Please, This is Not a Dream

Chapter 29

Saira turns on the faucet in her bathtub until the water is full. He broke the bathroom glass to make a sound that made people outside the room panic. Saira took one of the most pointed shards of glass. It sits in a bathtub, with the faucet still on. Saira sliced her wrist. Again. While the person outside was already panicking due to the room in the lock, it would be difficult to see Saira.

After a few seconds Tristan, Laras, and Yuna came, along with a porter or freight staff, Liam asked for a duplicate key for Saira's room, before long the porter gave the key. Liam made it in, but Again the bathroom was in the lock, this time there was no other way but to break down the bathroom door. And Liam's guess is correct. Saira's depressed. They find Saira fully submerged in the bathtub, with only her injured hand sticking out of the bathtub. Liam panicked, he took out Saira's body submerged in the bathub, and Saira was still wearing full clothes. It was like this that Tristan calmly asked her brother to take Saira to the hospital.

Saira gets intensive care. Long enough Liam, Tristan, and others wait until Saira's state is stable and in moved to the nursery. When Saira regains consciousness, she is accompanied only by Liam and Tristan. From the window, the sky outside was dark. Saira tried to get up, as she was about to support her body with her hands she squealed in pain, as she remembered that she was trying to kill herself again.

"Saira's conscious?" tanya Tristan woke up

"Tan." call Saira.

"Saira wakes up" Tristan said, waking Liam up

"Honey.. You wake up" Liam said, then kissed Saira on the forehead

"So I cried out why?" ask Tristan

"Wake up. But... "

"Let's help" Liam said

"I.... L'm... Suicide again?" saira asked hesitantly

Liam and Tristan just kept quiet and looked at each other. Saira looked at them, without saying anything else she knew, she knew the answer. This time he did something stupid again. Saira closed her eyes, she felt her head hurt. Saira massaged her head using her healthy hands. His mind was sad, why could he unconsciously do this.

"Don't think about it" Liam says, helping Saira massage her head until Saira falls asleep again.

"Saira is asleep" Tristan said

"Tan... Can't you cure Saira's depression" Liam asked

"Don't expect too much from me. I'm not a doctor psychologist" Tristan said

"His old doctor may not have had much effect on his recovery now"

"I'm dizzy seeing Saira every day trying to commit suicide" Liam finally complained to his sister

"Don't get dizzy! Strong Saira, confident mind and heart, if you will soon have more children. Don't give it up"

"Sometimes, Loe pants be my sister"

"Tumben speaks my loe here"

"loe sleep again there"

Saira's not actually sleeping. He still did not sleep, and heard all the talk of Liam and Tristan. In his heart he said that he would be able to have children. As long as he is strong and patient, it will definitely pay off. It's just that the feeling will not work, and the sad feeling of losing two candidates for his heart. For this time Saira will try hard and recover from her depression, and reassure herself if there is no loss for the third time.

Saira today went home to Solo. Before returning home, he and Liam took time to visit the graves of Saira's parents. Long enough Saira told me in Yelu's tomb. Often he thought that if Yelu was still working out of town, Yelu would come home, and Saira would tell Yelu many things when Yelu came home. Saira still often cries when she remembers herself who no longer has parents. Saira also still regretted her not caring too much about Yelu when Yelu was healthy. Regrets for ever. Although there is now Yuna or Haikal who can be said to be better than Yelu it is not comparable to biological parents.

While in Solo, with the help of Tristan's best friend who is a psychologist, Saira gets regular treatment. In Saira's heart, she also starts to feel a little positive and convinces herself that she will soon have another child.

Happy events overshadowed the Asha family. Asha gave birth to a beautiful daughter. This makes Davi happy. Even a happy family. The first grandchildren of the late Kaili and Yelu are already present in the world. Their son's name is Daisha Zakiyya Effendi, they call the boy Ai. But somehow Saira is ordinary, there is nothing happy about the birth of Ai. On Ai's second day in the world, Saira had left for Bandung with Yuna, Tristan and Laras. Saira leaves early in the morning with Tristan and Laras without Liam's consent. Liam was angry, and did not want to talk to his wife. Because it is considered impatient and does not obey the orders of the husband.

"Let Saira calm down, Liam can't be mad at you for too long" said Laras, who was in the front car seat near Tristan

"I don't want to talk about it" Saira said in Yuna's embrace

"He chatted me Saira... In order to take good care of you" said Laras

"Honey, you have not healed properly. let alone you have a fever now son." said Yuna.

"I'm doing well" said Saira, letting go of Yuna's embrace and turning to look out the window.

"We will stop at the rest of the front area yes." said Tristan divert talks.

"Eh, yes, it is time for lunch as well" said Laras