Please, This is Not a Dream

Chapter 28

Saira, Liam, Yuna, Haikal, Tristan, and Laras set off on the same day. Just a few hours after he set foot in the house, Saira had fainted while walking in the garden. This initially makes Liam worried, but his worries disappear after further examination, and it turns out that Saira is 4 weeks pregnant. This makes Liam and Saira happy. Not only them, Yuna and Haikal including Tristan and Laras. Soon there will be the sound of baby sobs in this house.

initially due to Saira's heart disease, doctors advise not to get pregnant first. This is frustrating for Saira. At the beginning of the trimester to his pregnancy Saira must be treated in the hospital. Saira has to bedrest, can't do anything. When entering the second trimester, Saira felt his body was fit, plus soon is the month of Ramadan. If Saira Fit, and fine, he wants to go home to Solo, even if only briefly.

A long time before the Eid Al-Fitr, Saira, Liam, Laras, and Tristan were already in Solo. Coincidentally because one thing and another Tristan had problems in the hospital, Tristan, until he got a 2-week suspension. Although Tristan's problems could soon be resolved and revoke his suspension, but Tristan used this opportunity to rest and vacation longer with his family.

During the Eid Al-Fitr Day, Saira is fit, the content is well maintained, there are no problems with her heart. but 4 days after the Eid Al-Fitr Day, Saira and all her family are on vacation, just a picnic, just a picnic, just around Solo. At first it was fun, but it became gloomy as they walked - the street in one of the malls around Solo. They meet Lita, someone they don't want to meet. Lita is friendly, and greetings like Eid Al-Fitr Day as usual. They talk as usual. Even Lita joined in to eat with them. Before Lita leaves, Lita whispers something in Saira's ear, which leaves Saira stunned, and frightened.

Finally something bad happened. Saira Returns miscarriage after event in Solo. No need to find out who caused it. Because the cause of Saira is clearly known if this was Lita. If not for the words of Lita, Saira could not have thought and until miscarriage. Saira was more depressed than at the beginning of the miscarriage. All worried and wondering, what is the cause of Saira's miscarriage. Doctor's verdict, miscarriage due to fatigue, but Saira knows for sure this is not just that. If he does not drink, Lita's drink may not lose his baby. Again. Liam was frustrated and there was no spirit to see Saira's situation, even until his two brothers were unable to make Saira return to her original state. While Saira remains in Solo, she does not want to be home. Saira lives in an apartment on the 5th floor.

"Where is this?" ask Asha

"Maybe Bandung can restore the spirit of Saira" said Davi

"There's too much sadness here" said Candra

"Already 2 times Saira lost a child candidate, I.... I Know how she feels" Jili said, then approached Saira

"Darling... We will have another child" said Candra stroking Jili's hair

"You ever miscarried Jil?" saira looked at Jili

"Yes Saira... So I know how you feel right now" Jili said

"No Jil... You don't know... I lost him because of someone... I tried to take care of him, but the man did a bad thing Jili" Saira snapped trying her hardest

"Darling... Eat yes" persuaded Jili

"It's not time to eat!" saira replied and coughed

"Yes.. Da... No eating" Liam said

"You don't follow me. "pinta Saira then walk to the balcony of the apartment in slow steps.

"Countable, Saira ate a day only 3 spoons, the rest she cried while staring at a photo of her prospective child who miscarried" said Asha

"Asha... Your content is big, you rest. There is no need to think about Saira" Davi said

"True to your husband" Liam added

"Jilk... Go rest with Asha" orders Candra

"Calm down, I'm fine" Asha said. Saira heard their conversation, even though she was outside. Inner saira thrashed, terbesit envy and hatred in Saira's heart.

"Don't think narrow deck" says Candra

"You can still have children" Asha said

"Shut up! Who told you to stay here! Out loe!" snapped Saira

"Saira's... What's my fault, why are you angry?"

"Go loe! Go ye!" snapped Saira then looked around

"Saira's... You why? Why are you angry with Asha? Saira's... Tell a story... L'm... Liam.. Your brother is always there for you" Jili said

"Jilk... I don't want to see you guys... I don't want to see a kid... I lost them Jili... They were my dreams, hopes, wishes for a long time" Saira said

"I'm going to Saira" said Asha

"Son... Not just you... You're... You all go" said Saira and went to the bathroom

"Saira's.. Dear.. What are you doing in Dalem?" Ask Liam

"You guys go I'm out"

"Good... We're out of your room" Liam said

"Just follow this moment" Davi said

"Darling... I'll get you some hot chocolate" Liam said

"Saira's... Answer" said Jili

"Saira you're okay, right?" ask Candra

"You didn't do anything stupid, did you?" ask Davi

"You're out" said Saira quietly, and there was sobbing in the bathroom

"out... Exit... He asked us to come out" Davi said

"Honey.... Wait for.. I'll bring you some hot chocolate that will calm you down" Liam said

Saira was silent. Does not respond to sounds outside the bathroom. He came out when he felt lonely. The room is key from the inside. He still wants to commit suicide. She has miscarried 2 times, she heard from some people, she will not be able to get pregnant again. Her hopes are dashed to have children. Why does he continue to live if no one takes care of him when he is old, he thought. But his mind is dead-end. He just wanted to have children, this hard. Asha who when High School was sentenced will not have children because she has cysts, she is now even pregnant and will give birth.