Pursuing the Love of the Ustad

CHAPTER 51

After a few minutes after their return from Mr. Kades' house, the three rushed into the room

Zaki and Hanan immediately threw himself into bed, while Hafidz was still here, leaning his body to the side of the bed. His mind drifted to think about the words of his cousin Mirza..

" O Allah.samba never thought, it will be as painful and as sad as this."?? the pain was beyond what I thought." - Hafidz murmured in his heart as he occasionally heard a gust of breath that he let out violently

"This is the pain that I have to bear." The pain that seems to fill the entire cavity of my chest." forgive the servant, O Allah, has this feeling." If he is the mate of the Servant, always take care of his heart, always, but if not." then Ikhlaskan this heart." lirih Hafidz closed his eyes restraining all the rebellious feelings in him, as he realized there was a small circle coming out of the corner of his eye

Seeing Hafidz like that, Hanan and Zaki got up from the bed for a moment they were shocked to see what was happening before them

" Is Ustadz that sick."??zaki whispered that keget saw the corner of Hafidz's eyes closed

" Maybe Zak." She was torturing herself too much" I didn't have the heart" if it was true that Fisha would have to marry someone else" Hanan whispered in order not to be heard by Hafidz

" Yes...Though there's no harm in him opening himself up to the woman who loves him so much." If it's sick like this, who's trying."!! muttered Zaki who was concerned about Hafidz

" I'm very sure" Ustadz must have felt a great pain." let alone earlier after hearing the revelation from Bang Mirza who loved Fisha" said Zaki again

" You're right Zak." that little twinkle in the corner of the eye as proof, that he felt a deep pain" only that he was too strong to face his own heart." hanan slowly looked at Hafidz, who had closed his eyes but had not slept

His chest felt tight, receiving the pain caused by himself, he slowly opened his eyes, and was shocked to see Zaki and Hanan staring at him

" Why are you guys staring at me like that."?? tanya Hafidz went to the bathroom to wash her face

"No pp, we just didn't expect" a hard-looking Hafidz could feel a deep pain like this" Hanan glanced at the hafidz who walked to the bathroom

" What do you mean Naan."?? ask Hafidz from the bathroom

" What are you talking about Naan."?? it was midnight, you know, no need to worry" said Hafidz out of the bathroom did not respond to Hanan's words

"You only pretend to be strong and strong before us, when in fact your heart is a bloodless wound, ready at any time to destroy you from within.

" If you don't feel pain, then why are there tears flowing from the corner of your eye."?? say Hanan again

Hafidz was silent at all Hanan's words, he was no longer able to defend himself

" If you love Fisha, why not try to be honest with her, so that she knows:" and will not accept others" Hanan said

" I'm not ready for Naan."!! say Hafidz briefly

" Or maybe you're deliberately not being frank with her, because you're waiting for someone else."?? hanan asked and managed to make Hafidz stare intently at him

" What do you mean Naan."?? how can I wait for a girl I don't love."!! say Hafidz again

" Keep why you do not want to open your heart.make Fisha" when you yourself are in love with her too" said Hanan

" I'm not ready for Naan, if I have to accept the reality, if someday he will not be a match with me." Better sick now than to be sick next time" said Hafidz

" It is no longer necessary to talk about it." Let me endure this pain myself." said Hafidz again and went up to bed, laying down and closing his eyes slowly

Hanan and Zaki simply threw gazes at each other towards Hafidz's sleeping back..