was.
But what the Imam did was take mineral water from Riza's hand and flushed it over her head and then turned to look at Riza with a savage look that seemed - would pounce on anyone in the in his presence even Riza did not know the Imam who was now in his presence who was filled with emotion.
"I'm tired of being trivial right...I'm tired of being despised as a child"(the Imam said with emotion and grudge in his words)
"No one underestimates you Mam all support you so there is nothing like that for sure it is just your feelings Mam.."(said Tika trying to calm the Imam).
"Or are you equal to my life you can just laugh at me and insult me"(said the Imam began to emotion again)
"Yes Alloh bi istiqfar bi you this is why the hell is it like this remember bi me and the children need you"(said Riza while crying holding the hands of the Imam)
The Imam kept silent and opened his phone and saw a picture of the two children of Riza and the Imam cried.
"Astowfirullohalazim ya Allohhhhhhh...what is wrong and my sin until You test me like this, Allohhhhh......."(shouting the Imam while crying and looking down tightly grasping his phone filled with photos of Riza and her children)
"Patience is Mam.."(said Tika while stroking the depressed Imam's back).
"Bi...mending now abi go home immediately to bathe, take abi and pray let abi calm the heart"(said Riza while helping the Imam stand).
"Yes mi.."(the Imam said as he walked to his car with an empty look and still shed tears).
Riza and Tika also returned to the office while in the office Riza did not concentrate at all with her work that Riza thought and worried about the condition of the Imam who was down and depressed.
